Exploited, eh? PIP was one of the worst ordeals of my life, where you have to basically convince an utterly disinterested, unempathetic "assessor" whose default setting is "you're lying". And that's exactly what my first assesment said, basically.
@aljwhite
Having no TV and knowing very little of what passes for modern culture, I have absolutely no idea what this, who those people are, and what is happening.
I'd love to work, to earn money (more than benefits that's for sure) and be fulfilled.
Unfortunately I can't. I'm in bed 23.5 hours a day. I have carers, I'm fed like a baby with a spoon.
But ok, I'll just get a job.
ME is damn cruel. At its worst it makes you nearly utterly reliant on other people to survive, but also almost utterly unable to tolerate them being near you, or talking to you, touching you etc.
Amazing GP phone call just now about my high lactate levels.
Basically "get lost".
Told em I have elevated lactate. "Are you short of breath? Do you have infection? Pressure sores?" No.
"I don't know what you want me to do then, you have no clnical signs needing investigation"
Lots of "when you get better" and "when you get well" talk from friends. In a way that doesn't help. I know they mean well. But it's not like I've got a broken leg. Be ok in a few months. Multiple key metabolic pathways in me are broken, with no real cure.
@drpaulwinston
@ZacharyGrinDPT
Yes, all that secondary gain of losing my job, losing my home, losing my savings, losing my health, losing my future, losing the ability to look after myself on the most basic level. So much gain
Spot the presence of PsychoSocial, probably small thread:
Sept 2020, went out on a day trip with my girlfriend. Didn't feel too great, but felt bad saying no. All on foot. Lots of walking. Wanted to go to a souvenir shop closing at 4pm. It was 1554. 1/n
I still want to do things
BRAIN SAYS YES, PLEASE.
BODY still says no
Where was the effort perception fear? Where is the false illness belief? How can CBT fix that?
And all the "just think better bro" books?
END
12/n
If it's just "effort perception" why did I get worse and worse, trying to live normally despite a mild ME diagnosis, until my whole world, formerly full, vibrant and fulfilling, shrunk to become one room, one bed?
25 December 1937 | A Duch Jewish girl, Liesbeth Prins, was born in Amsterdam.
In October 1943 she was deported to
#Auschwitz
and murdered in a gas chamber after the selection.
@CharlieRamsay8
Not all disabilities are visible. For instance I can quite clearly tell you are an idiot now, but had I passed you in the street it might have been difficult to tell.
@frank_really
Very sorry to hear this, and it is clear you are not alone in wanting and being about to leave. Our loss, definitely. The country is in an awful place.
I miss going to parties where I am its life and soul, witticisms streaming from my lips, everyone laughing and admiring me, then going home and wanting to shoot myself
@BarbaraEichner
@kakape
Yes, one would hope. I also think, as a facile comment, the threat of disfigurement or rather, scarring, will cause people to take it more seriously than CoV.
Evidently my my usual carer has decided I am faking it/not trying enough, as she has started no longer helping me as much with things. Even said to my mum "I think he can be doing more than what he is". Which is making me worse. Do t have energy to confront her really.
Serious question, what do "normal people" have as heart rate when standing? And waking? I've seen chydorina DrT say she tries to stay under 80 when walking....I'm 83 after eating dinner, up to 100 standing up at least.
"we wouldn't use blood thinners for that, that's just for clots or cardiac stuff. I wouldn't go looking for problems, you've got enough on your plate already"
*screaming internally*
Outwardly: But it's a main factor in my ME!!
Anyway they won't and can't help
What a situation.
But I can't use my muscles properly, my lactate levels are high indicating metabolic dysfunction.
"You've had all the blood tests we can do, we can't do anymore"
Someone recommend blood thinners perhaps as oxygen isn't being uptaken in my cells properly
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*ROH main page*
Explore our new season!
*clicking link*
"Welcome back to our terrible new useless listing tool which makes finding anything about any production or date basically impossible!"
@whitecarz
@Peston
@OBR_UK
"what do we want?"
Nice things!
"When do we want them?"
Never, because we keep voting for a Government who says austerity is best, and most people believe it.
@LanceForman
@JuliaHB1
@BorisJohnson
Luckily you didn't need to endure shelling or take an AK 47 onto the streets for that one, Lance. Just had to tick a wee little box.
If it's just "effort perception" why did I get worse and worse, trying to live normally despite a mild ME diagnosis, until my whole world, formerly full, vibrant and fulfilling, shrunk to become one room, one bed?
Just in the past week I've seen stories from/about separate women in 3 countries, all with either bad ME/LC, being abused and neglected in hospitals. This has to stop!!
It was hard to convey the "get shunted" attitude and utter "stop bothering me" tone in my 2 minute phone call. But anyway, I don't know why I expected any insight or help at all. Hilarious in a way.
@Telegraph
"the Remainer enemy"? These are people. These are people who drive buses, teach your children, serve in restaurants, help businesses stay on their feet. Disgusting, divisive, language.
If you have ME or CFS, could you reply saying how many supplements you take a day? (Eg, 10, 15, 4, none). just the number/count is ok! Or even a photo! I keep meaning to take one of my morning pills but my phone is always off.
This guy is totally one of those "let me interrupt your experience with my confidence " bros isn't he. Oxford blahblah thinks everything is under his purview, as philosophical whimsy.
@GeorgeMonbiot
@ThosVarley
Well done for completely misunderstanding “psychosomatic” as a designation and continuing to propagate a harmful myth! Something psychological is not unreal, nor is it stigmatising in the mind of anyone except the patients.
PIP decision received. I got what I hoped, but with some creative scoring from the assessor. Apparently I can make a meal with supervision! Well, I am not complaining too much, I got there in the end.
Obligatory "this tweet has done well" stuff:
Please get boosted, or vaccinated if you have not. No-one who helps you will judge you.
Masks help too.
Stay safe, all.
@jude_bowers
We needed convoys from the USA to feed us in WW2, Judy. At one point we were a week from having no food for the country, and Churchill was despairing. But sure, let's all pretend WW2 was lots of fun and that your insane Brexit will be too
Not with a bang: being retired on ill health grounds today, 17 years, one month, 27 days and about 6 hours after being with my company.
Not cause to celebrate really.
My work week went from 5 days to three to two to three and then none, medically retired .
Had to use grocery delivery service.
Then had to ask them to take to my door.
Then I to my flat.
Then too weak to put away.
Then too weak to open
Then to weak to cook safely 10/n
Shout-out to the dude next to me (Lohengrin, Bayreuth) who fell asleep in act I, left 10 mins into in Act II, then came back for Act III and fell asleep who even so applauded feverishly despite seeing in my estimation only about 4% of the entire evening without being asleep.
@tenacious_mumma
Last year I was so unwell that I couldn't tolerate people speaking to me, I'd cry very easily. It was not psychological, my brain was on fire. Docs need to understand it. So sad to read this.
For those who do not have ME or LC, I will try to portray how it feels at its worst. Other pwMELC can also help if you want .
Imagine you have the worst hangover ever. Light hurts. Noise hurts. Voices hurt. Talking hurts. Your brain can't cope. You need calm, or no talking
1/n
CW: distressing
We want you to meet Carla
#SaveCarlasLife
#ExposeMENow
With family's permission we're sharing some videos of her experience in West Middlesex hospital.
This first video is what happens when she is exposed to bright light. Staff won't cover the door window.
If anyone has any clear, digestible, summarised info about the ROH season (ballet and/or opera) in a format that is readable and usable and browseable, I'd be greatly interested. Title, dates, cast. That's all I ask for.