Today I had teaching on the ward I was sectioned to, with one of the doctors who cared for me
He said he almost didn’t recognise me because I look so much better
It went really well! I wasn’t anxious in the slightest & feel so proud
Now that is what I call ✨growth✨
I absolutely cackle when I remember that, during lockdown 1, my parents decided to re-enact a load of famous artworks
So, I present ‘my Dad with a Pearl earring’😅
It’s okay for medical students & doctors to experience mental illness, *including* psychosis & still recover & practice medicine
We *can* be thriving and safe and capable clinicians, despite going through illness
It’s important that doctors are as diverse as patients
PIP = personal *independence* payment
The key word is ‘independence’ - it allows disabled folk to buy things that assist with their disability
It’s not up to anyone else what that money is spent on
& it has nothing to do with having a job
This govt just hates disabled people
For my friends’ wedding, instead of a wedding cake, they opted for a carefully constructed stack of
@GreggsOfficial
vegan sausage rolls and it’s ✨iconic✨
I’m FREE. I’VE BEEN DISCHARGED & AM NO LONGER SECTIONED
After dealing with:
75 days sectioned
♾️ amounts of boredom
8 different daily meds
3 Jigsaws completed
2 MHA assessments
I’m officially no longer sectioned on a psych ward 🥰
Goodbye room 4, I will NOT be coming back
PLEASE stop tying up Red emergency cords in accessible toilets & if you see one tidied up, please untie it
It should hang all the way to the floor - & it can be vitally important for the health & safety of disabled folk
1st pic is what NOT to do, 2nd pic is what to do
Today is my first day back at medical school since taking time out for my mental health
I feel a bit wobbly that I’m out of practice at being at uni, but I also I’m so proud to be feeling better & I feel so ready to be back studying. I got this 💪✨
I’ve had lots of questions about how I’ve been, and how I ended up in hospital
I want to reflect on my experience of what psychosis was like for me as I know often people feel shame talking about
So I thought I’d just have a little ramble on my experiences /1
TW: psychosis, SH
A little post because today I had my monthly antipsychotic depot & I’m so grateful & unashamed to have it to keep me well
Particularly seems important to say, given the great stigma & anti psych rhetoric there is around psych meds rn
& there isn’t much depot representation 💉
✨PSA on use of Alt text✨
I’ve seen people using the alt text function to post extra jokes or clever quips
Just a reminder that its purpose is as an accessibility tool for disabled people to access the same info
Use basic transcriptions & describe the pic instead please!
Why is it that when you post about how you personally have benefitted from psych meds, there are always anti psychs ready to talk about how it wasn’t good for them
Like maybe this post isn’t about you? Maybe it’s not the time/place? Maybe it’s just a post about *me* & not you?
I think it’s kinda amazing that these three pills help me so much with my mental illness, that I can thrive and live a normal life
I’m so grateful for them
Just found out that when I have a GP appointment they get a lil pop up to say that I’m a medical student
Which must mean I have a rep for being reaaallly fucking annoying
Can’t comprehend that there’s an anti-vaxxer in my year at med school, who has caught Covid & caused a bunch of other people to have to isolate too
How can you be an anti-vaxxer & in med school? & how, morally, can you be ok with going to placement with vulnerable ppl?
Raging.
My grandparents asked me if, as medical students, we also get given free meals when we are on placement like staff do and I just AHAHAHAHHAHAAH 😂😅🥲😢😭
Honestly no idea where they got the idea that nhs staff or students got any such thing🥲
Today is my 7th Birthday!
(& the first time Twitter has ever given me balloons on my profile)
Have a happy leap day everyone, especially fellow
#leaplings
! 🐸
Why is this celebrated? As if illness or disability is a choice and makes you less strong or good or moral of a person?
We absolutely should not be praising people for pushing themselves to work to their limits. Smh this culture is so toxic in healthcare
@KarenPercy1
I used to edit autotranscriptions for medical school lectures, some of the misheard terminology was hilarious. My faves were:
Fucker dynamics = pharmacodynamics
Patrick impairment = hepatic impairment
Bitch minty = vitamin D 😂
My final message is just to remind you all that I exist. I’m a medical student, who’ll one day qualify, & I also have an ongoing stigmatised illness
I’m sending my love to anyone out there, especially students, medics & HCPs who find they can’t yet be open about psychosis 💜 /12
This time last year I was sectioned under the mental health act
This year, right now I am about to start my 6-week psychiatry block of medical school, much better mental health-wise & thriving in my studies generally
What a difference a year can make
I think it’s kinda amazing that these three pills help me so much with my mental illness, that I can thrive and live a normal life
I’m so grateful for them
People love telling me about that they know lots of other medics who are wonderful musicians & how interesting it is that there’s that link…
But like, the link generally isn’t that medics are especially more musical than others. The link is literally being very privileged.
Officially 6 weeks into taking clozapine and, lads, I think it’s working
I feel the most well & symptom-free that I have done all year
Fingers crossed it stays that way and it continues to be a wonder drug for me 🤞
Posting about being a med student sectioned with psychosis has been very eye opening
I’ve had >30 messages from other med students & current doctors who’ve also been hospitalised for psychosis…not an insignificant number!
Yet very few have felt able to speak openly about it /1
One thing I’ve really noticed, as a patient, is how dehumanising it feels to be referred to as your room number in the psych hospital
Often they’ll refer to you as that or ask who you are wanting your no. as opposed to your name
I really hate that. I am Julia, not just room 4.
With hindsight of a few weeks of antipsychotics back in my system
I must have shouted at & scared a poor random member of the public…
I won’t shy away from the reality of how psychosis feels or looks, especially when we’re terrified
*this* is what psychosis can be like
People keep following me in the streets recently and they think I don’t know or hear but I do
Today I confronted someone who was and they just *ran away* from me when I called them out
Don’t cross me because I fight back😤
My clinical partner & I asked a scrub nurse if we could use stools in theatre - we both struggle to stand for a long time for health reasons (I faint a lot when stood up)
‘No. You’re young. Stand.’ 🙄
Meanwhile 2 free stools sat on the other side of theatre the whole surgery…
Comments like this are really crap. I have never shied away from being a medical student with severe mental illness
There are added barriers & difficulties but I absolutely *can* and *will* be a doctor, regardless of my mental illness & spending time in hospital sectioned
This time last year, when I was in the psych ward, I found out I failed a research SSC module of medical school
It made a devastating situation even worse
I, ofc, ended up restarting that year of medical school & redid that SSC module
And I just found out that I’ve passed 🥰🥰
As if things weren’t already going fairly dreadfully for me right now, I’ve managed to fail a module of med school that I found really hard/really hated
I’m feeling so deflated right now, and I’ve never failed anything before ever 😔
I can’t get over how irresponsible this thread is. JT is actively causing harm in her cosplaying as a clinician when she has not a fucking clue
Antipsychotics saved my life when I’ve been psychotic - there’s absolutely no alternative that could’ve helped me at my most unwell
Today I have teaching at the hospital I was sectioned at
It was very weird walking through the doors (& also noticing the familiar smell of the hospital)
Can’t believe how different I am to the last time that I walked through those front doors
I am so happy
Genuinely makes me despair seeing another medical student doing news interviews on TV about how they haven’t got the 💉(& now they won’t even be kicked off their course for it)
I just cannot comprehend how refusing the 💉 can be compatible with pursuing this career
Not errr notherrr one.
Yes. I am a medical student.
For that matter, I’m a really good medical student. I study hard, get good grades & am enthusiastic
I also have a psychotic illness and am currently sectioned in hospital
The latter does not mean I cannot pursue the former
In my OSCE, what I meant to say was ‘I’m going to listen with the bell of my stethoscope’
What I actually said was ‘I’m going to use my bellend’ 🫢
Oop.
I think I’m addicted to hospital canteen jacket potatoes 🥔
Bad morning? Potato will absorb your tears
Good morning? Potato to celebrate
Forgot lunch? Potato has your back
Remembered lunch? Get potato anyway, eat the other food for dinner
(Pls save me from myself)
Had my psych ward leave extended for another 10 days (I don’t have to go back until Thursday next week 🎉🥳)… looks like I’m getting closer and closer to not having to go back there at all, I am so happy 🥰
Someone in my year already (on day 2 of freshers) told the medic freshers that they need to work 12-14 hours a day in the months before exams 🙃
Ffs why👏are👏medics👏so👏toxic.
Me in January 2023 vs me in December 2023
In January 2023 I was sectioned & very unwell and I couldn’t imagine my life improving, and I was terrified of my situation
Now, looking ahead to 2024, I’m back in med school, thriving, with stable mental health, loving my life 🥰✨
Well today I found out that there have been people who’ve ended with chlamydia in their stoma cos… well, it’s a hole 👀
There truly is a kink for everything.
Some queer joy to counter the crap on medtwitter rn
Today I saw an AHP clock my pronoun pin
They then used they/she pronouns interchangeably for me🥺& introduced me to a patient as such
The 1st time this has *EVER* happened on placement, despite always wearing a pronoun pin🥰
There’s nothing wrong with the word ‘disabled’ - most disabled folk, including myself, prefer to be called ‘disabled’
We don’t need silly, patronising terms like ‘people of determination’ that makes non-disabled people feel like they are doing a good deed to us
How is it decided which medical conditions are exempt from paying for prescriptions?
Like I think all the ones that are exempt - fair enough
But there are many other conditions which aren’t included where medication is *life-saving* and 100% necessary. Makes no sense to me.
I hate the way men seem to expect women to move to the side if you’re about to walk into each other
So often I make a point of not moving out the way, & I’ve had so many blokes whack straight into me and then just stand there expecting me to be the one to move
Actualllly drives me mad that parking permits for medical students at our hospital that we *have* to go to for placement, have gone up from £80 to £125… just for one 10-week block gahhhh
Kicking off Mental Health Awareness Month with my monthly antipsychotic depot
It’s one of the most important things for my mental health (along with my other pills & routines)
I feel no shame for needing this or any of my meds
#MentalHealthAwarenessMonth
Can we stop assuming young people don’t have health needs? & if you’re a HCP please don’t go on a power trip to med students who just want to sit *not in the way*
I finally found the meds that keep my mental illness under control and have managed to return back to medical school successfully after being off for mental illness 💕
One time, a doctor on placement asked what specialties I’m interested in
I replied with a few I quite like (GUM, derm, psych, GP..) and they, no word of a lie, replied ‘ah *softer* specialties’ 🙄
It’s so degrading to put down other specialties as being somehow easier or softer
Every medical student has at least one experience of turning up to find the consultant they were assigned to in fact no longer works at the trust/has retired/is now a ghost who haunts the ward once a year on the summer solstice
1 time when I was on the psych ward, we made a slip & slide with mattresses & water
It was 1 of the few times we were *joyful* so they drug tested us thinking we were on something
Cannot stress the importance of appropriate activities on psych wards otherwise you just stagnate
Flight attendant: is there a doctor on board?
*silence*
FA: What about a med student?
Me: ermmmm I’m not sure I’ll be very helpful—
FA: We’re looking for someone to open & close a curtain while looking like an absolute lemon
Me: 🙃🙃🙃
Have had some really nice and thoughtful messages from people while I’ve been unwell… this, however, is not the right kind of thing to send ffs
I’m *allowed* to dislike being sectioned, I don’t have to be grateful just because the health service is on its knees
My pet hate is people saying they ‘have mental health’
*everyone* has ‘mental health’
You mean mental health difficulties/problems/illness
Let’s be clear in language re: mental illness, not skirt around or be scared of words like ‘illness’ - doesn’t happen with physical health
After my boob blared I’M SORRY I DIDN’T QUITE GET THAT at an unsuspecting palliative nurse today, I’ve learnt my lesson not to store my Apple Watch in my bra when I have to be bare below the elbow 😳🤦🏻♀️
I receive PIP for my mental health
It is *not* an easy thing to claim. There is an extensive written application, they’ll often have in-depth convos with the HCPs you have as referees & lots of people then have interviews
It’s nothing to do w/ employment
So fuck off, Rishi
You know what’s more embarrassing than being the med student who faints in theatre?
Being self-aware that you feel woozy & mentioning it but then just proceeding to sit on the theatre floor & burst into tears
All before 9.30am. Fml. 🤦🏻♀️🥲
The other day I bumped into a consultant who I met 1 time, a few weeks ago when I spent just 2 hours in their clinic
They remembered me *by name*, asked how I was, & asked if I had seen that they’d filled in an eportfolio ticket I had sent them
Unicorns do exist
I’m kinda used to gross messages from men on Instagram.
But this one has come from someone whose bio literally says they are a doc & father
I am so disgusted. He also swore at me for sharing his comments on my story & then blocked *me*
This is not okay.
#MedTwitter
Got my new prepayment prescription certificate in the post today
I still find it really… curious that people with severe mental illness who need long term (?life time!) antipsychotics aren’t included in medical conditions who qualify for free prescriptions
I thought you’d all appreciate the reminder that today is 10 years since Fenton the dog iconically chased deer through Richmond Park
#JesusChristFenton
So I’ve officially been diagnosed with adhd & autism today
It was expected I guess but I still have mixed emotions… it’s a weird one. I think it’ll take time to understand myself
However, others have helped me see the potential +ve things (thus cake!) so I guess I’m relieved
This morning I didn’t feel like black coffee but I had run out of oat milk so I used ✨custard✨
As much as I’m judging myself, it was delightful and I will 100% be doing this again
✨the NHS trust urge✨ to put pictures on ID badges which are so pixelated/distorted that you look like a jaundiced or deathly pale Picasso painting
(Does *anyone* have a good trust ID pic???)