@catherine_mayer
I am so sorry for your loss. I feel like a robot going through motions. When I had to identify him and sign for things, his wedding ring was in a little bag. So much is still headed my way - ME report, inv. report, ashes. Each thing is breaking my heart over and over. 💔
Tyler is on the way to Maine. I am sad but he will be laid to rest on a mountain overlooking the Atlantic Ocean with his grandparents and family. He loved the sound of the ocean, the salt air, the first winter. He can now be there in his favorite place. I remember how happy he…
Darkness can't drive out darkness;
only light can do that.
Hate can't drive out hate;
only love can do that.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.
Our country really needs his beautiful soul and stirring words. I hope that the we can show love to our fellow man, if just for one day.
When foreigners casually drop ‘bombing of Kyiv’ these pics always come to mind. this is what
#RussianColonialism
did to Chechnya and Grozny when they tried to leave the empire in 2000. a war crime of horrific scale, but the rest of the world was like ‘meh’, so Moscow continued.
6 years ago tonight, I lost my sweet mother. Happy that she and Tyler are up at the Starbucks in the sky having coffee and some lemon cake.
Hospice was in my dining room... I laid with her singing some made up lyrics to a lot of 80s music.
This week is no fun. I need to…
Trying to start working again...
Today, the wedding announcements of Charlotte & Edward. We painted their venue, The Swan House, in Atlanta, Georgia and paired with soft pinks and hues of green to coordinate.
Artwork by Zorina. 🇺🇸🇺🇦
#seahorsebendpress
I follow Yaroslava. She always keeps me up to date with everything in Ukraine and Kyiv. I love to see her beautiful photography of Kyiv. Most of all, she has a beautiful soul.🇺🇦
#warcoffee
#SlavaUkraini
7:16 am in
#Kyiv
Good morning from Ukraine!
Son is on his way to Grandma (I’m not sending him away from Kyiv, he’ll be back soon 😎).
I found a decent
#warcoffee
at the railway station. If you’re here someday, please, find One love coffee.
It’s gooood!
If you are in pain, hang in there. Ok? Call 988.
My name is Jenn. I am also in pain. What I know is that things will get better for us. I'll walk with you. I have a long way to walk.
Tonight I remember Tyler and Karen.
#lookaround
#reachout
#listen
If you see someone crying.. go hug them. I needed a hug for seven months. No one hugged me.
Today, I was leaving my appointment and a girl was crying in a room filled with people who were just ignoring her. They were just sitting there. So strange.
I saw her immediately when…
I find peace in music... 💔
I know your life
On earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain
Go rest high on that mountain
Son your work on earth is done
It’s Dave here, posting for Jenn to report that surgery went well. She is in recovery, dealing with some pain, but the medical staff are very responsive
Sunset challenge: wherever you are around the world, take a picture of your sunset and post it here. I will find a place in this concrete jungle to take a photograph. I love sunsets because of the all of the colors. I saw a beautiful one in Key West with Tyler that I will never…
Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world
Took the midnight train going anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
Took the midnight train going anywhere
Working on an event at the Swan House in Georgia - we have painted two versions of the interior for several of our clients. I really enjoy interior paintings - architecture and details.
#seahorsebendpress
#SlavaUkraini
🇺🇸🇺🇦
@kizzyannie
Tyler was treated for depression and DID NOT take his medication. Don't feel sorry for Tyler. He skipped his psych and therapy appointments. He chose NOT to get help. Mental illness is not like cancer - there is actually a treatment and you can get better.
Life challenge: Favorite happiness/vacation/travel photograph: Any photograph that you think, with or without people that shows the best part of life, happiness, laughter, peace or just beauty. It needs to be your photograph - can be from anytime. I have one finally.
If you go…
It’s my birthday.. if I were blowing out candles, I would just wish for a life. Pathetic, I know. Not sure what that even means anymore. Anyway, yay, celebrating a weird year. I feel numb today.
Happy Wednesday from Kyiv!
Please keep our team in your prayers. Pray for peace and safety for everyone, both citizens and those brave men and women on the front lines.
#SlavaUkraini
#glorytotheheroes
🇺🇦
I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
There is a point in grief when all the beautiful souls who have guided you on a journey help you become part of the world again.
I cannot even begin to thank you all for the phone calls, letters, texts and friendships.
I love you all so much. I am happy. I am in the light. ❤️
@wsmith725
Pretty sure I am in that anger phrase of grief. I've already been in shock, denial. I would not bargain for him though. Trying to decide if I want to tell his mother or let her think it was natural causes. Thinking that was hard - loss, but loss that is caused by him is harder.
Biopsy completed. I felt like 500 pounds of anxiety fell of me afterwards while waiting on the elevator.
Nice to have 2 people hug you too. New world I live in. Good one. ❤️❤️
We are painting Swan House for a couple today.... it is such a beautiful venue for a wedding. I love the architecture and the fountain in front. Reach out if we can work with you. It is still in progress... hope to show it to you soon.
#seahorsebendpress
#comissionedartwork
This move is hard for me. Dealing with survivors guilt after losing Tyler to suicide.
Every day I try to move forward and be happy, but there is so much pain right below the surface. I keep it there.
I’m not sure I’ll ever be the same again. I’m secretly very sad… and I guess,…
July 20, 2023, new chapter, my new life.
We are all on different paths in grief, but if you walk forward bravely ... life finds us. I'm not honestly sure if I found myself but others found me. Hand by hand, call by call, letter by letter, prayer by prayer, they pulled me up and…
Night walk.... in Kyiv, by the river near the Obolon District. Peaceful and quiet. Please continue to pray for our team and colleagues in Kyiv. Thank you. 🇺🇦
#SlavaUkraini
#glorytotheheros
Busy day in the studio.. working for Kiersten & James. They are getting married this June at The Harper in Meadville, PA. It is a really gorgeous venue. I love the area for the ceremony.. a huge fireplace with unique modern gray granite benches for the guests. Their collection…
One of my friends shares music with me. Music I haven't heard. I'm a big song lyric girl. If I ever want to explain how I feel, what I think or notice, I can usually find it in a song. I love music. Before this happened, I always listened to music while I work. I would hear…
I've been waking up at 4am lately . It drives my crazy. Same time every morning. Less than 4 hours of sleep. Like clockwork. I have this time alone every morning. I put on headphones, grab my laptop.. and listen to him sing to me. While I am tired, I find comfort. It is a great…
I made this for Tyler last year for his birthday. We always made faces in all of our pictures. We have no normal pictures. Row 7 - Rum Runners in Bermuda - woah.. I'm a mess.
I miss you Tyler. We had a great life and laughed all the time.
Working on a project for Nicole, Ben and their sweet pup Moose walking on the beach in North Carolina. This will be their wedding announcement and then we will begin their formal collection.
#seahorsebendpress
#artistsoftwitter
#northcarolinabeach
I wish that heaven had visiting hours
And I would ask them if I could take you home
But I know what they'd say, that it's for the best
So I will live life the way you taught me, and make it on my own
And I will close the door, but I will open up my heart …
Just want to apologize for my crazy tweets… if you haven’t gotten to know me at all, I just post whatever is on my mind as my life went off the rails in January. Yep, I’m the car wreck on the side of the road.
This evening I was like.. eh, that’s a lot of posts about GI…
Putting the final details on the collection for Sarah & Dawson today for their wedding this April at the United States Military Academy of West Point. 🇺🇸
Artwork by our talented team, Zorina & Валентин. Our team paints with and without power! 🇺🇦
#seahorsebendpress
#SlavaUkraini
Miriam & Ryan are getting married in Siena, Italy at Borgo Di Castelvecchio. This was for their wedding announcement. We work with them again this Summer for their October 2023 wedding.
We are literally tripping over Italian villas over here. I really need to go to Italy. After…
❤️ Time to mail Tyler's ashes to Maine. I feel selfish for wanting to keep them, but my precious friend Ali showed me how I could make a memorial diamond from a small part of them to always have with me. I will have them create a green one to remind me of his beautiful eyes.…
@fabershields
Yes. My therapist and Dave helped - well, they did this. I am not strong enough to make proper decisions. They are good people. His family is very happy. The urn never made me happy - so it is ok.
I just keep losing parts of him. Soon there will be nothing left. I lost my…
In the works, a huge project for Bailey & Nico, Positano, Italy - Hotel Marincanto. This collection is ready to go to print except we are still working on some bespoke icons for their details card. This took Zorina a long time to paint due to all the detail.
This is on my bucket…
Gotta get a few more hours of sleep so I can help Jane & Fernando. They are getting married this June on a little island off the coast of Athens in Greece.
I wish I was on this island with the beautiful blue water and lush plants.
@Fadingbubbles
I am sorry. We have all been in that place. I have been in that place. When I am depressed .. I have a reality check card. I can post it. You read both sides and you realize, I need to live and wait.
Peace, love and healing with the people suffering and who have lost loved ones in Turkey and Syria. 11,000 dead so far. This is so sad. Donate to your favorite charity. I donated to World Kitchen.
#iamwithturkey
#iamwithsyria
In pain and loopy, but alive and kicking. There is no phone tool to get rid of my purple eye bags. I can add boxing to my profile.
Thank you for the good wishes and prayers.. hope this and my next procedures heal me. It’s been a long road. ❤️
I'm going to post Maine. My husband is from there and the first time he took me there, although he has a lot of family, he wanted to show me everything and that is the happiest I have ever seen him. It was SO SO cold but I thought it was beautiful. I have pictures of us in…
"We laugh until we think we'll die
barefoot on a summer night
Nothing new is sweeter than with you
And in the streets, we run afree
like it's only you and me."
Good morning, Tyler. It has been a year today since you left this earth. I am thankful for the 16 years we had…
We completed the gardens and the Oheka Castle in Huntington, New York. Like many of the castles, villas and manors we paint in Europe, the gardens are so lovely and are used for events and weddings.
I would love to be at a party here in the evening, glass of wine and just walk…
It's
#ValentinesDay
❤️. Many of us are dealing with the pain of a lost spouse, divorce or unwanted singleness. I put together some stats and self-care advice from experts on how best to face the day sans heartbreak.💔 read/RT--not just for women!
My colleagues in Kyiv and their family of 5 have a safe place to stay in Italy until Russia gets the heck out of their country. After a year of war crimes against humanity and horrible atrocities, they need to protect their children.
Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers…
Excited to post and mail out the collection for Grace & Jose today. It is a really lovely monochromatic collection for their wedding in Mexico City. These are a few of the elements, but this collection is really big and has so many more.
We really enjoyed working on this and…
This isn’t a religious or political debate thread .. but you know that. If you know me, you know I work for everyone and respect everyone and I mean everyone. My friends are across the entire spectrum as well.
Be kind.. life is so short. You have no idea. I am a Democrat that…
Howdy! I’m in the hospital in Houston with my little heart problem. Hope you guys are doing better. Currently wearing a lovely yellow hospital gown and have a coordinating scar… so thought I’d post a pre-problem pic instead of when I just had to deal with death. Whomp whomp.