NHS Dr in Bham @ SWBH 🩺 Classical musician 🎵 Dog mum 🐶 Neurodiverse 🌈
She/her 👩
You can't buy friends...unless you have cake. Then you definitely can. 🧁
I forgot a really important thing from today
One of the domestics on the ward asked for my number because she'd like me to make a cake for her
She said she's never had a doctors' phone number in her phone...
...and then proceeded to save me in her phone as "doctor cake"
🥰
OK, I've learnt that the pressure is REAL when you know someone is paying you for a cake 😭😂
This is how it has ended up...I am happy with it but struggling to silence the perfectionist part of my brain 🫣
Really hope they like it...🧁🌸
#doctorcake
#cake
#baking
I booked a GP appointment for tomorrow morning; I'm really nervous
Genuinely thought I'd be able to get a hold of my MH/grief via counselling, self-help etc but I'm going to have to admit I need more help 😔
I know it's the right thing to do, I really want to get better
I think I have met the next generation of surgeons...
#MedTwitter
Making a referral
Surg reg: "any previous surgeries?"
Me: "not really, only x"
Surg reg: "minor tings, minor tings"
Thank you for making me chuckle at the end of a long day! 🥰
When I woke up today, I was suddenly more senior than I was yesterday 🤷♀️
Roll on day 1 of FY2! 😀
(I'm definitely going to accidentally introduce myself as an FY1 😂)
Learning how to do buttercream flower cupcakes - today's practice run ahead of making a bigger batch tomorrow 🌸 🧁
I need to remember to keep the heating off tomorrow...butter and heat don't mix well! 🙃😂
What did you "diagnose" yourself with during med school?
#MedTwitter
#medstudenttwitter
Was chatting with colleagues about this yesterday
For me:
-Cushing's syndrome - 2nd year
-Acute pancreatitis - 4th year
-Ovarian cancer - 5th year
🤦♀️😂
I present to you the finished cupcakes! 🧁
Thrilled with how these have turned out 🥰 Particularly happy with my smaller roses today; definitely better than yesterday 🌹
Really excited to share these with my colleagues tomorrow 😀❤️
A wonderful example of the kind colleagues I'm lucky enough to work with
Gave one of the domestic services staff a cupcake a couple of weeks ago
Every shift since then, she's brought me a jug of orange squash because she knows I'm a squash gal 🥰
#MedTwitter
First ED shift ✅️
#MedTwitter
Today:
-learned that I don't need to wear thermals under my scrubs in ED (cue me melting in front of a patient) 😰
-put out a stroke alert ⚠️
-felt totally lost most of the time 😂
It can only go up from here!
Well there was one thing good today...
It's official! I'm finally going to be an FY2 😃
A lot has happened in the last 1 year + 8 months. I'm proud of myself for getting through the challenging moments
I'm also proud to be training at a pace that's right for *me*
#MedTwitter
Oh my dayyyssss we've just viewed it and it's perfect for us and WE HAVE MADE AN OFFER
I'm so nervous right now waiting for estate agent to call back 😂
30th wedding anniversary cake for my in-laws 😍
It's been a labour of love (+lots of stress + melted buttercream)
The entire cake is gluten free
Bottom tier - vanilla sponge with strawberry buttercream
Top tier - vanilla sponge with buttercream and lemon curd
#doctorcake
This is the most complicated cake I've made to date, and I am really really proud of how it's turned out 😍🎂
Many many hours of work have gone into this ⏰️
I don't even like rugby 😂🏈
#SixNations2024
#Rugby
#Cake
#WalesVEngland
#Gilbert
Reeling after loss of
#MedTwitter
colleague
I want to ask one thing
What are you doing to ensure it doesn't happen to someone else?
Ask someone how they *really* are, go out of your way. Maybe someone you haven't talked to for a while.
Otherwise posting about it means nothing
@SamCarvalho
@KensingtonRoyal
@bbclaurak
100%. She's been forced to release this information and I feel so angry. We are not entitled to this information, we were told that she'd be off public duties until Easter at least...for God's sake people!
I've got my first official cake order 🥰
Making a cake for one of the A&E registrar's wedding anniversary this week 💒
Slightly terrified but also really excited and honestly just genuinely thrilled to have been asked
Nervous about my first ICU shift tomorrow 😬
Induction was good but you gotta get in there and figure it out...
Hoping it won't take too long to become slightly useful 😭
Any tips for ICU welcome!
ED week 1 complete ✅️ Today was great!
#MedTwitter
-gave LA for ABG; for some reason was shocked when it worked 🤣
-Consultant said she has me "earmarked for a career in ED" 😮
-relatives of a sick patient approached me in the corridor to say how much of a difference I made 🥰
THIS is why I bake...sharing is my love language, it's how I say "I appreciate you" 🥰
To see the joy on my colleague's faces mid-way through a busy shift...makes me so happy ❤️
Thank you
@SWBHnhs
A&E for a brilliant 4 months - I'll be back!
#sharing
#connection
#NHS
Oh my dayyyssss we've just viewed it and it's perfect for us and WE HAVE MADE AN OFFER
I'm so nervous right now waiting for estate agent to call back 😂
Booked another house viewing for later this week and bonded with the estate agent over our shared love of exposed brick 😂 look at that kitchen/diner though 😍
ICU day 1 ✅️
I'm so grateful for all the advice. I read the comments while I was feeling a little overwhelmed this afternoon
Trying to be kind to myself - I wouldn't expect a colleague to know everything about ventilators etc on day 1!
I got through it - upwards 💪❤️
Nervous about my first ICU shift tomorrow 😬
Induction was good but you gotta get in there and figure it out...
Hoping it won't take too long to become slightly useful 😭
Any tips for ICU welcome!
As I near the end of F1, I've been reflecting on experiences with seniors
As the most junior doctor in the NHS, it's made me think about how *I* want/don't want to be when I'm a senior
Please add your own experiences! What's shaped you?
#MedTwitter
#MedStudentTwitter
🧵 1/12
1st cake made for A&E colleagues! Chocolate and strawberry 🍓🍰
Fudgy choc sponges sandwiched with fresh strawberry buttercream and chocolate ganache 😍
Yes that rogue drip at the bottom is annoying me 😂
Ozzy had spontaneous zoomies this morning and I wanted to share the joy! 🐕🐾🐶
I'd guess zoomies are like the dog version of breaking into song? Maybe humans should zoom, too
Did my first arterial line today 😀
OK, when I say "did", I was in the right place (confirmed using US), got flashback, bleeding well
Lost it while threading - apparently common. Why is it harder to thread than normal cannula? In my head walls are thicker = should be easier
Doctor Cake update 🎂
One of the HCAs came up to me to say how much she liked my cake, and she wanted my number
Did she want me to make her a cake? Nope
She wants to make ME a curry and wanted to know what curry I would like 🍛
Might be the biggest compliment I've ever had 🥰
I forgot a really important thing from today
One of the domestics on the ward asked for my number because she'd like me to make a cake for her
She said she's never had a doctors' phone number in her phone...
...and then proceeded to save me in her phone as "doctor cake"
🥰
Today is National Doctor's Day!
#nationaldoctorsday
I work with doctors every day, from FY1 to consultant, who go above and beyond and don't get half the recognition they deserve, so I'm going to shout about them! ❤️
Here is just a selection of docs I've been lucky to work with
This is my first try at "vintage" buttercream piping, it's giving me beauty and the beast vibes 😍👑🏰
Need more practice, but I'm very happy with how the colours have come out 😀
Not real cake - I have iced a cake dummy (polystyrene)
#doctorcake
#cake
#vintage
#baking
It finally happened...
Took a male med student with me to see a patient, did the whole shabang, do an AMTS and get to the "what's my job" question
I was a nurse, patient assumed med student was the doctor 🙃
Poor med student was mortified 😂
#MedTwitter
#womeninmedicine
Plastics theatre today, practiced suturing and learned how to do digital nerve block 😁
At end of list, consultant says "well they're not the greatest sutures in the world, but I really like working with you!"
We all start somewhere, right? 🤣
#MedTwitter
I saw a Mike Wazowski mug on Tiktok the other day and wanted to get one
I added a note to my personal to-do list saying "I want a Mike Wazowski mug"
I had, in fact, unknowingly added it to the shared shopping list with my husband
And then this comes in the post 🥰😍❤️
Surprise cake delivered - "an extremely happy palliative care team", I'm told! 🥰 a delayed thank you after enjoying my taster with them!
Easter-themed decor, vanilla sponges filled with vanilla buttercream and homemade lemon curd = YUM 🐣🐰🍋
@medicalmodelbri
One of the comments that bothered me most in this video was
"What is the point of seeing a patient who already has a treatment plan?"
That is *so* much of medicine?? By that logic she is saying that she thinks they should *only* do undifferentiated patients
@DrJulia_Simons
Oh gosh I could have written this myself. I couldn't get hold of my ES for about 6 months after and by the time I did she had obviously totally forgotten. I am SO sorry for your loss and the lack of support and the trauma that caused. I hope you are doing better now?
Finally finished 🎂💤
Blackberry mousse cake - vanilla sponge cakes swirled with blackberry jam, sandwiched with blackberry buttercream and blackberry mousse
As
@drdev95
has kindly pointed out to me; yes, there are blackberries in it 🙄
Stood in Costa queue earlier, someone says to me "Are you Erin? We tweet!"
So lovely to put a face to the name
@marshaj1772
! 🥰
There was even talk of being part of a Schwartz round panel, aiming to get more JDs involved! Exciting stuff...cake could definitely be involved 👀
Can't believe this awful news. Devastated.
Echo what Bella has said. Xmas can be a particularly difficult time of year. If you need to talk, whether we know each other or not, pls reach out to me (or anyone) if you feel able to
Please
Dear
#medtwitter
We lost one of our own today. I won’t say who out of respect for their family.
But this online community has been such an amazing source of love & comfort for so many doctors.
If you are struggling, lean on us. Lean on me.
You aren’t alone 🤍
Really pleased to see my trust celebrating doctors on SoMe
Disappointed by the comments; so quick to criticise a clearly well-intentioned post
Josh may have asked to be called "Josh"
I have been asked to do one of these for
@SWBHnhs
and I will be asking them to call me Erin!
Did you know that the NHS employs over 75,000 junior doctors across the UK?
One of them at SWB is Josh - who works in our Same Day Emergency Care (SDEC) department. His ambition is to do the right thing for every patient.
#PeopleofSWB
It's
#WorldAutismAwarenessDay
#AutismAcceptanceMonth
What does autism look like? It can look like the woman in the photo below...me!
A doctor, a teacher, a lawyer...autism has no "look"
Unfortunately there's still lots of stigma around autism, so let's talk about it!
1/11 🧵
Another baked goods delivery
@SWBHnhs
🧁
I was so excited; I made a separate box of 6 cupcakes to surprise the mental health team, they really supported me on Friday with a case that was lingering on my mind. They were thrilled 😀
The rest shared with the lovely ED team
@EC_SWB
Medicine is demanding; long hours, unpredictable shift patterns, moving jobs frequently
Recently, I've realised the other side of it: emotional trauma (aware many of you dealt with this with COVID)
Things you see. Things you're told by patients. And then you just carry on 🤷♀️
Beautiful end to a challenging week; a sign of better days to come? 🙏 🌈
GP apt was positive. Some things to act on and a check-in phone call in a couple of weeks ☎️
Managed to explain how dark things have been, even though it was scary
Cake and samosas at work helped too ❤️
Can't believe another changeover is only 10 days away. Glad I've rotated through specialties for many reasons but am feeling a bit jaded...
I really want to "belong" somewhere, get to know my team, even just be invited to staff events etc 😕 do any other HCPs rotate like docs?
Last A&E shift done (last shift as FY1!) without realising...not expected in over the bank holiday like I thought 😮 I have loved my A&E job
@EC_SWB
❤️
Last 8 months haven't been easy. Didn't think I'd make it through FY1 at times but lucky to have had people in my corner 🥰
Another induction done ✅️
A fellow SHO had heard about
#doctorcake
on the grapevine! 🧁
Highlight of my day was meeting Liz
@lovescoob
- funny how the right people seem to pop up just when you need them! ❤️
Had forgotten just how long City Hospital corridor is though 😂
Down in CT this morning and a patient (not mine) stopped me in the corridor
Patient: miss, are you a doctor?
Me (wondering what medical question I'm about to be asked): yes I am
Patient: it really suits you, it's just a vibe
No idea what that means but made me feel great 🤣🥰
A&E registrar just sent me a photo of after they cut the cake and I have to say I am very happy with the layers 😍
Second photo is the first proper cake I did (August 2023), and tbf it tasted lovely but I'm super happy with the progress I've made with decorating!
OK, I've learnt that the pressure is REAL when you know someone is paying you for a cake 😭😂
This is how it has ended up...I am happy with it but struggling to silence the perfectionist part of my brain 🫣
Really hope they like it...🧁🌸
#doctorcake
#cake
#baking
I like to make a special cake just before changeover to say thank you, but this year it will still be
#Ramadan
which many colleagues observe
Would it be insensitive to bring something for 4pm handover e.g. cupcakes and leave it there for people to have after sundown?
Nothing like some last minute portfolio cramming...
My 2nd and FINAL ARCP of FY1 is tomorrow 🙏😀 1 year and 8 months later, she's ready to be an FY2! 🎉
My seat for the next couple of hours, making sure it's all nice and tidy 🧹
Happy birthday Ozzy - 2 years old today 🥳🎉🐾🎂
He was always a lucky dog...born at about 5am on the morning of the first of my med school final exams!
He has changed our lives for the better, couldn't ask for a better dog ❤️
Dr Cake returned to this ward on Thursday and bumped into my favourite domestics ❤️
They called other staff over, saying "look, our doctor is back!"
*Our* doctor 🥹
And my fave HCA offered to make me another curry ❤️
This is why I love getting to know *all* ward staff 🥰
I forgot a really important thing from today
One of the domestics on the ward asked for my number because she'd like me to make a cake for her
She said she's never had a doctors' phone number in her phone...
...and then proceeded to save me in her phone as "doctor cake"
🥰
When I'm a senior...
I will be a colleague to my juniors. I won't make a point of my seniority, I won't make them feel small.
I will make it clear that it is safe to approach me for advice and that I will do my best to help them, or signpost them to someone who can.
2/12
Nothing like a baptism by fire...3 back-to-back EMRTs in the first 15 mins of my shift 😮
On the plus side, I've conquered my fear of attending EMRTs quickly!
The EMRT team were really supportive ❤️
Glad I have started to carry snacks in my scrubs. Time to refuel now...
Had a wonderful evening out with A&E colleagues 🚑 and yummy dinner from
@Dishoom
😍
What is really lovely is that such genuine friendships are forming between colleagues from FY1/FY2 to ST6 level! It's so nice to have time to be just *people* rather than doctors ❤️
Finally finished my portfolio for FY1 🎉 😀 until my supervisor tells me otherwise, at least 😂
As much as portfolio can be a bore sometimes, I can see the progress I've made and that feels great 🥰
Now just to do it all again for 5 FY2 jobs! 😝 but first, MAFS AU...
Booked another house viewing for later this week and bonded with the estate agent over our shared love of exposed brick 😂 look at that kitchen/diner though 😍
So nice to see the
#RCPCH24
tweets starting. Seems crazy that I was able to go to Glasgow for a day last year but can't afford to go in my own city (had travel reimbursed as I was collecting a prize) - congrats to all the med students and foundation docs getting their prizes ❤️
When I'm a senior...
I won't play games. I won't make juniors feel like they need to impress me. I won't say one thing with an undertone that implies something else. I won't make my colleagues feel that they need to guess my mood for the day, for their own safety.
3/12
I think the most important thing I've learned from being an FY1 is...
...that I have *so* much to learn
Not just clinically, I'm talking work dynamics, figuring out a career path, figuring out who you can trust and who's on your side
Trying to be patient with myself 🙏
Just received this email from one of the med students I've supported this week and confirm I've now melted 🥰
I used to think that only making *big* impact like "changing the world" would satisfy me
But honestly? It's these little things every day that make me happiest. ❤️
ICU day 2 ✅️
Glad I journalled yesterday. Felt so much imposter syndrome...already today I feel so much better
Thrown into the deep end with 3 back 2 back EMRTs so definitely less scared of them now!
And yes I took the EMRT bag on my break, didn't want to get caught out 😂
@Dr_BellaR
This. And other HCPs. My cousin was a paramedic for only 6 months before she took her life. We dedicate our lives to looking after people but who looks after us? When will we be viewed as anything other than service provision, as a replaceable number?
2 weeks before A level results, I was fairly sure I hadn't met the grade I needed in chemistry (I hadn't)
I was heartbroken and planning my options for a year out before reapplying
My mum said to me "don't worry I never saw you as a doctor anyway"
I'm a doctor 💪
I want to hear some underdog stories. Tell me about your 12th grade advisor who said you wouldn’t get into college, your premed advisor who said you wouldn’t get into med school, etc. tell me all the ways you’ve turned their doubt into fuel 💪
Grateful for friends old and new (not just those in the pic below!) as we look to the new year...don't be strangers 🗓🎉
I hope 2024 brings blessings and joy to you all 😊
Happy NYE.
This is a really good point...while I love baking there were points last year when I was struggling with my mental health where I felt under pressure to bring cakes in each week and I felt like I let people down if I didn't 🤷♀️
This year I'm focusing on doing it for *me*
We need to be careful with cake clubs at work that the pressure of producing a Bake Off worthy treat doesn't add to the burden people are already carrying.
For those who get pleasure in baking, great
But permission to buy a packet of biscuits from the supermarket is also needed.
A big moment for me
Clerked a patient with a non-mental health issue, but turned out they were suicidal
And I managed it
And I was OK
And I helped them
And I felt happy about that
That's something I've not been able to do in months after losing a loved one to s*icide
Really making an effort to expand my baking repertoire (and portfolio for GBBO application next year 👀)
Today I'm making pain aux raisins 😍
Will be taking them into husband's office later while still warm for a taste test 😀
New skills:
-puff pastry
-creme patissiere
@RBH_SALT
What a lovely comment; I hadn't actually thought about it that way! As she started typing "doctor" I started to say "oh please just save me as Erin" but then she said "no no, you are doctor cake" 🤣 can't argue with that!
A surprise box of cupcakes safely delivered 🧁
Choc cupcakes with a coffee mousse centre topped with chocolate fudge buttercream ☕️
Made these before without a filling but wanted to do a coffee chocolate thing for ages and I do enjoy a mousse 😍
Every changeover is weird. It was lovely to see my A&E colleagues today but afterwards? That's just it 🤷♀️
Now I'm just in limbo...left the warmth and familiarity of the job I know and onto the unknown
Tomorrow I'll be an FY1 and the next day I'll suddenly be an FY2/SHO? Mad
Finally good house news...mortgage application attempt 2 has been approved 🙏
Haven't had to think much about it for the last month as broker was dealing with crap behind the scenes
Intended completion end of March...now it's moving again is it normal to be a bit nervous?!
FINALLY finished!! 🎂
I'm super happy with this, I learned from mistakes I made last time and I think it's much neater than the last cake I did 😁
Time for bed 💤
This is probably my all-time favourite photo of Ozzy. He was 15 weeks old here. We'd won a free photoshoot 📷
High five is still his favourite trick. Thinking of recreating this photo now he's a bit bigger! 🥰
I don't know why it's taken so long to understand why I'm finding it hard to move forward with grief
My support network changes every 4 months with jobs; basically means it's impossible to have one
Right now all I want is to belong *somewhere*
I think this is a big part of it
Had interim ARCP on Thurs. Already had full ARCP for F1, despite that I was bricking it 😂
Felt *so* good to hear "you'll be ready to be F2 in April" 😃
Still remember 4th yr med student Erin not wanting to admit I'd need to work LTFT - but now I'm thriving, at my own pace 🥰