diary of a therapist| 🚫DMS.| I make threads to destigmatize mental illness sometimes| worksheet curating queen| spiritualist| womanist| views are my own.
If you’re a new follower welcome to my PAGE! I’m a licensed professional counselor who services residents of TEXAS & here’s a list of my threads so far. 🧵👇🏽
Okkkkk, we got hyper-independence. Not allowing others to be there for you sometimes means you aren’t used to having a healthy support system. This makes it hard to trust others & yourself. So you only depend on you. 🤷🏽♀️
Avoidance. OMG AVOIDANCE. Avoiding people, places, things, thoughts, literally everything. It’s a way of you attempting to control your reality so it can feel safe. It’s really keeping your ability to tolerate emotions/triggers low, unfortunately.
HEY! I’m back. So SHUTTING DOWN & being passive. Yeah you’re not being the bigger person I’m sorry 😩☹️. You’re not used to being heard or feeling like your voice matters. So you shut down to protect yourself from those uncomfortable feelings. 😞
Threatening to leave your relationship every time conflict arises because you’re used to being abandoned so you want to leave first, can be a response to trauma — but it’s also emotional abuse and can alter your partners sense of safety & security within the relationship.
Anxiety & ANGER. Yes. Trauma responses. Yep. Those girls. 💅🏾 Especially heightened irritability and severe anger responses to things that may seem small to others.
Ummmmmmm, I finally am at over $1,000 in my savings and I was just sitting here looking in shock. This has never been possible for me and I’m almost 30.
Your kids are not your therapists —- there are many situations where kids should STAY IN A CHILDS PLACE- & discussing bills & finances is one of those places.
Trauma doesn’t make you stronger. It makes it hard to trust yourself and others. It makes it hard to make logical decisions. It makes it hard to maintain relationships. It makes it hard to love yourself. It makes it hard to give others & yourself grace.
Your child should not feel pressured to help you figure out how to keep your damn lights on! Your child should not be taking care of YOUR DAMN KIDS because you wanna go out & be an ADULT.
SHAME/GUILT. Feeling responsible for everything and how everyone feels. Feeling responsible for what happened to you. Having negative views/beliefs about yourself and/or the world.
Y’all gonna get mad at me but this is a CPS report. And I don’t care if “your kids will eat you out of a house and a home” locking food up is not okay.
I spent about 3-4 years living in overdraft. I moved to Texas & was still only getting paid $15/hr with a masters while I was obtaining hours. This week I just went shopping for myself for the first time in 4-5 years. Not just buying one outfit for an occasion— I went shopping.
2. They don’t show up for you when life is hard for you, but instead they still expect you to show up for their highlights. They don’t take what’s going on in your life into consideration.
Remind your partner they are safe when y’all are having disagreements. Remind them they can talk to you & disagree with you without having to fear that you’ll leave.
CODEPENDENCY: staying in relationships that are unsafe/harmful/unhealthy for you. Having a fear of abandonment and constant need for approval. Having an unhealthy dependence on relationships. Valuing loyalty above respect.
Difficulty experiencing positive feelings. Becoming irritable, quick to anger or aggressive quickly. Basically goin 0-100 REAL QUICK‼️ I’m sorry sometimes you don’t have “anger issues” it’s really the trauma!
And quiet as it’s kept this is the reason why a lot of parents ignore when their kids tell them somebody touched them! You see your child as an adult over there with your real grown ahh calling a child FAST/MANNISH!!!!!! Where you think they get it from?????????
What’s also codependency is valuing how the people in your life view you more than you value your own view/opinion. Not trusting your own thoughts/beliefs or ability to make decisions.
Ok so back to codependency! Feeling as if you’re the only one who can help people you love. Feeling you know what’s best for others (more than they do for themselves). Attempting to control people out of fear that you’ll lose them.
LET ME CLEAR THIS UP RIGHT NOW! That’s that lady choice lol. I do not think she’s wrong — I understand her choice. However it’s best for the kids and HER that she leaves!
Emotional incest is connected to both child abuse and NEGLECT. A parent lacks their own SUPPORT SYSTEM so they put that responsibility on their CHILD(ren).
And as as result of the pursuit of perfection, we never feel good enough. We never feel worthy. We never feel lovable. We feel we have to prove ourselves to everyone around us because we don’t believe we’re where we’re supposed to be in life. Y’all gone skip over this one though.
Being a therapist of adolescents has taught me that a lot of kids really dislike their parents. They also dislike the choices their parents make that they think are what’s best for them. Parents please talk to your kids. They don’t feel known or seen at all.
I would like to end this by saying, THERAPY HELPS. It’s hard to find a therapist. That’s true. It’s like finding a partner or a best friend. It’s HARD WORK to find one compatible for you— however it’s POSSIBLE. Don’t give up on us.
4. REQUIRING ALONE TIME WITH YOUR KIDS WHILE DISCOURAGING THEIR FRIENDSHIPS/RELATIONSHIPS— let them figure out how people are on their own! Your biases are getting in the way!!