One month until the release of The Woods All Black, and my author copies have arrived! I can’t wait for y’all to dig into this Appalachian historical horror meets dyke4fag horny revenge-romance. We’ll be announcing tour dates soon too, so keep your eyes peeled.
A mystery solved: I had ordered this excellent coffee mug, right? And I get home yesterday to see it has been tucked neatly behind the wall of my porch, sans box, receipt rolled up inside.
Today is the anniversary of Keith Haring’s death due to complications from AIDS in 1990 (just a few months before I was born). In memorializing him, I always also want to name his close friend and artistic collaborator Tseng Kwong Chi—who died less than a month later.
PS: it appears twitter is adding a gender to your account or tweets based on your activity, which is extremely not charming. Go to settings > account > twitter data > account to correct it.
but he saw my address and brought it back to me.
He is clearly, also, gay. We share a cackle over the look of horror that must’ve come over the package thief’s face when they realized what they’d stolen. Amazing
Art does not exist to be evaluated on a scale of “harm” to “uplift,” and if we want to talk dog-whistles, that right there is a huge one: it’s deeply anti-intellectual, and it centers a form of toxic individualism that evacuates solidarity/difference in favor of moral purity.
I said this elsewhere today, but it bears repeating: it is absolutely fucking wild to me how many industries completely devalue administrative work, even though it is literally what keeps their entire organization running
Initial assumption was, my upstairs neighbor opened it by mistake.
However, when I got back from the gym today, the neighbor two houses down came to knock on my door. He tells me someone had thrown the mug and its shredded open box in his bushes—
Also, hey,
@Twitter
? That autogendering feature is a bullshit thing to do. Get rid of it. Allow people to disclose if they so choose but don’t assign folks a gender, god what’s wrong with y’all?
Seeing the absolute *loathing* for desire and pleasure that is a definitional part of conservatism creep & creep into queer spaces under the guise of social justice is... deeply unsettling. Purity cultures are bad, full stop.
The word “sexualize (negative)” goes back on the top shelf until it’s understood that sex and desire aren’t a moral threat, horniness is a neutral-to-good aspect of casual daily life even if it isn’t your personal jam, & their being in the arts isn’t a gross add-on
Sometimes I wonder how many of the young folks who’ve internalized all these very, very conservative discourses about queer sex and sexuality know that gay fucking in private was still illegal in the USA until I was in high school. And I am only 33.
So on this particular day, I’d like to remember Haring and Tseng together—and to think about the art they could’ve made, together and separately, had they survived to share this earth with us still. The art and the life that was taken.
Without Tseng Kwong Chi, our awareness of and capacity to mourn Haring’s work would be impossibly diminished. He was a phenomenal photographer, an artist, and a beloved; he is also often elided from popular versions of the Haring story.
But there is something powerful in remembering them together: something that makes me think about queer solidarity and community, the relationships we form across differences of race and class… but also the ways queer men of color often don’t get the recognition they deserve.
Also, relevant from other recent intra-community trans Discourse: the fact that something triggered or hurt you, personally, is real— but that doesn’t actually make it bad, or wrong, or Harmful (tm) because you *are not the center of the universe.* Other trans folk
If your argument is predicated on a central assumption that sex and desire are innately corruptive, unhealthy, and harmful—that to feel or act on desire is itself violence—you’re internalizing some of the worst parts of a homophobic and misogynist world, not challenging them.
In short: harm-based critique of art sounds reasonable on the surface but its application & implications are intensely problematic and almost impossible to ethically or properly deploy, particularly when applied not to, like, egregious hate speech, but affectively difficult art.
who have different experiences of gender and the world might be deeply seen by the art that you think is morally bad and harmful personally. To some extent, we know why this is common: traumatic stress forces your focus to be survival oriented, internal, and
evaluative. It’s hyper-vigilance! However, what it is *not* is healthy or productive— especially when turned relentlessly outward to hold others responsible for your bad feelings as opposed to processing them, or saying “ouch, not for me.”
Generosity in critique MATTERS. And furthermore, here’s where I get mad as hell: direct-effects audience theory has been discarded for like 40 years for a reason, but it HAUNTS twitter discourse like a hideous revenant.
And connected to that: bad feelings are useful, and natural, and educational. We live in a society that pumps weird shit into our brains all day every day! It’s okay to be uncomfortable, but it doesn’t mean the thing you’re uncomfortable with is automatically bad.
The other huge flaw with “the story harmed me” or flat harm-critique is the lack of acknowledgement that, if we’re using that metric, then your insistence on the story harming you is EQUALLY harming to the other trans folk for whom the piece was a revelatory story, or productive.
(Which is not to say artists shouldn’t be cognizant of other people’s pain and the larger social implications of their work, so please don’t reduce what I’m saying here to “fuck it, who cares.”)
It’s powerfully self-centered and not feasibly sustainable. This is where the whole “criticism is an art itself and has theory” thing comes in. Because Sedgwick wrote re: queer theory’s internal failings a long ass time ago about “paranoid” vs “reparative” reading practices.
with art, perhaps the metric of “who is allowed to speak about rhetoric and discourse” is not *solely* an identity based category. That’s a dangerous game. All of us can read badly, or be missing the background that a piece is speaking from, and being trans is NOT a guarantee
against that. I’m exhausted and upset by the idea that we can’t have things that dig into more than 101 level exploration of gender, or our pain and tropes and violence, because it won’t be perfect for Everyone. And a queer woman who has the background to engage
Paranoid readings are also a valid understandable response to a violent world that seeks to harm us! But they close in on themselves and each other like a fucking bear trap. Reparative readings are open to pain as useful and potential, and are by definition attempting generosity.
What we saw here was a classic case of destructive/paranoid readings that (1) FORCIBLY OUTED A TRANS WRITER and (2) caused a lot of misery and stress across the board for everyone... but that stress has been processed unevenly.
I’m extremely tired and frankly feel violated by the level of anti-intellectual rhetoric and vitriol that cropped up in this discussion, and I’m not talking about fair critiques of a story’s functions or failure to fulfill those. Shit got personal quick, in unproductive ways.
This framing of art and culture is very conservative, pretty fucked up, & spooky to someone who does this stuff professionally. If your replies are full of people saying “hell yes this is critical theory RUN AMOK” I want you to think hard about that.
And regarding some subtweets: it is, in fact, some people’s job—a job for which they have trained extensively!—to do critical work. That does not mean your opinion doesn’t matter, but it does mean (as I teach students every semester!!) that when doing heavy lifting
with what rhetoric and discourse and criticism do, weighing in specifically on those things, is not out of line— and neither is a trans person speaking to their identity experiences. Both can coexist and be discussed with an ethical approach to critique that is not infuriating.
Something that’s been circulating in my brain lately, put as gently as I can: if your conception of “queer inclusive” (spaces, theory, books, criticism, art) has almost zero gay/queer men—cis, gnc, and trans—then what you’ve created isn’t actually all that inclusive.
Executives at the top draining everyone else dry until the system crumbles into dust ✨ instead of investing in the staff and creators they rely on to make their profits✨
The gentlest reminder that, while there are a lot of trans & queer young adult novels and that’s super cool, assuming a novel is young adult *because* it’s trans and/or gay is not great.
This country is *extremely* not some kind of progressive bastion for queer people now, or then! And the mainstream ideas about sexuality that circulate as “normal” here are a direct product of generations of censorship, violence, and repression.
A discomfort I’d like to see people get settled with as we’re having conversations about the broadening presence of more perspectives & voices in mainstream publishing: not everything you read needs to be *for* you, or cater to you, or even welcome you.
On that note: there’s some special! bonus! fuckery! in lots of fields traditionally occupied mostly by people from generational wealth… but which now desperately need fresh blood to keep relevant
Bookday has arrived! A little more than half a decade since I first started noodling around with the idea that would become this novel, people can finally hold the real physical object in their hands. Welcome to the world, my spooky terrible hopeful boys. 🖤👻
An absolutely hilarious advice letter in an old issue of Drummer Magazine: what do you do if you hire a housekeeper but he starts erotically dominating you into doing your own housecleaning??
Apropos of many things and nothing: I sometimes do gnaw on how a non-zero amount of cis women in specific responded to Summer Sons by saying shit like, “dnf, people told me this was a queer book but these men don’t feel queer to ME.”
One month until the release of Feed Them Silence, and my copies have arrived!! If you’re looking for some unsettling science fiction ft. questionable research ethics, wolves, and queer women behaving badly… look no further ✨
Everyone else is saying cool smart shit about craft and art, but I’d also like to emphasize
The text regurgitation machine cannot be disruptively horny, it cannot understand the literary passions inspired by seeing precisely the right dude’s armpit at precisely the right time
The pre-order page has just gone live, so it can officially be announced!!
“The Woods All Black” is my next novella, forthcoming from
@TorDotComPub
in spring 2024. It’s a queer t4t historical ft. some good old-fashioned revenge… and also monster-fucking ✨
Oh shit, look what arrived in the mail today! Somehow I love this cover even more holding the book in my hands.
Get ready for The Woods All Black, in March 2024 ✌️🥲
Mildly frustrated with how many media folks whose opinions I generally vibe with are talking about the death of twt, and/or where to go instead, without a single acknowledgment of its unique affordances for sexuality, sex work, eroticism, horny adult fandom, etc.
If I could wish for one small thing, it would be: please for the love of god stop calling my work “spicy.” We’re not in middle school. The words you’re looking for are, perhaps, “this is gay and it Fucks” or “this is exceptionally queer and horny.”
Seeing lots of “liked book, could’ve done without [thing central to the themes but a cadre of reactionary readers has decided is degenerate]” shit, and the question I always wanna ask is…
Okay but what was that thing *doing* in the text? What was it asking you to *think* about?
In all seriousness, I cannot imagine being the kid I was in the ‘90s—in a deeply homophobic religious family situation—and being able to see Lil Nas X’s beautiful, sexy, smart, tender queer performances.
Attention universities: I swear to god if you don’t stop sending emails to graduate students & staff about self-care and mental health while actively refusing to pay us anything near a living wage....
Guess who received an offer of admission and full funding for a PhD in Gender Studies, plus the potential for additional fellowship funding? Yeah good guess it’s me
Today marks one whole month since Summer Sons debuted! Time has galloped on by—so here’s a thread collecting recorded digital events from the tour, cool fan-art, playlists, and more in case you missed any of them the first time around.
Given everything, I’m feeling real “visibility is a trap” lately, so today’s post is simply: remember that all those trans artists you like are living on the economic and social margins, in a state of constant precarity.
It genuinely matters to support and *pay for* their work.
Opened a mysterious box from
@TorDotComPub
this afternoon to find the glorious & handsome ARCs for ‘Summer Sons!’ I let out a bellow of joy that was not recorded for posterity.
Unable to stop myself: ‘literary merit’ is an (arbitrary) measure of cultural value, whatever, conversation for another day. But if we’re talking actual queer culture... unmediated, organic horny shit matters. & fanfic is a HUGE site of contemporary queer sexual culture.
One thing I really wish cis folks understood better about trans life is simply this:
the amount of violence, violation, and disgust we encounter on a daily basis is staggering. It’s constant, and even when it’s not present in the moment, we’re aware of the threat.
Irritable tweet: with the assistance of several nice folks, I’ve been attempting to get the ISFDB to correct my author name for… over a year.
The moderators have rejected every edit folks try to make, despite clarification that my legal and professional name has changed.
“What woman here is so enamored of her own oppression, her own oppressed status, that she cannot see her heelprint upon another woman’s face?”
—Audre Lorde, The Uses of Anger
Which on the one hand, lol, but on the other… we sure could use to consider the kinds of gay masculinity that are made marketable and legible, for what audiences, when, and how they’re discussed in public sphere
Reproductive justice and queer liberation—trans liberation—share the same fundamental enemies, culturally and politically. Heinous how some self-proclaimed “feminists” are failing to grasp that.
Good-news announcement the second:
@UncannyMagazine
will be publishing a novelette from yours-truly entitled “Anything with a Void at the Center.”
It’s the one I've been describing as the “haunted porn theater (or, what are boyfriends anyway)” story ✨✨
terf ideology co-opts critical queer and intersectional feminist languages of thought and twists them toward a conservative and ultimately heteronormative agenda that is utterly disengaged from the gender diversity and sexual agency of our queer histories, happy pride month
And here’s the good news I’ve been waiting to announce!! I’m so goddamn excited for y’all to see this book, and to be working with the
@TorDotComPub
crew.
We're BEYOND thrilled to announce the debut novel from author @
@leemandelo
!
A sweltering, queer Southern Gothic, SUMMER SONS arrives September 2021 from
@TorDotComPub
@PhilosophyTube
Depending on the course, I’ve assigned the video on sex work and/or the more recent “Who’s Afraid of the Experts?” (which I added in to the syllabus AND sent around to my colleagues straight-off)
Waking up to see the news of the Colorado Springs killings, & thinking about how after a point my own rage at this country’s pervasive, violent homophobia & transphobia sometimes comes around the bend to exhaustion again.
A massacre on Trans Day of Remembrance: this is America.
One of those 101 things that needs occasional re-emphasis: “privilege” as a concept doesn’t mean you’re not going to experience violence, or discomfort, or struggle, or oppression—and it isn’t a dirty word, an insult, or a dismissal. It doesn’t delegitimize your experiences.
The whole essay is solid—and the ending argument 🔥🔥
“The roots of the discourse are rotten. It’s a drain on every tangible change that’s been fought for […] Forcing MLM sex and queer stories to play by the rules of heteronormativity and purity culture is a losing game.”
"We absolutely can, and should, be critical of how queerness and queer sex is shown...but we also shouldn’t be afraid of it." Read more from
@kci_w
on Heartstopper, Red, White & Royal Blue, BL dramas and the recent state of MLM sex on screen ⬇️
#OpEd
Dive into the minds of wolves with Dr. Sean Kell-Luddon.
COVER REVEAL for Feed Them Silence by
@leemandelo
!
Cover design by
@FortYeah
Cover photos by Getty
Inspired by some recent conversations: here is a lil’ five minute stack grabbed from my bookshelves for folks who want to expand their reading to include more works by (and about!) queer men 🫶✨
Conversations about men’s shit behavior toward women in professional spaces are super! Important! And contextual to broader social power structures! But it’s also a lil bit itchy sometimes, y’know... for a queer trans person to see how forms of gender essentialism creep in.
As of today, it’s exactly two months until the release of my near-future queer sf novella ‘Feed Them Silence.’ Time flies??
So if you’re down for some bad vibes, questionable research ethics, late stage capitalism, and failing relationships—give it a preorder!
Hilarious and consistent feedback on Summer Sons, inevitably from other people in academia: “look I know I’m supposed to be worried mostly about the ghoul/murder situation but he’s NOT GOING TO CLASS and it’s making me CRAZY.”
Scholarship-wise I’m thinking of how impoverished my understanding of gender, race, class, and the project of liberation would be without the work of queer men of color in particular.
Heart goes out to the families and communities hurting this morning after the tornadoes hit.
And I’m also furious—just burning mad—about the fact that so many of the dead were laborers in overnight facilities whose safety isn’t now & hasn’t ever been a corporate priority.
And now it can be told: I’m editing an anthology with the wonderful
@writersyndrome
over at
@ErewhonBooks
, titled ‘Amplitudes: Stories of Queer & Trans Futurity.’
Can’t wait to see the stories that are submitted!! For more details 👇👇
Welcome to Amplitudes: Stories of Queer & Trans Futurity, edited by
@leemandelo
working alongside
@writersyndrome
!
Our friends at
@tordotcom
have the full story & links to our submissions guidelines. Get ready for a wave of stories that'll blow you away!
As of tomorrow—it’ll have been more than a decade since an intimate friend I had, the C.N. ‘Summer Sons’ is dedicated to, died. And this will be the first anniversary of his death since the book came out.
We were both 20 years old then, and now I’m almost 32.
@dynamicsymmetry
Something I think of, in these situations, is how the *language* of critiquing/examining power dynamics in specific practice gets flattened into “is any power relation present? then bad!!” rather than understanding power is... always present? Even if you were banging your clone.
It’s fascinating how different audiences—people with different backgrounds as readers!—have responded to ‘Summer Sons’ over time.
Like, on occasion fans assume there’s some fanfic legacy at work, and ask why they can’t figure out “who” the characters were “supposed” to be.
(And personally… I know to brace myself for some fuckshit—ranging from unintentional microaggressions to outright nasty homophobic behavior—if I look around and I’m the only one in the entire space.)