idk i have a job and i work decent hours but im not friends w any of my coworkers and its hard for me to see the few friends i have and i feel like they hate me its just hard i want to feel like im not alone but idk
i legitimately dont know what the fuck is wrong with me why are my feelings literally all over the fucking place is this just normal why isnt anyone else in my life like this why cant people relate to me
please god i have to stop making stupid ball jokes on interaction bait tweets but its so hard to not instinctively reply to all these posts w some shit like ‘I HAVE MASSIVE BALLS’
i hate almost all my friends they only talk to me when its convenient for them or when they want something from me and i guess its my fault for expecting that the effort i put into friendships be reciprocated
if i see someone on this website try and make some shitty/overblown april fools joke this year theyre actually dead to me like holy shit we cannot be doing this still
therapist today said i have bpd 😵💫 feels rlly scary but also nice in some ways like maybe im not an awful person, probably getting a full diagnosis soon maybe idk
bpdtwt is great until u realize that we all have bpd and we impulsively go dark all the time or make new accts and keeping contact w anyone is so hard 💀