Pleased to reveal the cover of my novel This Is Fine out in June! It’s about a woman who reaches a crisis point in her relationship, and at the same time so does her teenage niece, for different reasons. They end up (reluctantly) spending the summer together in a seaside town…
Boris Johnson's column in The Telegraph that the cure to mental health problems is work, is honestly the most arrogant, incorrect, upsetting piece of trash I have read in a long time. As someone who lost a loved one to depression, I cannot say this clearly enough: fuck you.
Is there anything worse than stripping your bed in the morning, forgetting to put new sheets on and only realising this just as you’re ready to snuggle into bed
Remembering my beautiful punk rocker husband Rob who finished his earth walk 6 years ago on this day, who was not perfect but always stuck up for those in need, who offered his love to those who needed it, who will be remembered until all who knew him draw their last breath.
People want me to be proud of a brown politician who voted against extending free school meals simply because I also have brown skin…until my dying breath it’ll be a no.
Fellow anxiety sufferers & people pleasers - do you ever get plagued (obsessively so) about whether or not you’re a good person, and ruminate over tone of voice, whether you annoyed someone etc? My brain will not quieten down, and I feel like I’m being weird and it’s just me. ❤️
Have been approached by a FTSE 100 company with over 600,000 employees to talk about mental wellbeing. No budget to pay me. I run a mental wellbeing workshop company with one and half employees, and I pay. If I have no budget to pay people I have no business doing business.
It's nearly my best mate Mal's bday, she's turning 40 in tier 4, alone. She's the one who came all the way with me to NZ for my husband's funeral, without hesitation, & has filled my life with love & support. I know it's cheesy, but would you join me in wishing her a happy bday?
From time to time I think of the newly divorced Tinder date when we walked past a wedding shop on the way to the pub and he went ‘there it is, the emporium of lies’
The gender gap for sport begins at a young age and underpins ideas that everyone should take an interest in men’s sport while women’s sport is for girls. Bad enough he didn’t go to watch the match let alone only posing with his daughter - what message does that send to his boys?
Argh always nervous of posting photos here but - this is me just turned 40. I now understand the whole ‘standing in your own power’ thing and wanted to try and capture it in a photo. I have loved a lot, lost a lot, done a lot of mental work to get here. I’m glad I’m still here.
A small thing about grief and how it is such a uniquely individual thing. This is my first Xmas tree, 6 years after my husband died. It was too painful before, looking at our decorations, the memory of a thing we’d do together. Then, I was just ready. It just took some time.
Gonna be honest pals, life these days is having dinner at 6pm, going to bed with a book at 9pm, planning what to cook and wondering if the garden centre is open. Nothing wrong with this, except it's happened about 30 years earlier than I expected.
I don't post stuff like this on here BUT it's a milestone for me - at the age of 38, weighing 61kg and with a fixed hole in the heart, I pulled a PB deadlift of 125kg in my first ever powerlifting comp 😁
Emotional and proud to congratulate fellow Brit Preet Chandi who has become the FIRST woman of colour to complete a solo expedition to Antarctica. It is an utterly gruelling and incredible achievement. What this will mean to little girls like my niece is beyond words.
Don’t normally post pics on Twitter but I turned 40 today. Sounds cheesy as hell, but honestly, a life boils down to the truth you live by, self acceptance, people who truly see you and love you. And I am very, very lucky to have all three.
I don’t think I’ll ever outgrow how much being in the warm sun for the first time after winter, face tilted towards the sky, eyes closed, makes me feel kinder, softer and more like a human being than I’ve felt in months.
However batty my parents sometimes drive me, I’ve just come home and my dad has put two hot water bottles in my bed because he didn’t know which side I’d want to sleep on and mum has made dinner and I don’t know two humans who’d do this for me apart from them and I love them.
If you're about to text someone you know is prone to anxiety with the words: 'There's something I need to talk to you about' can I say on behalf of everyone with anxiety...don't. Just tell them when you see them rather than sentencing them to hours/days of mental torture.
I started this decade starting a new life having just got engaged. My husband died and that life died with him too. I end this decade older, sharper, wiser and with a life filled with love & honesty. Tell people you love them. Be brave. Be kind. Hearts break, but they heal too.
In 2015, my husband and I separated in spring, & he died as summer began. Every spring since, I looked at the world beginning again & all I could see was what I lost. This is the first year I’ve witnessed the start of spring & felt as if I’m moving with it. Healing can happen.
My late husband was a huge gardener...I was not. Until he passed, and I started keeping plants and then understood the smallest, simplest pleasure of watching something grow. This peony is part of a pot he made for my mum, who made me a clipping for me, and now he is in bloom.
After my husband died by suicide I spoke a lot about it, and I don’t do much these days because it affects me a lot. But I have to say this because it’s
#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek
- the conversation around mental health has come light years, but around mental illness it has not.
@JimMFelton
'We all grew up in houses without central heating...' what an entirely useless statement. Like saying well we used to deliver mail by horse, lived through the bubonic plague, used candles instead of electricity.
I only got a B at GCSE Maths but can someone explain to me why the single supplement for council tax in the UK is only a 25% and not a 50% decrease? Are we all paying for some sort of live-in ghost that we aren’t aware of?? This is by far the biggest bugbear for single people.
I’ve just been offered a ‘great PR opportunity’ to speak at an event attended by some of the biggest UK brands, where tickets range between £700 to £1400, FOR FREE. I am 20 years into my career, have written five books and won awards for my work - when will this nonsense stop?
Fellow singles, never forget that when ppl say 'you're too picky', it isn't like selecting a dessert but someone you'll be naked with, spend vast amounts of time with, maybe create a life with, sleep next to, share finances, and if you aren't going to be picky about that then WTF
It's
#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek
and I wanted to use my platform to highlight resources to help people on low incomes/no incomes (of which there are sadly now a lot due to covid) with their mental health. Please do reply to this thread if you know of any, & I'll also try and RT.
On my 41st bday, I finally got a 130kg deadlift at a powerlifting competition. I failed this lift 2 years ago at my last comp. After being ill with long Covid & recovering fully in Jan 2021, as well as being AWFUL at P.E, to find myself older & stronger is a gift beyond imagining
Controversial, but if you’ve been in a long term relationship, and you’ve never had to use dating apps, my advice would be to not give advice/judge people using dating apps. You literally have no clue. It’d be like handing out parenting advice when I don’t have kids.
I know this is a rude tweet but decided to look at potential properties on the market for potentially down the line, and as interiors trends go, the influencer grey, white and silver look is so grim. Like it actually turns me off the property
Easier said than done but we should normalise/encourage making new friends in our 30s and 40s and not holding on so tight to friendships that naturally drift. It takes effort and is similar to dating - but my 40s would be a lonely, resentful time without new friends.
Hope everyone had a lovely Easter apart from certain fitness folk on Instagram who are telling people to ‘stay away’ from their chocolate Easter eggs - you can definitely get in a bin and shut the lid after you 👋🏽
Ever since I was a teenager, I’ve felt that NYE was about chasing something that never materialised. Some sparkle, some sense of togetherness and I always felt like a fraud. At midnight, I hoped things would magically feel different, followed by the disappointment that it didn’t.
On World Suicide Prevention day, I want to remember my husband Rob who died in 2015. The stigma of it rewrites a person’s life and it’s important to know he 1) was a person who loved & was loved 2) he loved his dog Daisy 3) & newts 4) & gardening (these are his photos)
#WSPD2023
I’ve got some news..
@PenguinUKBooks
Century has bought my first fiction book, In Case Of Emergency 🥳which apparently is ‘hilarious and brilliantly observed’ (their words not mine, pal) and this is a lifelong dream I’ve had since I was 8 so I’m BEAMING.
Today was just a day of gratitude, that I got to see my parents today, that they are now fully vaccinated, that it is spring, that magnolias exist, that they still hold hands after 45+ years of marriage, that they are just beautiful, I mean look at them 😭😭
Always worth remembering when someone is asking you to either work for free/low fees because they have a ‘budget’, is to remember that you have a budget too. Your budget is your rent, your electricity, your food and so on, and your budget is not any less important than theirs.
"A life if lived well, is long enough." Utterly beautiful and poignant piece from Elliot Dallen who at 31 has terminal cancer and serves as a message for us all on living the lives we want.
Got to put on a nice dress yesterday and celebrate the very last friend of my university cohort turning 40 & the only birthday we’ve been able to celebrate due to the pandemic. So grateful to have been able to do this. There should be more joy, I think, on this platform. ❤️
#InternationalMensDay
for me, will always be about my late husband Rob, who died by suicide in 2015. He taught me a lot about love, but also that men are complicated.
And if anyone else finds themselves on the same path he found himself on, know that there is a different option, a different path though the darkness fools you into thinking there is not.
@theCALMzone
for which I am an ambassador has helplines and web chat ❤️
For me, a significant part of the anxiety and stress I feel around lockdown and covid is being under a govt that adds new tiers and rules, that seem to be made up on the spot like a students drinking game, with endless u-turns and no clear evidence of a strategy.
I never know whether to post photos on Twitter or whether it’s asking to be spattered with a verbal turd gun but today was the first time in a while I felt serene, calm, the result of a ton of mental work and was off to see a pal for dinner.
Can imagine people are feeling a spectrum of emotions today, from stress to anxiety to worry, so I’m going to post a thread of services that might help depending on your home situation. It has never been more important to reach out and seek help if you need. Add to it if you like
At my late husband’s funeral, we said the words: ‘He kotuku rerenga tahi’ which means in Maori, ‘a white heron’s flight is seen but once’. Remembering him this Xmas, and saying to anyone feeling suicidal, we are never better off without you. Stay, let us help, stay.
#yuleslog
❤️
Been seeing a lot of self-shaming ‘I’ve put on so much weight in lockdown’ statements & just to say, we are in a collective grieving. If you wouldn’t tell a grieving person to watch their weight, don’t do this to yourself. Food is the last thing you need to be stressed about now.
The bar is set so low for hetero men. Am talking to a guy on a dating app and just because he uses full sentences, replies and hasn’t mentioned his dick, the first thing I thought was OH WOW, what an amazing guy, such an AWESOME human, so KIND, CONSIDERATE etc etc.
@qendresalol
@notdanhastings
She’s brilliant and interviews people in a style that is uniquely her own. It may look easy to people but I think that’s the genius of what she does - it’s effortless.
One of the strange, unexpected things after a loved one dies, is the unspoken inventory of loss, like a dish only they cooked or invented. My late husband had a pork meatball recipe that I thought was lost forever, but a close friend found it in an email and it’s such a GIFT.
I am going to share a raw, vulnerable thing with you about love and healing. I’ve just broken up with the first person I’ve fallen in love with since my husband passed away 6 years ago. It hurts like hell, we both still love each other but for several reasons, it can’t work.
#WhyImATransAlly
because everyone has the right to be who they are, and be able to do so safely, without fear of harm, with all the love they deserve. And because if we do not protect the most marginalised in our society, then we have failed fundamentally.
I got some new photos taken of me by
@Alex_Cameron
and although this was not one of the official portfolio shots it’s one of my favourites and… I think my 15-year-old little metaller self would have been a bit proud
I miss you. I love you. Whether you’re in a fight with someone or not, whether they messed up or not, these two sentences are the only ones that ever matter after a person you love dies. Remembering my beloved husband Rob on his death anniversary today. ❤️
Sitting in my living room alone, the night time pressing through the window and then, the sound of rain, but all I can think about is that extra minute of daylight that began today, and will grow and grow until summer is here, and light will be here, and things will change.
On
#WorldSuicidePreventionDay
we talk about policy, & share articles on how to help the suicidal. But today I’m thinking of all those people who are feeling the dark despair of it all, and want to say hold on, life is worth it, you are worth it, you are loved, stay, stay, stay.
My late husband Rob is one of the 50 souls who are part of the
@theCALMzone
suicide prevention campaign The Last Photo, an incredibly important exhibition to remind people that help is out there and that suicidal people often don’t look suicidal.
#UnitedAgainstSuicide
Guys I can confirm that coming up to me in a bar and using ‘I spent the night with an Indian woman before, she was amazing’ as a chat up line is less likely going to make me go home with you, and instead make me more inclined to staple your hand to a coaster.
Fellow singles, if you managed to get through THIS NYE and the first two days of the year without texting that person who actually doesn't give a sh*t about you (you know who I mean, pals), then it's time to pat yourself on the back for making good choices.
Articles telling me how many calories/how much sugar is in my wine need to get in the bin. I’m not drinking it because I’ve confused it with a health beverage.
There is a longer post on Instagram but although today’s message on
#WorldMentalHealthDay
is ‘mental health for all’ I wanted to hold space for people & their loved ones with serious mental illness. Remembering my late husband Rob as always
People bereaved by suicide, today may be a tough day. The newspapers and broadcast will be covering Caroline Flack’s deaths and your colleagues will discuss it at work. This may make you feel awful, make you relive the moments you lost your loved one. Look after yourself today.
Wow! Incredible - more so because Shriever had to crowdfund her way to Tokyo. She was touted as Great Britain BMX's next breakout star after winning the junior world title in 2017 but left the national set-up after UK Sport said it would only fund male riders.
I get really nervous of posting photos on Twitter cuz y’know, Twitter, but it’s a rare thing that I try on Indian clothes. The blouse for this no longer fits cos I now have biceps and lats, since changing my purpose to be strong over small, but I’m happy 😬
I cannot believe I’m part of the spring campaign for a major fitness brand (Sweaty Betty) - it still feels like a dream come true. Given that South Asian women are still the least physically active demographic in the UK the importance of this representation is never lost on me ❤️
It’s taken 16 years of journalism but never say never - I am over the MOON to announce my first ever gig as a columnist - for
@theipaper
- thank you so much for supporting and believing in me. First column: how I’m dealing with covid rage ❤️
We are excited to announced
@poornabell
is writing a weekly column for
@ipaperviews
In her first column, she writes about the 'covid rage diary' she has started keeping during the pandemic
My late husband would have been 46 today. I often grumble about FB reminding me of memories I don’t want, but I love that on his bday it brings up one of my favourites - him about to cut into one of the most disgusting cakes but happy and smiling just because I made it for him.
I don't tolerate trolls at the best of times. But if you are going to come for me in a week when I am mourning my late husband's death anniversary, please consider yourself cursed up to and including the afterlife, and may you never know a moment's peace.
My GP today told me my BMI with a meaningful look (it's higher than normal) and I told her the reason is because I lift heavy weights and she said 'I know, BMI is useless but we have to say it' and it makes me wonder when THE HELL THE NHS ARE GOING TO CHANGE THIS.
I need someone to explain leather sofas to me. You actively want something that is freezing in winter and makes your sweaty arse stick to it in summer - why
Wrote about
@Louis_Tomlinson
and grief for
@ipaperviews
‘The fact is that if someone is saying you upset them around their grief, and you are the one who is not directly grieving, you just apologise. Your pride or your need to be right comes secondary.’
I don’t have words big enough to articulate how much respect and love I have for
@BootstrapCook
and what she has done and achieved alongside
@MarcusRashford
. She should be given the world, and everything good in it.
"I've made a living out of making meals from thin air and hope - but you can't, you literally can't"
@BootstrapCook
has expressed their outrage at the food parcels which have been sent to families as part of the free school meals scheme.
#FreeSchoolMeals
|
#5NewsTonight
If you need an argument as to why it's important to have BAME people at every level in business and marketing, I give you the lungi-dads-skirt disaster by
@ZARA
where literally ANY Indian person could've pointed out in two minutes what the problem is with this 😂😂😂
Staying at my parents, woke up at 7am and came downstairs to a make a cup of tea. My dad looks at me and says ‘I thought you said you get up early’. Apparently 6am is early, 7am is for slackers. The shade of parents never ends does it.
My husband Rob died by suicide 8 years ago, and in 2018, the hardback of my book In Search of Silence came out, how I was trying to move forward with my grief. After 5 years, the paperback is finally coming out on 2 March and it is remains my favourite, most beautiful writing.
Wanted to share the moment I jumped in the air after getting a 130kg deadlift. Always chosen last at sport in school, never felt comfortable in gyms, recovered from a heart condition, never thought sport was for me. Never let anyone tell you what your narrative is.
My family is Indian and my mum has said her community group wants to post a pic of my book on their website and the title of the first chapter is Eat, Pray, F**k You and now my entire back is sweaty because you don’t say shit let alone fuck in front of the aunties 😱😱😱
It has been 7 years ago today, I lost my husband Rob. Grief pinches the fabric of time turning years into yesterdays, and this day is always the hardest. Few things help but, I always go into nature, surround myself with birds and trees, and say hello to him, say I love you.
Life is a lot easier and more productive now that I’ve stopped giving zero fucks about people in my life commenting on me ‘not becoming more masculine’ with regards to my weightlifting. 5 reps of 130kg with reverse bands
Going to the cinema solo has been such a game changer. It means I can see what I want, when I want, I don’t have to pretend to share my popcorn willingly, AND no one is asking me what just happened. It is frankly bliss.
May have overcompensated somewhat for this year’s bday outfit to make up for last year’s lack of party on my 40th bday. Might even plump for some cheese and wine 👀