Todays our 23rd wedding anniversary.
9 decided to hijack it as her birthday weekend. We’re now chilling. Looking forward to celebrate properly post radiotherapy in a couple of months!
So I made it to london. It triggered far more
#anxiety
than I thought. But I did it. It was mostly nice to meet the folk I’ve come to see, but far to noisy at dishoom restaurant.
I’m now relaxing with a book😎
I’ve been quiet these last weeks. Trying to support my wife through chemo, supporting the kids and whilst working full time has been brutal. H and I were sharing this bath until a few minutes ago to quietly read our books in silence together. Much needed time relaxing together!
Today is the first morning it’s been warm enough to sit outside and have a coffee. What happened to summer?Most of my plants seem to be still asleep. A few things have flowered, but we’re still waiting for the
#dahlias
🤷♂️🤷♂️
A little bit of me time with glass of cold cider and my current book. Tomorrow
Morning I have to have H at the hospital for round 2 of surgery for
#BreastCancer
at 7am. Making the most of a few minutes to read!
#MentalHealthMatters
After my wife’s cancer diagnosis yesterday, I tried to stay strong. That didn’t work. My boss sent me home. I cried on everyone at work. Colleagues have been texting to check in. My wife and I went for a walk at lunch and had an unplanned pub lunch together. Todays small win.
Thanks
@britnaturism
for the cards for my phone case and the leaflets! My postie managed to rip the envelope, so a card fell out! Hopefully he’s now more educated about
#nakedhiking
and being
#naturist
! 🤷♂️😎☀️
Father’s Day… I missed my dad. My kids presented me with a card and said they’ve got me a combined Father’s Day and birthday present. I’ll await my birthday. I love them!
Depression and anxiety are high, so I’m taking some me time to read. The rain is beating down.
Time for Friday night Guinness and time to reflect on the week!
Dare I start to hope that I’m coming out of this depressive episode? Certainly my work trip to London was extremely tiring, but I did it. I’ve also not taken diazepam for over a week, even with the stresses🙏🙏
Feeling low today. Worried about my psychiatric assessment tomorrow, but would like to know what’s wrong with my head. Is this an acceptable way to spend my morning?
#reading
#naked
#fire
#mentalillness
🤷♂️
This weekend was too much😱
10 had a good time at her birthday party and then we all went out with her godparents today for a walk.
Stress to deal with when I got to church this morning too.
Time to chill with a book!
#anxiety
and
#depression
not the best.
Need a holiday!
15 and 17 are out. We haven’t retreated to bed and have relaxed in front of the fire. Good night all. Thanks for the cup of tea earlier
@TwoNaturists
. It’s beginning to feel like there actually might be light at then end of the tunnel 🤷♂️🤷♂️🙏🙏
I’ve been quiet recently. It’s been a tough couple of months emotionally.
#chemo
round 5 today for my wife, and I’m enjoying a little bit of me time, whilst my son has his drum lesson.
#MentalHealthMatters
I don’t feel at all positive tonight. Happy new year doesn’t really resonate. I lost my dad last May after learning this time last year he had pancreatic cancer. My wife’s battling chemo for breast cancer now. Sorry I’m not being very positive, but I’m not feeling it. Need a hug
I’m in my happy place with my book laying in the bath. As a family, we had a fab time with Joolz and Ian of
@TwoNaturists
this afternoon. I really enjoyed rowing with Ian (even if I did make a bit of a mess of it 🤣). It was lovely to meet
@Pip6363
as well.
H’s last chemo session today. Glad for a few minutes to read. Glad the book is able to hide my gut, I’ve put on too much weight with not being able to do hiits. I need to get back to them. Have been referred to a clinical psychologist today too. Hope it helps!
#worksanarse
Thanks to everyone who’s reached out over the last few days. H had her
#BreastCancer
surgery yesterday as planned and came home early evening. A bit of a painful night, but heading in the right. I’m rather broken!
This photo doesn’t show the rain that’s currently falling!
A celebratory pint sat on my own after getting through the week. I took the afternoon off work to see a clinical psychologist, which I think was helpful. She clicked with me, so I’m going to see her a few more times and see how that helps.
#MentalHealthMatters
#timeout
!
Thought I’d take a bath and read to try and chill again this evening as I’m still feeling anxious following this week.
Dropped my phone in the bath as I was getting in. I’m glad phones are waterproof now! My bank cards are drying nicely too.
Now
#anxiety
off the scale😭
What a few days. My wife has breast cancer that needs operating to remove. They can’t operate because of another issue they’ve found. Because of this, samples have been sent to a lab in the US. We’ve told the kids this weekend. Please pray.
This weekend has been bad. Chemo on Friday. Patronising twat at corgi told me I shouldn’t have taken the front case off my boiler to tell them what the problem was on sat, the twat they sent out identified the same problem but left us without heating! I fixed that too.
#metime
Friends. I’m so tired. The week has been brutal. I’ve just updated my profile blurb. I want it to read ok, but at the same time be truthful about me. Does it make sense?
I haven’t tweeted for a while as I don’t want to be that person in your feed who is always negative! I’m very grateful for those that have kept in contact on DMs. Friday was 4/8 of my wife’s chemo - half way through the first phase.
#mentalheal
not great but still standing - just
I’ve gone quiet on here after my wife’s cancer diagnosis. I was finding it a helpful tool in getting back to life after my mental illness (which is starting to relapse). I’m still enjoying your tweets and being tagged. Just not feeling able to post myself. Hope you understand.
Well the day has come that H has her lumpectomy. It was a very early start, but she went straight in. I’m feeling very anxious, but at least I can see that is a normal response now, and so far I’ve avoided a panic attack!
#MentalHealthMatters
Night all. Thankful for everyone who has supported us this year. H was slightly better again today. My mother had surgery this am. 15 and 17 have a few friends over to see the new year in. I’m glad 2023 is nearly over. If anyone needs me, I’ll be reading my book!
Had to be up at an ungodly hour for a Sunday morning, as 15 is off for 3 days kayaking down the River Severn for his DofE.
On the plus side, it gave me time for coffee and reading time in the bath.
#bothofyou
by
@adeleparks
has started well!
Not good tonight. Talked to H about about sex post cancer and me trying to exercise instead of adding mirtazapine tomorrow. Net result. We didn’t agree. We both need help with our heads. Feel broken. I know she feels broken too.
#thankscancer
Miraculously I’ve made it in just about one piece. I very nearly didn’t. I wish for this current depressive episode to pass.
At least it’s the weekend and chance to try and relax!
I have retreated to read my book.
#depression
and
#anxiety
all suck. Good night all. Having some me space. H will come and see me when she’s had a bit of space too, then we’ll chill together for the evening.
#breastcancer
#MentalHealthMatters
Major
#breastcancer
curveball here. We thought we’d be finished this horrible chapter by the end of this month and could possibly get away for a few days.
All change again… we’re both broken🥺
Not even getting any joy from my garden😭
Round 3 of chemo tmo morning. I never got back more of my head this week. I love and want to support my wife as she goes through this. Im worried I think I’m going under again with
#depression
. Increased dose in meds hasn’t improved things (or else’s means I’ve lasted this far!)
I’ve only gone and done it! Glad to be heading home mind. Maybe walking 2miles across london with my rucksack was a bit much 🥵!
I even managed to loop through Regent’s Park for some tourist time!
#anxiety
and
#depression
can do one for once🙌
Awful week emotionally, sorry I worried you this week, thank you for the messages, still very low. Saw my GP today which helped - I’m back on weekly appointments, so he can keep an eye on me.
Still huge cancer decisions to be made here for H.
#breastcancer
#depression
A lady in her 80s popped over earlier and gave us this. She knows we’re having a tough time. I love my church family! Just chopping it to store it. It won’t last long!
H and 10 are watching strictly. 17 and 15 are gaming. I’m in my happy space. Should I tell my psychologist I missed the most important detail when I see him next🤷♂️ I nearly did. I went for a glass of pink wine tonight🥂
17 & 16 are out. H is just tucking 10 in then we have a quiet evening in front of the fire. Time to read. Dare I hope that this depressive episode is improving 🤷♂️. Feeling quite chilled reading in front of the fire. I’m hoping my new meds are kicking in.
#depression
#naturist
Had my most active day in a long time. Up early for reformer Pilates with friend Jooles of
@TwoNaturists
. Went to church (without needing diazepam). 16 played drums and 17 did all the live sound / YouTube stream. Pruned some things in the garden. Then cooked tea. Knackered now.
Hospital appointment with H today. More hard cancer news to process. Im more and more broken🥺
(I will check in with my gp and cancer support specialist this week).
Started this account last year to help overcome
#depression
and
#anxiety
. It helped to walk
#naked
alone in the sun. Started to love
#reading
#gardening
again. Now I’m interacting with many folk in those areas. Wonder if I should flag I’m naked in a post. Please can you comment!
Friday Guinness and quiet book time. Mood remains a dark as this pint. Hope my psychiatrist appointment comes through soon. Stupid head.
Hope you all had a better week.
And relax. I’m glad to have made it to Friday. H’s surgery seems to have gone ok, and today she had the drain taken out too. I think I’ve earned this this week! I hope you all have a good weekend 🌞🌞☀️
I forgot how much I love lying in the bath with a book and a glass of wine. I hope you’ve all had a good weekend? (Forgive the manky bathroom, that’s the next job in doing up this house!)
Today off work to looking after myself has helped a little. My cancer support specialist helped me to see some perspective and is referring me to a psychologist.
An hour chatting to her has completely worn me out emotionally and mentally. I’m done in 😔.
#cancer
#depression
Mental health seems to be in free fall this weekend 🥹. I hoped getting a load of bulbs in the ground would have helped. Now laying in the bath reading. I need a hug. Worst of it is suicidal thoughts are rearing their horrible head again as well😟
17 decided to light the fire tonight. I’d forgotten how good it feels to be naked in front of a fire!
#depression
is really bad. Had the worst appointment with a different gp who told me to “stop thinking of me and support H”.
Double mastectomy now almost certain. Need a hug🫂
It’s been quite a year here. Thank you to everyone who has followed us on this cancer journey and reached out, interacted, WhatsApp’d, phoned, met up with me, or offered me a hug! I appreciate all of you. Thank you!
Wishing you all a happy Christmas!
🎄🎅🎄🫂
Another week over. According to my GP today, if I do attempt to get back to work before Christmas, it’s likely to do me more harm than good, so I’m off now until after H’s op. At least my GP is on my side🥹.
I’ll leave nailing
#depression
and
#anxiety
to next year. Time to read!
This morning I woke up experiencing another really low mood. Then saw my psychologist and also my cancer support specialist.
I managed to get into the garden too to get some pruning started.
Now I’m trying to be kind to myself in my safe place!
#depression
and
#anxiety
suck🥺
Not much better today, still really struggling. But being back at work proved a helpful distraction. I came home and went for a long walk on my own.
Thank you to everyone who keeps reaching out and for caring.
I’m not sure if Christmas has caught up, or I’m anxious about H’s surgery. Probably both. Tonight I need some time out 🥺. Need a hug. Hopefully H will get in and give me one. 🫂
So I’ve finally become braver and started
#naturisthiking
on quite paths. It’s a big step from just being naked at home. Last Monday I managed a whole hour, and got told it was a nice day for it by a jogger. Today, same path, a total stranger had a go at me.