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Nathalie Lawhead

5 months

It's here!✨🔮🌔💀 BlueSuburbia just hit Steam Early Access! Steam: itch: Explore the first open world, immerse yourself in poetic dreamscapes, and delve deeper into a beautiful nightmare. ~ (rt's appreciated, help spread the word!)

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

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y’all the Palestine Relief Bunfle is 91% close to the 🤯half a million💰 goal. please keep sharing it around. this cause needs all the support it can get.

Games Bundle for Palestine

@vgforpalestine

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7 days left to buy the Palestine bundle! Here's a showcase of games you can get...

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

5 years

i wrote a post that you should read calling out my r*pist & naming names please read it if you believe me please share it, please rt it, put it on full blast i don't want any woman to ever get hurt by him again [TW: sexual assault, game industry "legends"]

calling out my rapist

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

3 years

thank you 😭

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@alienmelon

5 years

It's out! The Electric Zine Maker (public beta) ⚡️ Easily create, draw, write, and print zines! 📝 Folding instructions included!! ✂️ You can save them, and re-import them. ☺️ Made with collaboration in mind. ✨ Try it! It's free!! ✨ (rt's appreciated 💕)

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@alienmelon

6 years

If games are art then we have to embrace the idea that they don't have to be fun. Art is not always fun. It covers a wide spectrum of emotions, and concepts. 1/6

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@alienmelon

4 years

it's wild to see stuff like this because there were SO MANY women that spearheaded this technology and were part of the movement to drive it forward, including at Macromedia, but we are literally never mentioned. 1/19 here's a thread, do read (you owe us that):

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@JGamesCh

4 years

I wrote a visual article about how Flash games shaped the video game industry, with contributions from the creator of Flash and more than 20 former Flash game developers.

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

3 years

Thank you I don't have any more words... just THANK YOU to everyone who stood beside me during this, tweeted about it, and didn't give up either.

Thank You

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@alienmelon

4 years

hey this is really cool! "GB Studio is a visual game builder with no programming knowledge required allowing you to make real Game Boy ROMs in minutes." 👇👇👇

GB Studio

@GBStudioDev

4 years

GB Studio 1.2.0 is here with even more great features! Color! Menus! Avatars! Check it out at

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@alienmelon

5 years

Re: cease and desist I stand by my statement of what happened to me. There is no way that I will EVER retract it. My allegations are true and if they are defamatory that is consequence to his actions and not mine.

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@alienmelon

5 years

the opposite of what I expected happened and I’m deeply touched by the support and the courage of others to speak up too. small update: I’m recovering from writing that & it will be a while before I have energy to respond to messages or emails or be on the internet.

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@alienmelon

3 years

I am telling the truth. I have published what she did TO OTHERS. I have shared SCREENSHOTS of what she has done TO OTHERS. I am NOT THE ONLY ONE THIS WAS DONE TO. Your reporting is predatory. You endangered us. You don't care.

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@alienmelon

3 years

i wrote a post detailing what Cecilia D’Anastasio has done to other survivors when she covered metoo stories here. this includes anonymized screenshots... this is serious. please read this and share.

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

6 years

the OS i'm building is very accident prone

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@alienmelon

2 years

hey y’all your girl made it!! 🎉💕😭🙏☺️ i am honored to finally announce that “Everything is going to be OK” was accepted into the permanent collection at MoMA!! the exhibit will be this September. more info in reply…

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

6 years

"Everything is going to be OK" 💕 an interactive zine meets desktop labyrinth of vignettes, poetry, strange fever dream games, and broken digital spaces. 💕 🔥 itch 🔥 GJ (the update is out now! new missing pages added)

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@alienmelon

3 years

@ everyone that helped me and tweeted about this: thank you. we did it. 😭🤯

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@alienmelon

3 years

i wrote a post “Relax, babe. It’s just business.” – Game Journalism on Stephen Totilo’s leaving Kotaku & how Those In Charge managed to avoid responsibility for it because they're privileged enough to... please read it & share. stop ignoring this.

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@alienmelon

5 years

I gave an interview for this. it was the hardest one I’ll ever give. I hope that, with this information being in the open, he will never hurt anyone again.

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@Kotaku

5 years

Two women accuse Skyrim composer Jeremy Soule of sexual misconduct:

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@alienmelon

4 years

i wrote about tools! ❤️🔧 lots of cool tools! 🔨😎 new post about the wonderful world of tools made by small teams, solo-devs, and shareware... weird, beautiful, and experimental things to be creative in 👉 (a lot of these are relevant to gamedev too 😊)

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@alienmelon

4 years

i wrote a post... "What it’s like sharing your #metoo with Kotaku (a cautionary tale)" in strong criticism of journalism and what happened. this is for other survivors thinking of coming forward. you should be aware of this.

What it’s like sharing your #metoo with Kotaku (a cautionary tale)

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

3 years

this just went up, it’s a very thorough piece on all the things i survived, how kotaku treated it, & abuse of power in the game industry. it’s an important read & one of the few that really listened to all my writing + took the time to represent it right

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@alienmelon

4 years

Pet Cursor is a simple javascript file that turns your website's cursor into a cute playable character! (for the desktop) github: demo: * Uses CSS's cursor:url() & animates it. * Easy to customize! ❤️😻🐱✨ (that's it. i peaked.)

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@alienmelon

5 years

like promised, i wrote a follow up post please read it and please share it i'm talking about the culture of abusers and cultural change in games

my follow up post

www.nathalielawhead.com

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@alienmelon

3 years

i wrote a post, inspired by that meme “I want shorter games with worse graphics made by people who are paid more to work less and I’m not kidding” on how i feel about games lately. it also includes some recommendations of games that i think are special.

“I want shorter games with worse graphics made by people who are paid more to work less and I’m not...

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@alienmelon

4 years

people defending abusers (rapists) by saying “a guy makes one mistake and it should follow him around for the rest of his life?” yes. the trauma follows his victims around for the rest of their life. the very least that should happen is that people know about what he is.

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Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

7 years

Old UI resources thread: ... Favorite old UI resources on the internet: and especially ...

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@alienmelon

8 months

i put together a long hopefully helpful curation of alternative game engines. there are so many, some deserve a lot more attention, all with their own strengths and benefits. "The Generous Space of Alternative Game Engines (A Curation)" (RT's appreciated)

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@alienmelon

2 years

“Abusing you was by the book” (documenting two years of abuse from Game Journalism, after sharing my #metoo … the whole painful story all in one place) i finally wrote the post with everything in context, with receipts, and most of the record that i have.

“Abusing you was by the book” (documenting two years of abuse from Game Journalism, after sharing...

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@alienmelon

3 years

when mainstream outlets applaud games for “finally” having things like queer representation, it’s usually AAA games & they ignore the slew of stuff that happened in indie way before AAA... i wonder if maybe the issue is that games by small creators aren’t viewed as “real games”-

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@alienmelon

2 years

the more games you make & the longer you are involved in all the facets of the craft, the harder it is to call a game “bad” because you know how much is involved in making one. so much work goes into them. even the supposedly “bad” ones have something that makes them interesting.

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@alienmelon

4 years

photos of my No Man's Sky base it took me a long time to make 🤓

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@alienmelon

3 years

i’m over the moon omg. trying not to make this a big deal but i can’t believe it’s gone. i get to be safe. no more power to bad people. no more gross threads normalizing this abuse. no more excuses. the torture is just over. i get to be ok. i’m alive too!!! ❤️❤️

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@alienmelon

5 years

I was told it’s a good idea to share the letter so that my public statement makes sense. here’s my statement:

Nathalie Lawhead

@alienmelon

5 years

Re: cease and desist I stand by my statement of what happened to me. There is no way that I will EVER retract it. My allegations are true and if they are defamatory that is consequence to his actions and not mine.

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@alienmelon

3 years

i wrote a post detailing what Cecilia D’Anastasio has done to other survivors when she covered metoo stories here. this includes anonymized screenshots... this is serious. please read this and share.

Cecilia D’Anastasio’s journalism is rape culture in a nutshell, and you all really need to start...

www.nathalielawhead.com

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@alienmelon

3 years

🎉 Electric Zine Maker update is live! 🎉 A brand new UI, nightmode, friendly for small displays, and... new templates! Tetraflexagons, tiny books, and more!! download on itch👉 gamejolt👉 read the devlog👉

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@alienmelon

5 years

He should not have raped me.

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@alienmelon

2 months

solo development is such a perfectly accessible way to make games because you don’t have to sit around worrying about “breaking into” the game industry. you don’t need anyone’s permission. you just start. get good at it over time.

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@alienmelon

3 years

in retrospect... the bridges burned while fighting for my life and safety were definitely worth burning.

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@alienmelon

4 years

just chiming in on this, since my stuff has been played by some big name streamers like Vinesauce, and i see folks defending him in the comments here...imo to a point that's really undeserved for him. (thread with my experiences when he and other big names played my work)

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@ellaguro

4 years

this captures the really terrible situation experimental or "art game" creators get in online. you're exploited by youtubers like Vinesauce who use your work as an endless content mill of something to make fun of, & then Vinesauce is exploited by youtube.

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@alienmelon

4 years

It’s official! I got my first grant!! 🎉☺️🙏💕 This is to open source the Electric Zine Maker! I hope that this will make it an even more useful resource that benefits people (devs in this case). Will make a proper announcement soon with all the cool things but... yay!

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@alienmelon

3 years

she was awarded (again) for what she did to us. so here is a reminder that Cecilia D’Anastasio lied to vulnerable sources to get details & published that, even when we said no. it endangered us. she nearly killed people. she did this to more than just me. please read & share 1/9

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@alienmelon

4 years

so i just learned that Cecilia D’Anastasio had abused other sexual assault survivors for the sake of a "steamy" article in which she twisted words and details to serve a sensationalized narrative... both misrepresenting, further abusing, and endangering survivors [thread]

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@alienmelon

3 years

schreier helped exploit my story and now he’s a hero? it almost cost me my life too.

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@alienmelon

4 years

now that some time has passed & i had time to process, i have a few things to share… this is advice & warnings to others that may have to call-out someone "famous" for sexual assault, if you have a friend going through this, please use this to help them! rt's appreciated. [TW]

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@alienmelon

3 years

"Tiny tools and the ephemeral nature of digital art…" i wrote about tools again! featuring interesting glitch art tools, image distortion, tiny drawing tools, KidPix for the browser... and musings about the impermanence of the digital art that we make.

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@alienmelon

5 years

I would like to encourage the community to PLEASE re-publish my two blog posts because I payed for sharing this. Please take screenshots. Please share. Please put it on full fucking blast. If I am going to be punished for speaking, then I would like for it to be heard.

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@alienmelon

2 years

obscure computer fact: when you copy or cut text on your computer your mouse feels heavy until you paste it. when you copy or cut text on a mobile device your finger feels heavy until you paste it.

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@alienmelon

3 years

animatedWebCursors.js is here! This is a simple #javascript file that gives u control over the browser cursor, allowing for fully animated cursors using CSS's cursor functionality. github: demo: never have a boring cursor again! ✨

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@alienmelon

5 years

I will say this tho, Zoe Quinn @UnburntWitch , and others (all of u) are my hero.

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@alienmelon

4 years

when I came forward: they emailed my sister they interviewed mom I was yelled at “was it penetrative sex?” during the interview, bc I struggled to talk they told me they wouldn’t publish that but did then I learned They Did The Same to others now u champion their metoo journalism

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@alienmelon

4 years

for the sake of asserting us (all of us survivors that kotaku has hurt in the past), here are some thoughts... PLEASE read them: we are human. our agency, humanity, integrity, safety, and truth mattered. we didn't deserve to be drug out for the sake of spectacle... (thread 1/?)

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@alienmelon

5 years

FWIW this wired article is really powerful and worth reading:

Gaming's #MeToo Moment and the Tyranny of Male Fragility

After the death of Zoë Quinn's alleged abuser, the trolls have escalated their racket, raising the question of whose mental health society tries to protect.

www.wired.com

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@alienmelon

4 years

hey i am so worn out & angry at all this rn i'm going to leave this last thought here before logging off... the "first wave" of these "allegations" never went away it was silenced by poor journalism & harassment you should take responsibility for that this is my thread, read it:

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@alienmelon

4 years

an ARG-like text adventure about digital archeology & friendship in unlikely places! >> << explore the ruins of an abandoned website brave the hazards of the old web embark on a quest to find what you are looking for! (works on mobile but desktop is best)

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@alienmelon

3 years

i just posted this... "Exploring the beautiful world of indie horror games (why work from smaller devs, and indie devs, is so meaningful)" i talk about the Dread X Collection, Paratopic, Kitty Horrorshow's work, and other devs who's work i love!

Exploring the beautiful world of indie horror games (why work from smaller devs, and indie devs, is...

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@alienmelon

5 years

I do not have anymore answers to questions as I think my original post, and Kotaku interview, said all there is to say. Sexual abuse has to stop and the work environment has to change. We need a general cultural shift.

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@alienmelon

5 years

I stand by all other survivors that have to live with things like this. We all deserve to be free.

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@alienmelon

1 year

"Everything is going to be OK" is now available on Steam!! 😱🎉 Get the critically acclaimed modern art cult classic (with rabbits!) and explore a desktop labyrinth of vignettes, poetry, strange fever dream games, and broken digital spaces. 🔥👉

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@alienmelon

5 years

I wrote a post: "Playdate & the LA Zine Fest, weird games, and what it means for “Playdate” to lose its name…" this is about @PlaydateGS , a lot of game culture criticism, and my views on what @playdate means to someone like me.

Playdate & the LA Zine Fest, weird games, and what it means for “Playdate” to lose its name…

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@alienmelon

5 years

I shared knowing full well the consequences, and I stand by my truth. I will NEVER lie that he didn't do what he did to me. You will NEVER get that from me. He raped me. That is the truth. What I live with is a constant reality. I spoke my truth because I deserve to be free.

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@alienmelon

5 years

An update for those of you that can't run my games anymore on OSX because of Catalina. I'm so sorry about this... I'll probably write a post about this, breaking it all down for you, but the situation is as follows. (from my point of view, and own experiences with Apple) [thread]

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@alienmelon

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hear me out, i just think there should be a game festival that celebrates & highlights solo developer games. (imo there’s not enough space for that, and it would be cool if solo devs weren’t lumped into categories where they have to compete with team projects)

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@alienmelon

7 years

"Everything is going to be OK" (a nihilistic horror comedy zine-game about life) 💕 GJ itch 🔥

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@alienmelon

6 years

I did not make "Everything is going to be OK" to be fun. Making this entertaining, I felt, would devalue the messages. It felt wrong to frame these topics as "fun" because they are not. 2/6

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@alienmelon

5 years

arguments about “cancel culture” being used against people coming out about abuse is basically the new “not all men”. every time this important stuff happens there’s some dumb fake intellectual sounding meme used to silence it and it’s incredibly frustrating

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@alienmelon

7 years

my post “Day of the Devs” observations about how people view/treat art games and their creators: (as usual, I wrote some thoughts & observations about how it was like)

my post “Day of the Devs” observations about how people view/treat art games and their creators

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@alienmelon

6 years

It's like a language that you create. You can discover your own "rules". Standards don't exist for this stuff, and I think that's why these sort of "games" are so valuable. Each has it own unique irreplaceable voice. That's a good thing and there is room for that. 6/6

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@alienmelon

5 years

this is really touching, and should speak to how supportive of a base has... since starting on itch my Gross Revenue is $7,276.70 the *Tip* Revenue is $7,164.18 mood: ☺️❤️💕🙏 (thread 👇)

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@alienmelon

4 years

i published the talk I gave as a blog post This is a GOOD one! "A short history of Flash & the forgotten Flash Website movement (when websites were the new emerging artform)" all about Flash, in defense of what we lost & what it means for us moving forward

A short history of Flash & the forgotten Flash Website movement (when websites were “the new...

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@alienmelon

6 years

Fun thing about making a fake desktop/OS is that you can hide all sorts of things in things and you never know what you'll click to accidentally set something off. it's totally got this fever dream feel to it now.

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@alienmelon

4 years

An open letter to game journalists: #metoo , fighting with surviving abusive reporting, and the fallout of not caring... I wrote about the consequences, and shared absolutely everything...and the stuff here places me at risk so please read it. Please share.

An open letter to game journalists: #metoo, fighting with surviving abusive reporting, and the...

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@alienmelon

4 years

guys love telling me that I haven’t “made anything notable” or that my games “aren’t notable enough” and I’m getting kinda tired of hearing that. like I’m literally running out of shelf space for all my awards so...

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@alienmelon

4 years

“For a website so outwardly concerned with labor practices in gaming, I was shocked at how toxic and unhealthy a work environment Kotaku was.” I wish power to this person and everything said. This is courage. You need to read this.

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@alienmelon

6 years

Traditional game design is an established ruleset to accomplish certain things. It's not an end-all. I'm aware of these rules, but I like rejecting them. They exist to create a specific thing and that's not for everyone. There are lots of other things to create too. 5/6

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@alienmelon

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i took some time to write about a few games that spoke to me lately "5 beautiful altgames (tiny special things found on that are deeply meaningful)" SkateRPG, Riba, Constacia, Maskless, mk ... Celeste & more…

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@alienmelon

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After GDC and “keeping it up” (how people view/treat work made by women and what we can hopefully change): I wrote a post about my experiences, future, and observations. if you are a fan, supporter, or friend of my work, I humbly ask you to read it ❤️

After GDC and “keeping it up” (how people view/treat work made by women and what we can hopefully...

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@alienmelon

5 years

I carried with me, for 10 or more years, the consequence of what was done to me. The emotional scars are real. That is my proof. What I shared was shared because I couldn't take it anymore.

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@alienmelon

3 years

now that this is over i’m taking a much needed Twitter break. i’m not sure when i’ll be back (a few days, a week, longer?) but when i do i want to go back to talking about things i love. thank u to everyone who supported me through this. u kept me strong. ok bye for a while ❤️

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@alienmelon

3 years

Thank you I don't have any more words... just THANK YOU to everyone who stood beside me during this, tweeted about it, and didn't give up either.

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@alienmelon

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i published the post. it is a reply to Cecilia D’Anastasio's thread, those supporting her, and everything. "Killing us slowly – When your allyship stops short of doing the hard thing, when your solidarity turns against the people you once said you believe"

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@alienmelon

3 years

i wrote a post. it's important: i go over every bit that i could possibly cover on what this has done to people. "If you cared you would work toward minimizing harm for those stuck in this system, just as much as you would toward getting that juicy story."

why are the lives of those that spoke up so worthless to you, but you so readily protect the...

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@alienmelon

5 years

here are some beautiful strange games that i enjoyed on @itchio recently, 🌙 moody walking sims, 🕯️strange surreal environments, 🔎code objects... these are short, intriguing, and all worth experiencing, (lol i love itch, it gives me life) 💖💕 ok a small list:

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@alienmelon

6 years

Total revenue to date for ALL my games, including the popular ones, spanning between gamejolt & itch, since starting accounts, has been... *drumroll* $5,751 and .83 cents (adjust your expectations accordingly ;) ~ thread (experimental art & games) ~

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@alienmelon

5 years

🐰 RUNONCE (remember_me) 💕 A existential desktop friend that knows you have doomed it by running it, is now available on itch: ✨ Be a friend while they are here. ✨ Whatever you save will be all that remains. (retweets appreciated!!!!!)

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@alienmelon

5 years

look I’m going to do a follow up post but seriously guys I’m tired. I tried. by coming forward i cause more harm to myself and everything I worked so hard to build. you can extend the courtesy of at least reading the whole post before making videos about how I might be lying.

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@alienmelon

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Tetrageddon won the Webby!!!!! 🤯😱🥰🎉😎🎊✨🤯

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@alienmelon

4 years

Finally published! "About desktop pets & virtual companions: discussing the inhabitants that fill the void of our digital spaces" From Winroach to SCMPOO, Neko, Oddballz, Shimeji, and Neopets...I talk about history, designing them, & recent indie examples.

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@alienmelon

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published my post on writing for games & narrative design! "Games are giant weird story machines! (video games, their stories, and building stories for systems)" i talk about games like Celeste, Lucah: Born of a Dream, Knife Sisters, Anodyne, Yume Nikki…

Games are giant weird story machines! (video games, their stories, and building stories for systems)

www.nathalielawhead.com

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@alienmelon

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they deleted an article they deleted an article they deleted an article they deleted an article but when a sexual assault survivor asks for THE SAME TO BE DONE FOR OVER A YEAR because it caused serious harm it’s [a hundred million reasons why not to]... and still pending?

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@alienmelon

4 years

The gratuitous details of my sexual assault have been removed from the US article. I requested that Kotaku remove them from the UK one too & trust they will. I’m not willing to get caught arguing or defending myself, my post, or why I feel this was cruel and unessesary reporting.

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@alienmelon

4 years

*crying* *deep breath* diversity initiatives are useless & cruel if we can’t also protect that diversity from abuse, since they are often the most vulnerable people & most easily taken advantage of. the bare minimum that we do is not enough and in a way just creates cannon fodder

Parker Mackay

@INTERRO

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What's your most controversial video game opinion?

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@alienmelon

4 years

hey ok so of course something triggered this again, and i'll reiterate (endlessly, painfully, and obsessively if i have to)... Kotaku is an INCREDIBLY abusive outlet that took advantage of sexual assault victims on more than one occasion, and nearly pushed them to suicide

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@alienmelon

3 years

personal update from my blog...

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@alienmelon

6 years

i dyed my hair! yay! omg

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@alienmelon

6 years

I made "Everything is going to be OK" to speak to a deeper human condition. Focusing on fun, entertainment, and traditional game design would not support this. The intentions where very specific. It's a conscious choice. It doesn't exist to be entertainment. 4/6

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@alienmelon

3 years

i just published my talk about the amazing world of tool making! "Start making tools! (on making experimental art tools & why it’s valuable for indie gamedevs to make them)" it's all about the philosophy of building them, and an overview of the space…

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@alienmelon

6 years

what gamers think developers owe them, contrasted with the amazing amount of power the industry gives them as consumers, is incredibly destructive for the medium and devs. developers are people, not a service. [...]

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@alienmelon

5 years

Do this not just for me, but for all victims of this type of abuse. We have suffered enough.

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@alienmelon

4 years

Again: NO they are not they are an incredibly dangerous outlet who’s reporting on two separate stories last year NEARLY KILLED TWO SEXUAL ASSAULT SURVIVORS. Don’t let their fake allyship right now cover up what they did. Neither of us received accountability from them.

Andy Campbell

@AndyBCampbell

4 years

There is a revolution against bigotry and harassment happening in the gaming industry right now and @Kotaku is doing fantastic work attempting to cover all of it

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@alienmelon

6 years

Also framing these in a context where the "player" has control, or there is any power dynamic in any traditional sense, was not what I wanted. This is contradictory to the art's message. Same reason as traditional "fun" would be. 3/6

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@alienmelon

2 years

@EveHarmsWrites this actually sounds like a premise for a Saw movie sequel no joke it would scare me good if it were

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@alienmelon

5 years

for those that missed it, here is the full transcript of the IndieCade Europe keynote that I gave today... “Addressing abuse in our communities and how can we move forward”: It’s important and worth reading. (RT’s immensely appreciated!)

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@alienmelon

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I cannot guarantee how I will react if I ever have to see him again. I would rather die. I would welcome it over fighting the person that raped me. I cannot live in a world where rape is rewarded, protected, and the burden of surviving and coping falls on the victim.

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@alienmelon

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“RPG In A Box” is a cool tool! (an alternative game development curation) I wrote about RPG In A Box and a bunch of other alternative gamedev tools. Tired of Unity? Here are some recommendations... There's so much out there! You never get bored.

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