YAAAY! you're invited to my 2024 Oldge Day Subathon! It's starting a bit earlier this year, April 5th 7 PM PDT (that's in 8 hours from now!)
you can see all the information in the images, things may still get updated/changed, but I hope you enjoy the event from this anxious egg!
@AriaSaki
Aria, I'm so glad that Toast was able to help you.. I'm happy to have been able to meet you and call me your friend. I also struggle a lot of mental stuff and have gone through some things- if you ever need anyone to talk to, please feel free to reach out to me okay? I love you
one of the more positive notes about all the things that have been going on is that more people are finally realizing that Zaion had been wronged by Nijisanji
she's always been one of my closest friends, so I'm glad that there's finally that relief
I made an aquarium last night in FTB Minecraft and later found out that fish don't exist in the modpack yet... logged off with sorrow.
logged in today to this. apparently quite a few people died in my aquarium so now it houses skeletons (they spawn from graves) instead of fish!
highlight of yesterday:
@starsmitten_
and
@xChocoBars
each recognized me on sight even though Iβve never met either of them in person before that and Iβve been vtubing for over a year now π₯Ήπ₯Ή that meant so much to me aaaa my heart I love them both!! ππ
honestly this shouldnβt even be legal lmao, felt like we were crammed like sardines, I was getting shoved all the time.. pretty rough experience
friends of course made it better but maybe next time Iβll not go to AX itself and just hang out with friends outside >.>
@Jae_Day6
sending you love my dude. I know we troll around a lot but I want you to know that youβre one of my favorite people and I genuinely enjoy spending time with you!
let me know if you ever need to talk about anything. stay strong jae!!
vanilla rust has no mercy, I think I died like 5 billion times in about an hour
THESE PUNKS ARE GONNA LEARN WHEN I HAVE A GUN AND NOT JUST TWIGS TO PROTECT MY BODY π‘
7 years ago I was in a bad car accident. I dropped out of school and quit my job, not being able to commute due to trauma.
last year, I drove on the highway during the day for the first time since the accident. I cried a lot.
yesterday, I drove 2 hours to LA without anxiety
π₯°
wishing
@scarra
and
@DisguisedToast
the happiest of birthdays! it's perfect that it's Thanksgiving, because I'm super thankful to have met you guys!!
thank you scarra for always being the kindest person. thank you toast for all the help you've given me for my mental health. π
happy birthday to one of the nicest people I know
@starsmitten_
I'm sorry you've been sick lately and hope you feel better soon π remember that everyone loves you!!
it's like a 3 step process
1. choosing to drink
2. knowing their limits and still going over (because people SHOULD by now know their limits when it comes to alcohol consumption)
3. fucking up and using alcohol as an excuse instead of owning up to it
some of the hate that I've gotten since becoming a vtuber. these messages are from this week alone. why send hate to someone chilling in their corner of the internet?
I used face cam for the majority of my streaming life but find vtubing super cozy and I don't plan to go back.
small update: I'm okay and have utilized the block button many times π
to the people who have supported me: thank you for your kindness
to those that don't: have a good day regardless.
I'll be away from twitter & someone else will be managing it for me for the next long while
@Natsumiii
streamer, how dare you do things in a different way than I do!!!!!! π‘π‘
why donβt these people who complain just play the game themselves instead? π
omg watching
@AriaSaki
's stream and I thought she was so brave for fist fighting a ghost and then.....................
(WARNING: LOUD but also I'm dying laughing when watching this)
when I first joined in the SCP: Secret Lab games, I was super scared, but then I got to play as the SCPs with
@GloriousArcadum
and had the most fun ever. Arcadum is absolutely HILARIOUS, and I love it!!
just to clarify, the main issue I had was βMata la Chinaβ which Iβm told is βkill the Chinese girlβ
I also donβt pick the punishment in any way, shape, or form. I reported the racism- Twitch Trust & Safety team goes through the VODs of all involved players and make decisions.
I saw a lot of people sharing their milestones and while this isn't super big, it means a lot to me
30k people decided they like my content enough to follow my stream and that makes me so happy ππ
hi friends. as you might know, my dad was laid off from his job & my mom doesn't work. parents need help with various bills and insurance payments, totaling to about $850 (+$100 next month)
I'm doing some emotes at a discount to help out the parents!
$40/emote, $70 for 2. DM me!
thank you so much! it was such a fun time playing with you and the rest of Team Rocket π I'm sorry I couldn't get you the scrap tea after my perfect white berry clones were stolen ;-;
xqcL π
@Irenealing
lmao what is this garbage?? sorry people are bothering you and canβt seem the grasp the concept that people can just be friends
also they misspelled my name.. βreiniβ π
@DisguisedToast
well said. itβs good to try to be more aware of the words we use and how it can affect others, and I think literally everyone should work on that, including the people who are trying to attack you and your friends
youβve been a genuine and good friend to me and I appreciate you!
@Natsumiii
bruh you are not fat.
the people saying that know youβre not and yet make active decisions to be fucking rude and for what reason? imagine literally taking the time out of your day to be mean..
sorry not sorry
@eaJPark
jk I was so noob I didn't even know I did that LMAO
thank you again for the games
@eaJPark
,
@EskayOW
,
@saysoamy
, &
@WarnTV
π that was a lot of fun! hope to play with you all again soon π
being an introverted and socially anxious person sucks.. I wanna reach out to people and ask if they want to hang out and play games but itβs so hard for me to send that message.. π₯²
I donβt speak Spanish. I did not involve myself with any players or even speak with anyone from Team Panpots as I was in my farm base 99% of the time. I have done nothing but farm and I donβt believe that should make me deserve such negative treatment.
update: itβs been about 34 hours since my second shot and I think Iβve slept like 25 hours of that LOL
no fever but my entire body is super fatigued (mainly concentrated on my left arm, shoulders, and back). also feeling nausea and some dizziness ;-;
@Natsumiii
CONGRATS WENDY AND ABE!!
you two look absolutely fantastic! you look wonderful in that dress (omg it's so gorgeous) and Abe is looking great too (I love the pink bow and flower)
πππ₯³
man I legit met some of the coolest and most genuine people thanks to
@DisguisedToast
's Radio stream
thanks so much for having me on. I'm honestly so happy right now ππ
just spent 7 hours learning and beating kakul-saydon with
@starsmitten_
@scarra
and
@BaboAbe
here's our first pull of the night π€‘π€‘π€‘π€‘ (this is my favorite raid ever LOL)
todayβs the first day in the last few months where I feel mentally positive instead of just trying to get by one day at a time
I feel good today! Iβm happy! βΊοΈπ
I wish you all happy days as well!
I LOVE HIM SM
I havenβt posted a picture of myself in years but LOOK MA IβM RIGHT THERE!!! trying to keep my composure and failing miserably as I fan girl over yoshi p
officially stepping down from my FFXIV ultimate group. I came to the realization that I was legitimately dreading raid nights π° I feel terrible because I genuinely want to finish out the raid but I'm just not having fun..
I'm legit so appreciative of everyone
βΈmy community for being so welcoming to all the new folks
βΈall the new followers and chatters who have been super respectful and kind
βΈlurkers AS ALWAYS, YOU CARRY!
thank you for accepting me for me. ;w; thank you for these opportunities.
Iβm super super proud of myself. last month, I drove myself ~45 min to and from Twitchcon. even though it sounds like a small thing, itβs a big deal to me because I havenβt driven on the highway during daylight hours in over 5 years after a really bad accident.
small steps.
I have acquired my second pfizer shot AND my butterfingers
anyway anyone want some butterfingers? I donβt actually want them but I needed the FFXIV mount..
at the party, I tried to tell someone that their dress was caught on their bag so they were showing their underwear but I forgot how to speak English ππ
they fixed it after but hopefully they donβt think Iβm a weirdo LMAO social anxiety is too strong
I've been loving MMO games lately, but have been really really wanting to play some more variety
games I've been wanting to play:
- overwatch 2
- omega strikers
- terraria
- valorant
let me know if you want to play together! only warning is, I'm a pretty late night gamer π
does your brain constantly tell you that youβre useless and no one likes you?? I know Iβm not supposed to listen to such thoughts but when itβs at the forefront of my mind all day and night, itβs hard not to believe that Iβm worthless. :/