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Mum of 2 girls 💛 (bereaved of my oldest girl aged 13 in April 23, forever heartbroken💔) Bookworm 📚 Lover of tea/chocolate 🫖🍫She/her #grief #childloss #gtto

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Caroline
@carolinenewson
9 months
In April, my beautiful Flossie became one of the 200 school age children who die by suicide each year, leaving us completely broken. She was 13. Flossie was an amazing young woman, her loss has changed my life forever Today is #WorldSuicidePreventionDay2023 What I’ve learned🧵
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Grassroots Suicide Prevention
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It is a myth that only adults attempt and/or die by suicide. The statistics show that we lose 200 schoolchildren to suicide every year. Suicide does not discriminate and can affect anyone. Visit our website to learn more about youth suicide myths.❤️
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Today marks 8 weeks that I’ve lived on the earth without this gorgeous girl with me. I honestly don’t know how #childloss #grief She really was super cool 😎 I miss her so much 💔
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Six months today was when this beautiful little light left my life. The pain remains constant, sharp and unfathomable 💔 We miss you immensely Flossie, nothing is the same without you 💛 #grief #childloss #bereavedmum #forever13
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This is Florence, although she preferred Flossie. She was 13 when she died suddenly, almost 6 weeks ago. I miss her so much and know know that our lives will only be half lived from now on. But we carry on for her little sister 💛 #childloss #childbereavement #siblingloss #grief
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Caroline
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11 months
Quarter of a year/ 3 months/ 13 weeks/ 92 days, without my firstborn, my beautiful Florence. Flossie was only 13 when she died by #suicide - we didn’t see it coming. First time saying this publicly. It’s incredibly hard, every day, to live in a world without her #grief #childloss
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Flossie, my 13 year old, died one year & one week ago 💔 I still change her sheets every month or so. Just because my child no longer lives in the world, doesn’t mean my love for her has gone too. I have all this mother’s love for her and need somewhere to put it 🐝 💛 #grief
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My daughter Flossie left us 100 days ago 💔 And I cannot bring myself to throw her toothbrush away. The pain of missing her every minute of every day and wishing she was still here is incredibly hard to live alongside 💛 #grief #childloss #siblingloss #SuicideAwareness
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Missing her so very much 💔 33 weeks since she left us. It’s so very hard, especially this time of year when you have to slap on a smile though your heart is breaking a little more every day #childloss #grief
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4 months
40 weeks since we lost this wonderful girl - that’s now longer than I carried her for when I was pregnant. It remains unfathomable and incredibly cruel 💔 Sending love to everyone grieving someone so amazing that you can hardly breathe each time you remember they’re gone #Grief
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Caroline
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6 months
I would do absolutely anything to bring you back, my precious firstborn girl. I miss you so terribly, this is the worst torture #grief #childloss #bereavedparent 💛 Florence 💛
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Caroline
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NYE 2022 📸 Had no clue of the horrendous, heart wrenching loss that was headed our way. Mixed feelings about 2023 ending. It was, without doubt, the worst year I’ll ever endure. But 2024 is a year my Flossie won’t see, and I have to say that she “died last year” #NewYearsGrieve
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9 months
Living with #childloss means that instead of sending my beautiful Florence off to start Yr 9 this week, I’m looking at past back-to-school pics, wondering how it can be that she’s not here to pose with her little sister. Missing her immensely 💔 #SuicidePreventionAwarenessMonth
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Caroline
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8 months
In the 5 months since Flossie died, there’ve been people I expected to hear from but didn’t, people who’ve crossed the road to avoid me. People say “I don’t know what to say to you”. Something is better than nothing - I don’t have any choice about my reality, don’t ignore me 💔
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Caroline
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4 months
Flossie should be turning 14 tomorrow. But instead she is #forever13 since we lost her to suicide in April. I can’t believe I’m not wrapping her presents like I normally would be. I’m so sorry, baby girl 💔 #childloss #grief #bereavedbysuicide
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Caroline
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This wonderful creature is who we lost exactly a year ago. My Florence Rose. Her loss has ripped our lives apart and they’ll never be quite right again, no matter how much we try to hold them together. The (not exactly groundbreaking) things I have learned in the last 366 days🧵
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Caroline
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Next week, I’m leaving midwifery & starting a new job after 6 months off on bereavement leave #childloss #grief Mixed emotions 🥹 So sad that my years of hard work as a mature student won’t be utilised anymore and that I’ll lose that part of my identity. 🧵/1
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Caroline
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It is 4 months today that Flossie left us, she died by suicide and is #forever13 Our hearts are broken, the passing of days doesn’t make it easier, it’s harder because it’s longer since I saw her, talked to her, touched her. #childloss is so unfair, so hard to bear 💔 #grief
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Caroline
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On this #BereavedParentsDay , I pay tribute to the wonderful people who’ve supported me in the 10 weeks since I lost Florence. It is the sh*test club in the world, made up of the kindest people. Sending you all love and gratitude today 💛
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Caroline
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7 months
30 Fridays without you 💔 Really tough week - it’s so true when they say grief is not linear ❤️‍🩹 #childloss #suicideawareness #grief
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Caroline
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5 months
10 years ago this was how my life looked ❤️ My two precious girls. How I wish I could step into this photo and hug my pink-bespectacled beauty. Miss you Floss 💖 #childloss #christmasGrief
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Caroline
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3 months
320 soul-destroying days since you died. I don’t know how I’ve survived them. Most days I haven’t really wanted to survive them. Child loss is terminal grief. You wouldn’t wish it on anyone. My poor baby, forever 13 💔
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Caroline
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For as long as I live, every fibre of my being will miss you, Florence Rose 🌹 This #InternationalBereavedMothersDay I want to acknowledge the fellow mums who keep me company on this most unenviable journey, supporting me when their own hearts are broken. Thank you ❤️‍🩹 #childloss
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Anam Cara
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29 days
It takes a strong women to be a mother. It takes an even stronger women to be a bereaved mother…. We think of those today, who hold their child in their hearts, on this, International Bereaved Mothers Day 💖 #InternationalBereavedMothersDay
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Caroline
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@chris_swan What a beautiful young woman. We are holding my daughter’s funeral today so I really know how you’re feeling. Sending you so much love 💛
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Grief totally sucks. But at the moment, the absolute worst thing is knowing I won’t get to see you grow into the amazing young woman I know you would have become. You were so curious and clever and kind to others. I miss you so much, Floss 💛 #forever13 #childloss
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Caroline
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2 months
I struggle to look at photos of myself now as I see the grief in my eyes straight away, the ‘after’ version of me. But we went to Valencia & we had a nice time 🇪🇸 so sharing these pictures in the interests of balance - wish Floss was there too #childloss #bereavedbysuicide 💛
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Caroline
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As I sort out final arrangements for my 13 year olds’s funeral, the decisions I’m making and the tasks I’m having to do would just blow your mind. It’s so painful, no parent should have to do this stuff. It’s honestly unbearable and unfathomable 💔 #childloss #bereavedmother
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@david_tough Agreed. I saw a similar thing about a teen leaving for uni. I understand that’s a sad time, big change, when they fly the nest. But I’d give anything to have that experience with Flossie, I wouldn’t mourn her moving on to the next chapter of her life
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Caroline
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Halloween 2018. How I wish Flossie and I were planning her face paint for this evening now #childloss 💔
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I don’t want to be a bereaved mother, to know how truly awful #childloss is. I don’t want to be talking about inquests and spending every minute missing my girl. It’s been ten weeks without my beautiful child and its just the worst thing in the world 💔
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Grief is like a pair of muddy boots.

I was talking to someone recently who shared the struggles she was having on the first anniversary of the death of her husband. She said it hurts more now than it did then, and she asked if that was...

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@Melpoppp However, maternity services are completely broken in the UK. It’s not fair on the families who use them or the staff who work in them 💔 Also, losing Flossie means I can’t be the committed, emotionally dedicated midwife I used to be so I’m not going to try 💔 /end
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Caroline
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Every year, I share this on #MotheringSunday but I never thought I’d be a recipient 💔 First Mother’s Day as a bereaved mum, an unfathomable position to be in. Sending love and solidarity to all bereaved mums and all who find today hard #childloss #grief #bereavedbysuicide
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The Good Grief Trust
@goodgrieftrust
3 months
This weekend we are thinking of you: 🌸💕 #MothersDay
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4 yrs of study, 2300 theory hours, 2372 placement hours, 48 babies helped into the world & hundreds of families cared for. I’ve now got a 1st class honours degree to show for it 👩🏼‍🎓 Hands down the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Thanks to everyone who supported me over the line ❤️
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Caroline
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#NewProfilePic Things are feeling pretty bleak here. But this photo of Flossie trying (failing) to pose sensibly for her passport photo last year made me smile this morning. I love her so much. 💛 #childloss #grief
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Caroline
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10 months
Every moment, I’m thinking of you baby girl, missing you with every breath 💛 For Flossie 💛 #forever13
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Caroline
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8 months
Unfortunately I have the double stigma of #childloss and bereavement by suicide. People can’t deal with it so pretend it’s not happening. Wish I could pretend @SOBScharity @PAPYRUS_Charity #SuicidePrevention #suicidebereavement #stigma
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Caroline
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8 months
In the 5 months since Flossie died, there’ve been people I expected to hear from but didn’t, people who’ve crossed the road to avoid me. People say “I don’t know what to say to you”. Something is better than nothing - I don’t have any choice about my reality, don’t ignore me 💔
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Flossie’s death was out of the blue. Losing someone to #suicide leaves an especially complicated devastation behind. Not being able to say goodbye, the questions, the what-ifs, the never ending guilt. I was the person supposed to protect her. I’ll never make my peace with that /3
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Caroline
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@newt50 Flossie, #forever13 , lost to suicide in a brief spell of teenage hormonal darkness and leaves us missing her forever 💔
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
9 months
@YoungMindsUK @PAPYRUS_Charity @Place2Be Lastly, if anyone reading this feels suicidal, I am so so sorry. I want to ask you to please, hang on if you can, consider letting someone know how you’re feeling. You have value, you are so important, the world is better with you in it, even if you don’t believe it right now 6/
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Caroline
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This is so incredibly true. I miss Flossie more than words can convey but mentioning her to me is a gift, not a reminder of my loss #saytheirname Please consider mentioning the lost loved-one on Christmas cards if sending them, for me that’s so much kinder than missing her off 💔
@goodgrieftrust
The Good Grief Trust
@goodgrieftrust
6 months
Please share. This is one of our most popular posts. Please talk about the person who has died, it will help those grieving to know they are not forgotten. #saytheirname 🧡 #HelpandHopeinoneplace 🧡☂️
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@annasuegr I’ve just lost a 13 year old. Have come to the conclusion that there are no words for this type of loss 💔 But being there, offering specific practical help, letting her speak about her daughter if she wants to, & not trying to cheer her up will make a difference. Sending love ❤️
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A shocking and unpalatable grief like this has changed our address book unpredictably. Family have mostly been crap with a few exceptions. Friends have either disappeared or been lifesaving, vital and can never be repaid.Some strangers and new colleagues have been so wonderful /2
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Before it melts… ☃️ (note the snow cat too) 🤍 #snowman
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Caroline
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Been comforted for at least the hundredth time this morning with “I can’t imagine how awful…” about the loss of my 13 year old. I know you can’t, but part of me wants you to try, just for a few minutes. As I feel dismissed by you not even trying to imagine 💔 I have no choice.
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Mark Lewis
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THIS CLIP👇🏻 @robdelaney is so right We say “sorry for your loss” like some sort of reflex It’s harder — but much more meaningful — to sit with the discomfort, to feel even a sliver of the other person’s grief if offering more than cursory condolences
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Caroline
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9 months
If you have young people in your life, please educate yourself ⬇️ on how to look for the (often very subtle) signs that a young person is feeling suicidal. We couldn’t see Flossie’s suicide coming but I wish I’d seen this article before she died. 2/
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Youth Suicide Prevention Hub - Grassroots Suicide Prevention

Youth Suicide Prevention Hub Suicide is the leading cause of death for people under 35 years old in the UK The number of suicides in people aged 15-19 in England is at its highest in 30 years Every...

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Caroline
@carolinenewson
7 months
I’ll miss my brilliant NHS colleagues, who work really hard and really care, often with little appreciation and public criticism 💔 I’ll especially miss @Melpoppp the most supportive manager anyone in my situation could wish for, a credit to our Trust /3
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Caroline
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#Childloss is life changing, devastating & tough to imagine until you’re unfortunate enough to experience it. The fellow bereaved are the absolute best companions on this path-they get it which is priceless-even though you wish you’d never had to make each others’ acquaintance /1
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Caroline
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And I’ll miss the connections I had with my caseload of pregnant people in community, and the other families I cared for in the hospital. I won’t get to be part of those families’ best and worst days anymore and that was a real privilege to have 💙 /2
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Caroline
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If you’re reading this and you’re worried your child might feel suicidal, or be self harming, or be struggling a lot please talk to them about it. Asking about suicide does not put the idea in their head. But if it’s already there they might feel heard and open up ❤️‍🩹 4/
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Caroline
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9 months
@YoungMindsUK @PAPYRUS_Charity @Place2Be Some places to find support… Sending love to the whole community of people whose lives have been devastated by suicide. You are some of the strongest people I’ve ever met. Huge thanks to @SOBScharity for your support over the past 4 months, it’s invaluable 💜 End/
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@dmu_ldmhnursing
DMU Learning Disability & Mental Health Nursing
@dmu_ldmhnursing
9 months
World Suicide Prevention Day is this week, on Sunday 10th September 2023. Click on the links below for some helpful resources to learn more about being part of this: #WorldSuicidePreventionDay #SuicideAwareness #mentalhealth
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@cobmfl Of course, I remember you from parents evening. And if I remember correctly, you’d experienced Flossie’s relentless chatterbox nature in class 🙈 Thank you so much for getting in touch Conor x
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Caroline
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9 months
When she chose to leave, we lost so much, and my amazing girl lost a bright future 💔 Every milestone that she won’t meet hurts me. So, to try to avoid any other family feeling like this on #WorldSuicidePreventionDay the biggest piece of advice I have is this… 3 /
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Caroline
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9 months
I can’t tell you how much I wish I’d known this 💔 Parents, reach out to charities, school, your GP for support before your child takes a permanent solution to a temporary problem. @YoungMindsUK @PAPYRUS_Charity @Place2Be do wonderful work. 5/
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Caroline
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2 months
This is so beautiful but it also breaks my heart as I’ll never see Flossie at 14, 15, 16, 17….child loss is so brutal and unfair #grief
@gunsnrosesgirl3
Science girl
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2 months
‘Portrait of Lotte’ a 20 year timelapse made by Dutch artist and filmmaker Frans Hofmeester of his daughter Lotte
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Caroline
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1 year
As a brand new bereaved mother, I had no idea that this international day existed but I do now know how it’s members feel and it’s genuinely the worst thing in the world. Sending you all my love and compassion 💛 #InternationalBereavedMothersDay 💔
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The Compassionate Friends UK
@TCFcharityUK
1 year
Today - Sunday 7 May 2023 - is International Bereaved Mothers Day. Our thoughts are with all those mothers who hold their children close in their hearts instead of their arms💔🧡
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Caroline
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@hazard_leah And this was back when she didn’t even worry about being cool 💖 Thank you x
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Caroline
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Three weeks now without my girl 💔
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Caroline
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2 months
50 weeks living like this 💔
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5G Pixie 🏳️‍⚧️
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Just now as I get ready for work, thinking about how when your child dies, you also die, but because you aren’t dead literally, people forget and treat you like normal. But you’re just a living dead version of yourself, no longer the same.
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Caroline
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@PeterHRatcliffe Such true words Peter. It makes me sad to have lost midwifery on top of the momentous loss of my beautiful daughter but I’ve known deep down for months that it’s the right decision. I’m sorry that you understand this so clearly yourself 🤍
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Caroline
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Awake at the crack of dawn, thought it looked light, it’s actually the eerie glow of unexpected snow ❄️ Super quiet and beautiful but not ideal being up at 5am on a Sunday 🥱 Might as well crack on with mandatory online training 😏
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Caroline
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6 months
Finding that the void caused by my #grief is highlighting some people who were friends before I lost my daughter who absolutely don’t make the cut now. Some gobsmacking thoughtlessness this week adding to my pain 💔
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Over the last couple of days I’ve had some really distressing messages from people in real life that I thought were good friends and extended family members saying that I should really be getting ‘back into the world’ and that my grieving is…1/2) #grief
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Channeling this after first week in the new job #grief
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Natalie Cosgrove
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#Wednesday words of wisdom.
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Caroline
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@TraceyR64968698 I’m not even putting decorations up as we are leaving the country for Christmas and pretending it’s not happening. So I think you’re doing amazingly even being able to think about having a tree Tracey. Sending gentle hugs of solidarity 🤍
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Caroline
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@Margauruitte So sorry for the loss of your Sandra, thank you for sharing 🧡
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Caroline
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Thinking of the bereaved fathers today #FathersDay , particularly my husband and the dads who have offered the hand of friendship to me over the last few weeks and shared support from their own grief, @Jon_T_R and @OfficialAM82 . Sending all of you love 💙
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
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@JarekCzerwice I’m really sorry for your loss Jarek. It is hard to talk about, the fear of being judged, or your child being judged. But I am determined to do it, in her honour 💛
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Caroline
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@SOBScharity @PAPYRUS_Charity @3dadswalking @suicideandco @YoungMindsUK But mostly I miss Flossie with every fibre of my being. Her humour, her impressions, her kindness, her sporty resilience, her mess and even her moodiness. She should be here, aged 14, doing trampoline routines and winding up her sister. It’s just not fair and milestones suck 💔🔚
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 year
@km_caroline A tiny rainbow amongst the rain clouds ☁️🌈 Thank you for sharing x
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 year
@smw_rn Stephanie, Sunnah is such a beautiful girl. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. My own daughter died 6 weeks ago so I know this pain. The shock you’ll be feeling is protection. Go steady and we’ll be here if you want to talk about her going forward. Sending so much love 🧡
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 year
@FionaTomlinson3 Oh Fiona, I’m so sorry that you’ve lost your Emily. Truly a pain like no other, you wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Sending you love too 💛
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
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@KindlyLoudly Thank you for sharing what must have been one of your worst days with others. I think it helps people feel less alone. It’s sickeningly unfair that that evil disease took your Ruby away, I’m just so sorry ❤️‍🩹
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
3 years
@MarianKeyes These pink specs of my daughter’s were my absolute fave! Hope Hannah gets on well with hers 💖
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
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@sarahwelshbird I’m so sorry for your loss too Sarah. If you don’t mind, I want to share this article about language around suicide as we are encouraged not to use “committed” in relation to it now: xxx
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Why The Phrase "Commit Suicide" Should Be Avoided

Mental health is something that all of us navigate. But often, we struggle to find the right words to talk about our mental health honestly. That's why we've updated the dictionary with better ways...

www.dictionary.com
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
7 months
@fesshole Your parents love you and will be proud of you, you have a useful degree ⭐️ Congratulations. Please consider telling them though as being blindsided and lied to will make them sad and feel stupid. Give them chance to be proud of you on your graduation instead of annoyed ❤️
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 month
@SOBScharity @PAPYRUS_Charity @3dadswalking @suicideandco @YoungMindsUK Somehow, I have survived the worst year of my life. Most days I haven’t wanted to. Everything is different now. I have a different job, I barely speak to family, I’m learning how to parent an only child, I worry constantly about her and how she can possibly grow up unscathed /5
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
7 months
Got the ginger boy from a rescue in lockdown. Two weeks later, convinced my husband to also get his tortie sister if Liverpool won that Saturday and they did, score! 🧡🖤 #NationalCatDay
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Lorenzo The Cat
@LorenzoTheCat
7 months
It's National Cat Day, so tell me: how did you get your cat?
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
3 years
Job offer for @SFHFT has made for a fantastic start to my birthday weekend #studentmidwife
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 year
@WorldChanger_WU Yes, it’s truly so awful and wrong x
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
11 months
@kezbobbleox A few people have told me they’ve had more honest, scary conversations with their teens than they ever would have done without my tragedy to spur them on. Parenting teens is hard. 💛
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 year
@probonoattorney Me too Steve. It’s lovely people care. But I want her back is all 💔
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
8 months
@KristaRados She was really funny and cool and kind. I miss her so much 💛
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
2 months
Absolutely this! And please try to correct others who use this term as people still aren’t aware 😕
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BatonOfHopeUK
@BatonOfHopeUK
2 months
Let's be committed to not saying "committed". Suicide has not been a crime in the UK since 1961. When we use terms like "committed suicide", we make the issue more difficult to talk about and prolong the pain for the person's loved ones. What should you say instead? Read on...
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
9 months
Back to back songs by Shakira on Radio 1 … definitely taking that as a little message from my beautiful girl from wherever she is 🤍 Flossie 🤍She bloody loved Shakira 😄 #grief #childloss
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
8 months
@shitscaredmum Thank you so much Nicola, I agree, I can’t understand how I’m still here and the world has kept turning the past 26 weeks. Sending you love back and thinking of you, and Laura, a few steps behind me on this unfathomable journey 💛
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
7 months
For Tory, Jess and Giles 🕯️🤍 and the families left behind ❤️‍🩹 You are all loved and missed immensely. #grief #childloss #bereavedparent #continuingbonds ( @ClaireCarmalt @4myJessBrady @minicoop82 )
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
7 months
@andrewtimhorne I’m very sorry that you find yourself in this position. My daughter died by suicide in April so I understand how lost and confused and heartbroken you must be. Sending you love xx
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
10 months
Useful communication tool for my #grief #childloss #bereaved friends to describe their sad on any given day 🥺🖤 because sometimes it’s hard to explain. Always sad but not always in the same way.
@DrMarinaHarris
Marina Harris, PhD, HSP-P, CMPC
@DrMarinaHarris
10 months
I should have put all these sad variations on my feelings wheel! 🤣 @worry__lines on IG has some great stuff.
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
29 days
@jenstirrup @TheBiancaFox @lauramezzzz How did this end Jennifer? I feel angry just reading about it 😳
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
3 years
Today a woman specifically thanked me for giving her the information she needed to advocate for herself and make an informed decision about whether to accept induction of labour or not and honestly that means the world to me ❤️ #studentmidwife #almostqualified
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
8 months
@Dick_Muller It’s so gobsmacking isn’t it. You’d have been adamant they’d be there for you. Sorry for your loss ❤️‍🩹
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
11 months
@4myJessBrady Thank you Andrea, and for your support and solidarity on here. I find the understanding of fellow bereaved parents is the only thing that really helps me at present 💙 Sending you love, and Jess too xx
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
8 months
@KindlyLoudly What a beautiful friendship 💜 I’m so sorry that you’ve lost your partner in crime, Jessie. Life is so cruel sometimes. Thinking of you all as Ruby’s 22nd birthday arrives. And raising a cocktail in her honour 🍹 xx
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 year
@LadyMartha19 Absolutely unfair and unfathomable 💔
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
3 years
An important milestone was hit last night, I caught baby #40 out of the 40 student midwives need to catch 💙 It was a baby boy making my total a neat 20 girls👧🏼 and 20 boys 👦🏽 Still lots to learn but nice to tick off a biggy on my jouney to qualifying #studentmidwife #40births
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@carolinenewson
Caroline
@carolinenewson
6 months
🫶🏻 got a rare smile out of me, gorgeous lad 🩵
@DanWuori
Dan Wuori
@DanWuori
6 months
You’re not even 10! Need a smile? Check out the complex mathematical thinking that little Jacob displays here as he recounts a recent conversation with a his friend, Mark. Such a great grasp of time and number for such a little guy. If you enjoy this video, know that I
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
10 months
@nathanand Yes, it’s absolutely ok, I see that, we have to do what feels right in a world where our loss makes most things feel wrong 💔
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 month
@heidi_moss I’m so incredibly sorry Heidi. It’s just the worst, most complicated pain 💔 Sending love xx
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
8 months
@sue_pawlowski Yes, we are doing the best we can. Thinking of you and Owen xxx
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
4 years
Changing my bio to 3rd year student midwife after passing my delayed 2nd yr placement assessment today 😅 Head down for the last ten months of this degree and (hopefully) qualifying 🤞🏼Delighted to have helped 33 little lives into the world & cared for many more families so far ❤️
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
11 months
@annasuegr Yes that’s true. Also, I’m 2 months in I sense people wanting/ expecting me to cope or feel a bit better. Which actually feels ridiculous and impossible. So sitting with her in whatever feelings she has, allowing her to feel them without trying to fix the unfixable is valuable 🩵
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Caroline
@carolinenewson
1 month
My fave, @MarianKeyes has done it again 💚 This book has helped distract me during the hardest of weeks. Anna is my favourite Walsh sister and I share the #grief connection with her now. Loved the book, inhaled it. Thanks Mar 😘
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