I like to count things. Totals for my first two years of anaesthetics training 🙂
Anaesthetics without a supervisor coming into the room: 104
Cannulas: 388
i-gels: 185
LMAs: 99
Arterial lines: 97
CVCs / Vascaths: 37
Inter-hospital transfers: 6
Spinals: 57
A year since I left. A very different year, I miss North Wales, but training is good🙂
In numbers (I like numbers):
569 anaesthetics
254 cannulas
137 intubations
130 i-gels
51 LMAs
24 arterial lines
13 CVCs
1,016 km cycled/run/swum
13,744 m height climbed (most on leave in Wales)
I enjoyed receiving this out-of-office email 🙂
I am on annual leave. If your issue is urgent, please either re-evaluate your idea of urgent, or consider whether email is an appropriate means to contact an anaesthetist in an emergency.
1) I attempt to intubate, I can't get a good view.
2) Consultant takes over and intubates.
3) They tell me it was an easy intubation and I need to be better.
4) Next case, return to 1).
I know the theory, but no one tells me how to improve my implementation. How do I get better?
Last weekend I did ICU days. This weekend I'm doing ICU nights. I don't have any friends here, so I haven't spoken to a single person in between. I love my job, I'm looking forward to work tonight, but there is a high cost to rotational training.
The Primary FRCA is the hardest exam I've ever done. I waited until after my night shift to read my result because I 100% expected to see FAIL FAIL. I am completely shocked that I passed. I'm quite scared that I'm going to get a second email telling me they've made a mistake.
This ARCP season I’ve decided to plot the size of the cannulas I’ve put in over the past two years (I like to count things, I include all cannulas and their size in my logbook).
I wonder whether you could identify someone’s specialty by their cannula size distribution?
I'm completely shocked (in the emotional sense). I have been offered my first choice job. It seemed completely inconceivable that I would get it.
I'm going back to North Wales!! 🙂
When I was a medical student I thought I would be able to offer something of value in FY1.
When I was an FY1 I thought I might have value in FY2.
When I was an FY2 I thought I might have value in CT1.
As a CT1 I wonder if I might have value in CT2.
There's a pattern. Does it end?
Dear
@EastEnglandAmb
, How do I provide feedback about a completely brilliant ambulance crew that we’ve just done a transfer with?
(No doubt all of your crews are excellent all of the time, but I figure it’s still good to give feedback for a job well done.)
First RSI without a supervisor in the room ✅
First CVC without a supervisor in the room ✅
There will obviously still be bad days in training, but it feels like I've made a bit of progress. Not a bad end to 50 hours on-call this week 🙂
I was given this mug by one of my amazing colleagues. It is so cool. I absolutely hate obstetrics (which I do not hide in the slightest from my colleagues). The fact that they had this made for me makes me feel incredibly popular 🙂
The anaesthetics teaching tomorrow afternoon is on physics. I have a degree in physics and a PhD in biophysics. I am convinced that tomorrow I’m not going to be able to remember what physics is.
This morning I met a Foundation doctor who is interested in anaesthetics, but they are concerned about:
1) The change in role with the introduction of anaesthetic associates.
2) The bottleneck at ST4.
Should I reassure them, or are they right to be deterred?
A wise soul said to me "If you actually like the most mundane stuff in your line of work/speciality, then you know you actually love what you do."
Doctors, what's the seemingly 'boring' thing in your speciality that actually secretly brings you bliss?
The consultants I work for are brilliant, they care greatly about their juniors. I always find it entertaining at the end of a night shift when they ask if I’m tired and whether I’m safe to drive home. I’m always unsafe to drive home. I’ve never learnt to drive 🤣(I walk home.)
MSF Summary:
Comment 1: Very lovely compliment.
Comment 2: Very lovely compliment.
...
Comment 13: Very lovely compliment.
Comment 14: No concerns.
Comment 15: Very lovely compliment.
-> Immediately focussing on trying to work out what terrible thing I’ve done to Commenter 14.
It has taken me four days to summon the enthusiasm to look at my result for the Primary MCQ, but I can start the weekend with a takeaway to celebrate passing 🙂
The
@EastEnglandAmb
is going to get fed up with me sending feedback, but the student paramedic in theatre with us yesterday was so good! The boss and I discussed leaving her to finish the list, but we thought we should probably stay given that we were getting paid to be there.
I've put in 500 cannulas since starting anaesthetics training. Of these, 9.8% were under ultrasound guidance. I wonder how that compares to others? I feel I have a relatively low threshold for using US (to minimise number of attempts), but I may be wrong.
“Hello, sorry, I’m here to see the patient you called me about. Do you know if the ward has a tendon hammer I can use?”
“Of course, how many would you like?”
“Errr... What sort of hospital is this? Since when is one realistically an option!?!?"
Specialty training means continually having to move your entire life to random towns at the whim of the programme. I understand the need for secondments to learn specialist skills, but not this. The deanery gives no weight to the quality of trainees' lives. It's intolerable.
From a human factors course: “When you buy a takeaway your order is read back to you. How often is that done when someone asks you to give a drug?”
#MedTwitter
Four mouthfuls into my first hot food in 48 hours there was a medical emergency call. I went back to the restaurant afterwards expecting to find it closed and my food gone. Instead I found this. How amazing are the Ysbyty Gwynedd catering staff!? :)
Sometimes our nights look like this (picture from Google). Rotational training means we then go home and, because we've been allocated to work in a random place, don’t see another person we know for days. It’s minor compared to what our patients go through, but it’s not healthy.
I miss being able to spend time with other doctors in the hospital accommodation. It was so reassuring to be able to discuss the challenges we had faced at work, to know they were not unique to us. I feel very sorry for the current F1s that have never been able to do that.
Two years.
Five jobs.
One pandemic.
3,749 km cycled/run/swum.
83,492 m height climbed.
One offer for core anaesthetics training.
It has been such a privilege to work at Ysbyty Gwynedd. I can't imagine a better place to have spent the last two years! 🙂
Foundation Programme ✔️
@silv24
A patient went into asystole on the Bodyguard. The cardiac arrest team were in the room within five seconds, all wearing plastic aprons.
I would love to know their technique because I've never seen anyone extricate one of those aprons from the roll in under two minutes...
F1 life:
You are here to learn, there is no excuse for being late to teaching or working outside the hours on your rota.
Also:
Being left with a ward full of patients, never having more than 10 minutes for lunch, and often leaving over two hours late.
(There are positives too.)
Further aligning with the anaesthetics stereotype, I have signed up for my first triathlon. Thinking about a training plan I have decided, based on how long it usually takes me, all available time should be dedicated to practising taking off my wetsuit.
A year since I left. A very different year, I miss North Wales, but training is good🙂
In numbers (I like numbers):
569 anaesthetics
254 cannulas
137 intubations
130 i-gels
51 LMAs
24 arterial lines
13 CVCs
1,016 km cycled/run/swum
13,744 m height climbed (most on leave in Wales)
Two years.
Five jobs.
One pandemic.
3,749 km cycled/run/swum.
83,492 m height climbed.
One offer for core anaesthetics training.
It has been such a privilege to work at Ysbyty Gwynedd. I can't imagine a better place to have spent the last two years! 🙂
Foundation Programme ✔️
I feel that getting a positive PCR at some point is almost inevitable. The question for me, and probably lots of others, is: will I get to Friday without catching CoViD?
I’ll be able to spend Christmas with my family for the first time in three years if I do. Four shifts…
I am scheduled to take the MSRA tomorrow.
Thinking negatively: I’ve only completed 40.5% of a bank of practise questions, while some people will have done the whole thing twice.
Thinking positively: I’ve done 1752 practise questions while working the ED rota.
One minute you are calling a colleague to 'be around’ while you give a simple anaesthetic out of hours. What feels like one minute (but is actually a couple of years) later you are the person being called to be nearby and you are comfortable with that. I guess that’s progress.
Asymptomatic ✅
Negative lateral flow test ✅
=> Christmas with my parents for the first time in three years 🙂
I hope everyone has as good a Christmas as possible!🙂
Pulling the emergency alarm feels like failing, but there is no substitute for 10 of your amazing colleagues joining you in seconds to know everything is going to be fine.
I was incredibly impressed by a team from
@BHECCS
today. Their knowledge, skills, and situational awareness was incredible. I guess if you are familiar with managing sick patients under cars in ditches hospital medicine feels easy. There is so much to learn from their approach.
After nine trips, 458 km run/walked/cycled, and 13,306 m height climbed, my pandemic project to do the Welsh 3000s under my own power from the hospital accommodation is complete :)
I don’t know how many sensible people go on holiday with an ice axe and a wet suit in the same bag, but I am excited!
(FFP3 mask, lateral flow test, three doses of vaccine, and an Airbnb to myself all in place.)
ICM interview ✅
After ten days of annual leave without any human interaction I don't know whether it was just the novelty of speaking to other people or pretending I was at work, but I quite enjoyed it.
(Obviously it remains to be seen whether the interviewers felt similarly...)
First set of nights in anaesthetics ✅
No doubt there will be good times and bad times, but this week has been very satisfying, the best set of nights I’ve done.
The team I get to work with are amazing 🙂
I have had to phone
@RoyalPapworth
quite a few times recently. Every time I have been struck by how great the switchboard operators are. They have been universally brilliant, incredibly knowledgeable and helpful.
When I work on ICU I feel like part of the team. Rotational training means I don't have any friends in this town so feeling like I belong at work is even more valuable. I think part of the reason I don't like obstetrics is because I miss the ICU team.
Disadvantages of new hospital:
1) No friends.
2) No mountains.
3) No anaesthetics/ICU team swimming.
Advantages of new hospital:
1) Nearer my family.
2) My dream training programme.
3) The East of England is as flat as a pancake, which is going to do wonders for my PBs on Strava
If there’s no such thing as a difficult airway, only an insufficiently strong left arm, then building a home bouldering wall must count as CPD.
(All constructed while listening to Dr Podcast.)
Knitting seems to be very labour intensive. Has anyone tried just taking a ball of wool to a CT scanner and bringing it back to ICU? I don’t know what would be knitted, but something would definitely have been knitted.
Apparently it’s been three years since I walked around Bangor trying to achieve some level of calm before my interview for core training. Today it’s Bedford and an ST4 interview. I don’t understand why talking about medicine is so much more stressful than actually doing it.
Our jobs can be very strange. We sometimes meet a person after a catastrophic event; we look after them, we get to know their bodies well. Sadly, some die without ever regaining consciousness. We know so much about them in some ways, but so little in others. 1/2
Obviously I am incredibly glad that doctors choose to do emergency medicine, it is vital, but, unless it is for entirely altruistic reasons, I don’t understand it. Where, in reality, is the fulfilment? This is probably a hot take, but I hate it.
Today I moved out of the hospital accommodation into my first house! 😲
I'm now convinced that overnight it is either going to be burgled, burn down, or both.
(I've installed two extra bolts on the door and three smoke alarms, so hopefully it will actually be ok.)
The irony of an email about wellbeing workshops 23 hours after the deanery refused a swap that would have improved the wellbeing of two trainees (and facilitated better education and saved the deanery money). It was an exact swap. I can only think they actively want us to suffer.
Not a successful weekend - I haven't spoken to another person since I left work on Friday and have spent most of the time dreading going back to work; but I have received so many brilliant suggestions for things to try 🙂
I have five days to find motivation for next weekend!
"Loneliness kills. It’s as powerful as smoking or alcoholism."
Specialty training: moving hospital, to somewhere you know no one, at least every two years, if not every few months.
The study observed the negative impacts of alcohol and smoking on the long-term health of the participants, but found that loneliness was just as negatively impactful.
Study director Robert Waldinger:
"Loneliness kills. It’s as powerful as smoking or alcoholism."
It's true that medicine is a job, but training in a specialty means years moving around the country to places where you know no one, your job readily becomes your life.
Never forget that medicine is your job, and you are so much more than that.
Talk to your colleagues. Talk to your friends. Talk to your family. Hell, my DMs are open, talk to me. Talk.
You are never alone, even if it feels like it.
I am very excited to have booked a holiday to Llanberis for mid-January! I’ll cancel it if it’s not reasonable to travel in the context of the pandemic at the time, but I need something to look forward to for now 🙂
Next weekend I'm going to see my friends for the first time since the pandemic started (will be socially distanced). I haven't eaten with anyone except doctors and nurses for 18 months. I think I need to revise what topics of conversation are acceptable while eating / in general.
Conditions aren't looking great, but on the basis that being in the mountains is better than being in a town whatever the conditions, I'm on my way to the Cairngorms 🙂
Hopefully in 12 hours I'll be in Aviemore...
Four days of annual leave ✅
Five more to go until I'll get to speak to another person again.
The anaesthetic department here is brilliant, the rest of the place is incredibly lonely.
Rotational training is miserable.
Managing a cardiac arrest is genuinely less stressful than completing the forms required for an ARCP. I think it’s because at an arrest we are working together as one team, while an ARCP is an exercise in being judged.
What a brilliant weekend! Marathon Eryri was spectacular and seeing friends was wonderful! 🙂
I'll never forget the feed station at mile 24. I thought they were joking when they said there would be tea and cake. They were not 🤣 A bourbon biscuit has never been more appreciated!
Work is good, but no friends and no mountains mean there is nothing fun to do. I have exams to prepare for, but I need to think about something other than anaesthetics too.
I was thinking of building a Faraday cage in my garage and trying to record my EEG. Is that reasonable?
In the past 16 months I haven't spent a night anywhere other than the hospital or the hospital accommodation, been to a shop other than Tesco or Halfords, or eaten a meal (inside) anywhere other than my room or the hospital cafe.
I'm quite nervous about moving next month.
Are there any hotels near Red Lion Square anyone would recommend?
I’m not looking for somewhere fancy where they put a chocolate on the pillow, I’m looking for somewhere practical where they put a dose of propranolol on the pillow.
Does anyone else do this with syringes?
I think it's organised and allows me to see everything in the order I plan to use it. My colleagues think it's strange - they don't have a problem with it, they just always comment on it. (It's stable, they don't fall off.)
We have an in-person training day in a few weeks time, which is excellent. Unfortunately it's in a hospital 93 miles away. The train that leaves at 05:47 doesn't arrive, at a station 5.7 miles from the hospital, until 09:25. There are advantages to video conferencing...
Arrived in Llanberis at 6pm. Just enough time to eat, unpack, and go for a stroll up Snowdon 🙂
(With all appropriate equipment and precautions – I don’t want to end up as a patient in any hospital, let alone the one I used to work at.)
I love my job, but I am so fed up with not knowing anyone in this town. I am literally sitting at home waiting for tomorrow evening so I can go back to work ☹️
Potentially controversial opinion: a 1 l bag of saline is not inferior to a 1 l bag of Hartmanns (when used to support the wrist while inserting an arterial line).
No doubt there will be bad days (and I may regret expressing this view when I have to get up on Monday morning) but after a week of annual leave, I am looking forward to going back to work. I think this is a sign of being in the right specialty for me🙂
Facebook has just reminded me what life was like in Wales three years ago – we had a huge lunch in a busy cafe and then went up a mountain as a group! It feels quite strange to think we had no idea what was about to happen.
I feel that end of life care is one of the most important things we do. Sometimes circumstances conspire so it isn’t what the patient or family had hoped for, but we need to do our best nonetheless. I recently called a chaplain to come to resus in the middle of the night. 1/3
Are there any resources anyone would recommend for ST4 interview preparation? I am very pessimistic about my chances, but I might as well give it my best shot.
Last weekend I didn’t speak to a single person between leaving the hospital on Friday and going back the following Monday. I don’t have any friends here, there are no mountains to run up, and no lakes to swim in. I would be very grateful for any suggestions for something to do.
@MallinsonT
@IanDKinsey
@abi_carey
@DrLindaDykes
Some of the reusable respirators only filter inhaled gas, but not exhaled. They protect the wearer, but don't protect others. I have seen staff here wearing a surgical mask over a reusable respirator during AGPs so there is filtering in both directions.
I was interested in how many English words contain every vowel. I wrote a script to look at a list of 82098 words. There were 734 words that included every vowel and 320 words containing every vowel exactly once. The 1st word: abstemious, was nice because the vowels are in order.
Three Ridges. Starting and finishing in Llanberis, linking three of the more popular grade 1 ridge scrambles in Snowdonia: The North Ridge of Tryfan, Bristly Ridge, and Crib Goch.
A wonderful day 🙂
The only thing that would have made it better would have been some company.