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@sajzxa

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do you ever miss your own energy? like damn what happened to me

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@sajzxa

9 months

that sick feeling when you can actually feel the pain in your chest from hearing something or seeing something that really breaks your heart

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i hate getting flashbacks from things i don't want to remember

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@sajzxa

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forgiving people in silence and never speaking to them again is a form of self care

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@sajzxa

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you know what? sometimes it's hard for me to communicate how i feel because i don't always understand why i feel the way i feel. i need someone who is patient enough to understand my silence, i just want someone to be there for me so i don't feel alone

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@sajzxa

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little miss always figures it out, i just gotta panic first

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@sajzxa

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i can't believe i allowed myself to be disrespected so many times just because i care about other people's feelings more than mine

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@sajzxa

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and suddenly life wasn't about living, it was about surviving

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@sajzxa

8 months

hearing "i'm proud of you" when you're having a hard time really does hit different

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@sajzxa

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it sucks being super observant person because i notice every little thing in every action and i literally get sad over the smallest things

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@sajzxa

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stuck between "i don't wanna feel that type of hurt again" but "i wanna feel loved again"

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@sajzxa

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"oh ok" actually means my heart just got ripped into a million pieces

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@sajzxa

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little miss thinks she can handle it until she is in her room all night crying her eyes out

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@sajzxa

8 months

i admit, i really miss how things used to be. but i've accepted the fact that things have changed

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@sajzxa

8 months

saw a quote that said "be the adult you needed as a child" and it's changed my whole perspective

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@sajzxa

8 months

nobody has ever apologized for doing the things they did to me, they only blamed me for reacting how i reacted

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@sajzxa

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it's crazy how trauma makes you push people away when all you want is love

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@sajzxa

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you ever like "it is what it is" but deep inside your heart wishes things would be different

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@sajzxa

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i don't tolerate being shouted at. idc if i'm right or wrong, just don't shout at me

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@sajzxa

9 months

no amount of concealer can cover up how tired i am of this life

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@sajzxa

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i hate getting close to people these days, i always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, and feeling too much

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@sajzxa

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'dissapointed, but not surprised' has been my biggest mood this year

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@sajzxa

8 months

day by day, i'm training my heart to accept disappointments even from people i love

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@sajzxa

9 months

got called lazy by people that didn't even know i was tryna keep myself alive

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@sajzxa

9 months

i'm such a "no, it's okay" and suffer in silence type of a person

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@sajzxa

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have you ever wanted to cry, but no tears came out, so you just stare blankly into space while feeling your heart break into pieces

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@sajzxa

9 months

unless you're me, in my position, don't ever try to tell me how i should feel

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@sajzxa

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i want to meet myself from someone else's point of view

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@sajzxa

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when i cry about one thing, i end up crying about everything that's messed up in my life

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@sajzxa

9 months

dealing with family problems, trauma, unstable mental health, insecurities, anxiety, self blame at such a young age isn't easy at all

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@sajzxa

9 months

i just wanna sit in front of the ocean and listen to the waves

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@sajzxa

9 months

i realized that i will always be the midnight rain girl, the one who will always choose to suffer alone. who keep on pushing people away when things aren't right with me and chooses to self sabotage because i believe that in order to save them, i must let go of them

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@sajzxa

9 months

i hate that moment when you hear something that kills you inside, but you have to act like you're fine

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@sajzxa

9 months

i wanna go back and hug my younger self so bad, that little girl went through so much

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@sajzxa

7 months

making someone laugh after they've just finish crying is one of the most beautiful things to ever exist

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@sajzxa

9 months

sucks when you want to be heartless but you know that's not how you are

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@sajzxa

7 months

can't wait for the day when somebody tells me i'm the best thing that's ever happened to them and they mean it

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@sajzxa

9 months

reminder: you cannot change a person who doesn't see an issue in their actions

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@sajzxa

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do you ever miss someone but never let them know because you have this feeling that they are doing just fine without you anyways?

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@sajzxa

9 months

sometimes you have to accept the fact that certain things will never go back to how they used to be

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@sajzxa

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someone said "because i carry it well, it doesn't mean it ain't heavy" i felt that

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@sajzxa

9 months

honestly can't find anything more peaceful than sleeping during the day to avoid everyone, and staying up through the night because it's the only time when everything is quiet

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@sajzxa

9 months

efforts are always better than promises

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@sajzxa

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i have a terrible habit of leaving things unsaid for the sake of peace

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@sajzxa

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i passed my hardest moments alone while everyone believed i'm fine

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@sajzxa

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i think i'm afraid to be happy because whenever i get too happy, something bad always happens

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@sajzxa

9 months

i don't ever want to go through another stage in my life where i am telling someone how they should treat me

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@sajzxa

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that moment when you burst into tears in your room and you realize that no one knows how unhappy you are

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@sajzxa

8 months

i'm either too direct or don't express my emotions at all

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@sajzxa

9 months

the best apology is changed behavior

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@sajzxa

8 months

but darling we can't force people to choose us

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@sajzxa

9 months

losing your appetite because you're sad

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@sajzxa

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my trust is so fucked up, i feel like i'm getting played or lied to all the time

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@sajzxa

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little miss cut the world off when she's not okay

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@sajzxa

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realizing i am hard to love because i have an attitude problem, trust issues, always need to be reassured, i overthink 24/7, and i never believe i'm loved

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@sajzxa

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i miss my own energy, i used to be so full of life

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@sajzxa

8 months

i can honestly say this has been the most eye opening year for me

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@sajzxa

8 months

i strongly believe the universe is teaching me patience right now, on all levels

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@sajzxa

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i'll get over it, i just gotta be dramatic first

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@sajzxa

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sleeping is nice until you wake up and realize your still sad

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@sajzxa

8 months

everytime i addressed something that bothered me, i became the problem

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@sajzxa

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"how's life going" idk bro i've been ignoring it

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@sajzxa

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my response to every situation is "it's all good" because even if it isn't it will be

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@sajzxa

8 months

there are just some wounds that apologies don't heal

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@sajzxa

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she's a 10 but somebody made her feel like 0

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@sajzxa

9 months

sometimes i wish, i was worth the risk too. that somewhere, someone out there would pursue me, and make me the only exception despite all the odds

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@sajzxa

8 months

90% of my problems would be solved if i stopped over thinking and being anxious about everything and calm down

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@sajzxa

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being alone is so addicting once you notice how peaceful it is

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8 months

weekend doesn't feel weekend anymore

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@sajzxa

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i hate giving up on people but i hate forcing shit even more

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@sajzxa

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no regrets because i know my heart was pure

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@sajzxa

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have you ever looked at someone and hope they stay in your life forever

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@sajzxa

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this year i lost, won, failed, cried, laughed, loved, but above all i learned

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my mental state: if you give me a long hug i might start crying

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@sajzxa

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we all broke rules for someone and in the end they broke us too

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@sajzxa

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why do we try so hard for people who don't try for us

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@sajzxa

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your trauma was never your fault, but healing will always be your responsibility

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no one knows how much i cried this year

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@sajzxa

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the audacity to think that i will be nice after being disrespected

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@sajzxa

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the worst battle i ever fought was between what i knew and what i felt

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@sajzxa

9 months

a man with manners and respect is a real definition of handsome

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@sajzxa

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today i read something that said "someone who overthinks is also someone who overloves" and i felt that

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8 months

my stalking skills surprise me sometimes too

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@sajzxa

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my mom said "love doesn't hurt you, a person that doesn't know how to love does" and that hit me

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@sajzxa

8 months

the older you get you start to see how important privacy is. not everyone needs to know what goes on with you

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she's tired, she's just trying to continue with life even though deep inside she's fading, she's me

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stuck between over emotional or emotionless at the same time

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@sajzxa

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i hate how quickly my eyes get filled with tears whenever i am hurt or angry

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if they're fine without you, be fine without them too

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@sajzxa

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never gonna forget that one night i was literally crying and gasping for air begging God to end it

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@sajzxa

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this year i met the most broken version of me, but also the strongest

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where's my award for acting like everything is fine

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and she distanced herself despite of being in love

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@sajzxa

8 months

no one broke my heart. i break it my damn self by staying in a situation where my energy and time was no longer needed or wanted

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@sajzxa

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forcing yourself not to talk to somebody because they don't deserve you is the hardest thing ever

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i'm mastering the art of being silent, even when there's a lot to be said

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@sajzxa

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being alone is not boring, for me it's my comfort zone. i love my own space

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sometimes i miss the bond but then i remember the disrespect

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i'm mature enough to understand that i have some toxic traits too

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@sajzxa

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this attitude came from pain, i wasn't always like this

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