I write lots of inane rubbish on here but one of the few things I'm serious about is helping other parents - especially dads - who have lost a child. I hope my own experience of loss, therapy and recovery can help others:
In loving memory of our son, Edward, who died in our arms 11 years ago this morning. He left us as the sun rose & the birds began to sing. Sending love to everyone but especially all other bereaved parents who are missing their beautiful children. x
Unapologetic proud dad tweet.
My 16 year old daughter is a finalist in the UK Young Fashion Designer of the Year Award on Saturday. It’s for this corset that she made from scratch for her Textiles GCSE is the summer.
Even if it doesn’t fit me.
In loving memory of our son, Edward, who passed away in our arms 10 years ago today. As I write, at 1am, we’d just turned off his life support. He left at dawn as the sun rose & the birds began to sing. We miss him so much but our lives will always be blessed because of him. 1/3
I haven't celebrated my birthday since one of my children died 8 years ago and often go out of my way to avoid it as it's never felt right. But, I am 50 today & think even my son would say "Cheer up you miserable bastard."
So I'm off for a walk with my beautiful wife and kids.
To end, I came across this quote a few weeks ago about the pain of
#grief
. It stopped me in my tracks but I hope it provides other bereaved parents, especially those at the beginning of their journey (or anybody who needs it) with the comfort it gave me. Love to you all. 3/3
I’m lucky to have 3 kids. 2 here with us today, the other sadly passed away. Being their father is the greatest honour of my life. Happy Father’s Day to all the dads. Here’s me with our beautiful lost boy Edward. He’d be 13 now and telling me to pull myself together!
Good on Ian Hislop for calling out Gary Neville on Qatar. I like Neville but unless his commentary contains constant criticism of Qatar and shines a bright light on its human rights abuses, he hasn’t got a foot to stand on. Ironically.
#HIGNFY
I just heard my son's favourite song, Firework by Katy Perry, on the radio. It's been 10 years since he died. I used to listen to it all the time but haven't for a while. It almost floored me but it also reminded me of his lovely little smile & the joy he brought into our lives.
I'm not religious, but as a bereaved parent some things do make me stop, think and hope. This morning I caught a white feather in my hand as it drifted down from the sky. It doesn't matter what it means, if anything at all, but it made me think of my son and made me smile.
#grief
This photo just popped up. 10 years today. Our boys trips to the supermarket were such fun. They’d pull stuff off the shelves without me noticing until check out & then laugh themselves silly. Edward (right) passed away 8 months later but it’s a lovely memory I’ll always cherish.
As always on this day I get lots of lovely messages about our son. Thank you.
My over-riding wish is that other bereaved parents who are just starting this journey can see that there is life after child loss.
It will always hurt but you'll get stronger & be able to smile again.
2 yrs ago, my wife suggested I get involved with my son's rugby team as it would help bring back some of the joy I lost after his brother died. I was doubtful & reluctant.
Yesterday our U14 side won a 7s tournament. I sat in the car afterwards & had a little cry.
She was right.
I'm a former Tory voter who has never voted for Labour but I hope with every ounce of my being that this Tory party is sent into electoral oblivion as soon as feasibly possible. It is rotten to its core.
#PMQs
As a father of a boy whose short life was only possible because of The Evelina, I am saddened by this news. The funds were received in good faith and surely no doctor, nurse or parent would care that the money came from this idiotic fundraiser when a child’s life is being saved.
It’s our son’s 13th birthday today, which also means that it’s his twin brother’s 13th. Sadly Edward passed away in 2013, but I like to mark his birthday too, even if it’s only on Twitter. Happy birthday, beautiful boy. x
In those 10 years I’ve learnt much about life & met many other parents who are on the same journey, some who’ve helped me & taught me how to help others. It’s a club nobody wants to join but it’s been an honour to know each other & share the memories of our children. 2/3
So we've got British skiers being idiots in Verbier, British backpackers being prats in Sydney and the world calling the new faster spreading mutant COVID the 'British strain'.
Fool Britannia.
After a 30 yr gym habit I've taken up cycling. It's been a revelation. Apart from the obvious workout it's meditative. I get to think about and 'talk' to my son who died in 2013. I only realised this today when I started talking out loud to him. Made me smile. I hope he did too.
I’m about to cast my vote for the Lib Dems
@abcpoppins
in The Cotswolds in one of the safest Tory seats in the country. Nothing is going to change here unless we remove the utterly useless Geoffrey Clifton Brown, who is officially ranked the worst MP in the country.
#GE2109
Lineker receives the ball on the edge of the box and nutmegs Neil before smashing it into the back of the net. Walks back to the halfway line past a prostrate Neil and bends down, like John Aldridge in the '88 FA semi final replay, to ruffle his toupee.
Not embarrassed in the slightest. I’ve been mistaken many times. Was clearly wrong about Bercow, and bullying is awful and never acceptable. We all make misjudgements about people or things…don’t we, Andrew?
It is approaching the 9 year anniversary of our son's death. For those in the early steps of this journey, although it never gets easy, you get better and stronger at handling it. I used to fall to pieces for most of July, so hang in there. If I can do it, so can you.
#grief
It’s almost the 11th anniversary of our son’s death. As always I popped into the church to see his name in the memorial book. No matter how often I do it & how much I prepare it still hits hard. It feels like another world that we somehow left & can’t find the way back in.
#grief
Today is our son’s 15th birthday. A happy day. It’s also his twin brother’s birthday, who will forever be 4 years old. So a day of reflection too.
I am not religious but a Happy Easter to all who mark it.
Here’s to better days ahead for everyone.
@13sarahmurphy
I heard one of the best descriptions yet of Brexit the other day….
It’s like watching a library get burnt down by people who can’t read.
I am moving from ambivalence towards royalty to a more republican position the older I get but I hope Prince Harry succeeds in court. There's an entire generation of tabloid editors and journalists, led by Piers Morgan, who should probably be in jail.
Remembering that Piers Morgan outed Holly from Frankie goes to Hollywood as having HIV when it was really stigmatised. He also blocked me because I mentioned it everytime he trended lol
Six years ago today, at dawn, our son Edward passed away in our arms. We love and miss him so much. My heart broke for ever but I am so proud to be his father. Rest easy, wherever you are, beautiful boy. x
Great start to the debate. I shouted “bullshit” within the first 10 seconds of Sunak’s first answer.
It’s going to be a long hour. Might go and have a shower.
#ITVDebate
#SunakvStarmer
I criticised Dan Walker a couple of years ago for being too soft on a Tory MP. To be fair, he criticised me back with a perfectly reasonable response. As politics has got even more divisive since, it’s actually quite refreshing to see this more respectful style.
We live in the age of the jabby, confrontational interview & the RMTs, Mick Lynch, has had a few of them.
If you treat people with respect, you can still ask tough questions & get decent answers allowing your audience to make their own minds up
@5_News
@13sarahmurphy
Dominic Raab on
#BBCR4
:
“The speed of the Taliban advance took us all by surprise.”
Next sentence: “We’ve been closely monitoring the situation since 2020.”
Which one is it?
@jtjbooth
That is just lovely. Sadly, our son passed away when he was 4, but I am still in touch with one of the nurses that looked after him. She is an absolute angel.
Well, fellow bereaved parents, we made it. For some, a first new year without your child, for others another year. I’ve been out for the first time for new year since our boy died in 2013, had a bit to drink and it’s ok. Going to bed now. Lots of love to you all. x
Merry Christmas everyone, but especially our little community of bereaved parents, so many of whom have put up lovely pictures of their children this morning and are remembering them. It’s 10 years since our last Christmas as a family. Lots of love to you all. x
@itvmeridian
@lewis_goodall
@BorisJohnson
Boris Johnson at Sandhurst.
Could there be a greater contrast between these fine young men and women who are willing to put their lives on the line to serve their country, and a man who'd rather put his country on the line to serve himself?
I have been out all day with my family and just seen the reaction to this tweet. I am blown away by the kind comments. Thank you so much to all of you. I’m a bit tired and emotional now but will do my best to reply to everybody tomorrow. x
How quickly our MPs are able to move from the seriousness & significance of the infected blood scandal, the anniversary of the Manchester bombings & the return of Craig McKinlay to the Commons.
Up stands Danny Kruger with the usual bullshit & the braying donkeys return.
#PMQs
Whatever happens today, Roger Federer, a man in his 37th year competing for a potential 20th Grand Slam, has to be a contender for the greatest living sportsperson. Perhaps even the best of all time.
#Federer
#AusOpen
@DeborahMeaden
Awful.
I've got a liberal sense of humour. I can find it in most situations. I laughed when a vicar unintentionally said something funny minutes after my son died. I made a joke in the opening line of his eulogy.
But I've never told, laughed at or even heard a joke about rape.
It's five years since our son died and I have - as much as I think I ever will - just about come to terms with it. But the love between this boy and his nana has absolutely broken me this evening. It puts so much in perspective.
@DeborahMeaden
I don't have a problem with a 71 year old being tested. I have a problem with thousands of frontline NHS staff not being tested. Without them, many 71 year olds will die.
2 years ago I would have responded to Nick Clegg’s knighthood with anger but given the state of UK politics, the constant dishonesty at the heart of government, the duplicity of Corbyn’s Labour Party & the depths we are now plumbing I would welcome him back with open arms today.
This is just depressing. People shouting “covid is a hoax” outside St Thomas’s Hospital where people are dying and others are desperately trying to care for them on New Year’s Eve.
Worked the late A&E SHO shift on NYE and came out to this. Hundreds of maskless, drunk people in huge groups shouting "Covid is a hoax", literally outside the building where hundreds are sick and dying. Why do people still not realise the seriousness of this pandemic?
I'm going to say something a bit trite....
I've spent the last few years getting increasingly stressed & angry about politics & the world, much of which has been reflected in my tweets.
The love I've been shown for this tweet has lifted me & renewed my hope.
Thank you.
The silence of many Conservatives who know that their party has been taken over by a corrupt and self-serving cabal is one of the most worrying things about what's happening to UK politics.
It might take a while, but I don't think history will be kind to them.
I know my timeline is a bit sad & probably hard work for many at this time of year but, as somebody who was never into dogs, I’ve been blown away by this little nutcase since we got him. This is the first time he’s been around & he has somehow even helped with the grief. Idiot.
Caught Kamila Valieva's performance over lunch. The dope test failure should've prevented her taking part in the first place but instead the world has just watched a 15 year old child fall apart in public.
The 'adults' involved should hang their heads in shame.
#WinterOlympics
Our son has had a very badly infected toe for several months. Antibiotics haven't been able to shift it. For a family that have lost a child to sepsis, it's been a tad stressful.
Today, he saw an NHS podiatrist and will be operated on in two weeks.
Very relieved and grateful.
One of our little boy's favourite songs was Firework by Katy Perry. Whenever I hear it I imagine him dancing up in the sky.
Just heard it for the first time in a while. An emotional mix of joy and sadness.
It always puts things in perspective.
Today I’m working a short walk from The Evelina Children’s Hospital where our son died almost 10 years ago. I lost my faith but I still find the chapel here peaceful & calming. It’s a good place to think about him, what I’ve done with my life since & what I should do next.
For obvious reasons I've got many bereaved parents on my feed at different stages of grief. There are times when they lash out & say things they don't mean. Please be patient with them. It's very hard to explain the pain they're in. I'll always be grateful to those who helped me.
As a dad who has lost a child there is so much in this beautifully written article by
@robdelaney
that resonates & hurts. It left me in pieces. ‘The heaviest pain in the world’ — Rob Delaney on his son’s death | The Sunday Times Magazine
I write this post every year but today the response has been incredible. So much love and connections made too with other bereaved parents. To cap it all, I've just been out for a late night walk with the dog & been treated to a magnificent shoot star. Thank you & goodnight all.
One pitfall of being a bereaved parent & social media is the reminders they insist on sending even when turned off. Today's is our son's pre-op check. After many years of anger & sorrow I'm proud of myself that they now remind me how lovely he was rather than just pain. Progress.
@bmay
Yup. I had lunch recently with a lawyer overseeing the Brexit transition for one of the UK's biggest banks last month. He said that it's a bloodbath, much of which is being hidden from the public, and that almost everything he is doing is damage limitation.
When you like or respond to a post about a lost loved one, especially a child, you help the parent to validate their existence & cope with their grief. It’s not just about our son, but all the children who have died, their parents & our community.
Thank you to all 32k of you. x
Just had a client cancel a project three quarters of the way in to it. They then called to say that they will pay in full in recognition of the work done so far and as a token of goodwill. Just lovely - as a freelancer it makes so much difference to work with people like that.
For those who asked to be kept informed, our daughter won the UK Young Fashion Designer Award today. The competition was breathtaking, including this Alexander McQueen inspired dress made by a boy she went to primary school with. They’re both just 16. Amazing.
I haven’t celebrated new year since our son died but we tried something new tonight. The 4 of us played games & watched videos of when we were a family of 5. It was emotional but so lovely to see him & hear his voice again. Now for a small whiskey & maybe a cigar. Happy New Year.
@MaiaDunphy
Well, at risk of offending people (but I hope not) I did a list of my own a few years ago after our son died. I was very angry, something for which I eventually needed therapy, but it's an honest account. My apologies in advance:
@Depheruk
What a legacy William has through you.
We are coming up to the 10 year anniversary of our son's passing too. Much love to you from another family that knows....
Prime Minister Rishi Sunak and Labour leader Sir Keir Starmer were among those attending the event at Spencer House in London on Thursday.
Full story 📰
A friend of mine, a fellow bereaved parent, shared this quote about
#grief
elsewhere. My anger wouldn't have let me agree with it in the early days but as the years have passed I'd now say it's good advice for the rest of your life.
If you're in those early days, hold on.
I met Simon Weston briefly at a charity do recently. A very decent chap who's done an immense amount for others despite what he has had to endure.
On the 40th anniversary of the Falklands, take time to consider that Gavin Williamson has a knighthood and Simon Weston doesn't.
'You develop your own abilities of coping as life goes on.'
Simon Weston, who was aboard the Sir Galahad when it was bombed during the Falklands Conflict, tells
@kategarraway
and
@richardm56
how he remains so positive.
Watch GMB on ITV 👉
We've been here, facing a choice of continuing treatment or withdrawing it for our son. We chose the latter.
Resist the urge to judge his parents. Instead wish them well in the tragic and inevitable passing of their child and be thankful that it isn't you.
#ArchieBattersbee
The parents Archie Battersbee have lost a Supreme Court bid to block the withdrawal of his life-sustaining treatment pending a review of his case by a UN committee
Just been talking to my 17 yr old daughter. She told me that at the Reading Festival she & her friends had to protect each other from men with syringes, that she was air-tagged (ie so that she could be followed) & that just last night her friend’s drink was spiked. Awful.
To my fellow bereaved parents, this photo used to upset me so much. I’ll always be sad, of course, and will likely have a moment later but over time you will also be able to smile again at the wonderful moments your child brought into your life. Hang on in there. x
@gsmum
@catrionamoore13
@EvelinaLondon
@Baddiel
I respect your opinion. Mine comes from holding my son as he died at The Evelina knowing that I’d have taken money from anyone, done anything, if it could have saved him. The event was stupid for sure but it should be dealt with at source not punished at the point of delivery.
@BBCChrisMorris
It is in the national interest that this format for
#PMQs
is retained. We should all want our leaders to be put under proper scrutiny without their supporting chorus of braying donkeys drowning out accountability, transparency and actual answers to questions.
#PostOfficeScandal
Answers please from:
Paula Vennells CBE, Adam Crozier, Dame Moya Green.
Regarding the outrageous conduct of executives and managers in this scandal. How do they sleep at night knowing innocent people went to jail for crimes they did not commit.
#BBCBreakfast
Seven years ago tonight we turned off our son Edward’s life support. He passed away just after dawn in our arms. I love and miss him more than I can ever express and am so proud to be his dad.
#childloss
#grief
It's 10 years today that I received a rejection from an ad agency looking for a 'truly entrepreneurial Managing Director' with the words "the management team felt that you were too entrepreneurial".
Glory days.
Iain Dale pulling out of trying to become the next Tory MP of Tunbridge Wells because he's on record saying he hates the place is a beautiful summary of the state of British politics after 14 years of Tory rule.
Got a niche question for fellow bereaved parents. Do you ever dream of your child? I'm 9 years down the track & only dreamt of my son once, right at the beginning. I'm in two minds about it: would dreaming about him just be awful when I wake up or would it be lovely to 'see' him?
@JamesBlunt
I listened to this song just after my father died. I was driving my car and had to pull over once I started listening to the lyrics. Very emotional and poignant. Hope you get to see him soon.
In most professions, and life in general, this kind of consistent inability to recall events would mark you down as untrustworthy, unreliable and unfit for office.
Sunak’s relationship with honesty and truth is no better than Johnson’s.
What a sad state of affairs.
I follow many bereaved parents & noticed this year Christmas seems even harder than usual, esp for those having their first one without their child. If you know anybody in this situation please don’t forget them. I know from experience that just a word can make a big difference.
We had our son Edward’s candle lit all day today. The E was kind of appropriate too. Much love to those many others grieving lost children and other loved ones who’ve found the last few days very difficult.
Listening to Mick Lynch on the News Agents podcast and struck by this observation:
“Too many people think that they are customers of society rather than members of it.”