Not even my hw vs now. Although my legs look basically the same it still cheers me up to see I’ve actually lost some weight. (Posting this to try and cheer myself up and motivate myself even more) x
Having a huge evening of self loathing and feeling like I’ve made no progress so posting this to remind myself that I look a lot better than I used to. This is the same top but jan 2021 vs yesterday morning.
Bought these even though I look obese. My old ones were too big. I need to get my heart broken again so I feel like running 10k a day and feel too sick to eat (these are my drunk thoughts lol)
I want to go the rest of my life binge free but I’m promising myself to start with I’m going to go another 4 months. It’s almost 4 months to the day until the big family wedding. I will not binge before then 🤝🏼🤝🏼🤝🏼
i will be underweight by summertime i will be underweight by summertime i will be underweight by summertime i will be underweight by summertime i will be underweight by summertime i will be underweight by summertime i will be underweight by summertime
@x_emptyskull
Thanks but it’s not all rainbows… I wish I could in high def show you all my cellulite, loose skin, stretch marks and varicose veins too 😫😫😫
Just found out I weigh the same as my sister who has always been the thinner one 🫶🏻 she’s my best friend but has always held the fact I’m fat over me in arguments etc!! Now she can’t do that lol
I feel like I also need to disclose: I’m mainly fatphobic to myself. I interact with (extreme) fatspo because it’s motivating to keep going and to not gain weight. I would never go after someone or be hateful towards someone on twt for being fat?? Yep
I just feel like I really have it in me to get a lot worse like I have the potential to be actually deranged for a couple of months and lose a fuck ton
Also the fact I never got a thigh gap by the end of March is embarrassing but I’m committed to having one by Oslo (there are like 11lbs between these photos fml) x
I don’t like drinking often because it forces me to realise very quickly I’m always the fattest and ugliest person in the bar/club and i end up wanting to kms so bad yikes
My locking in thread: my plans over the next 6 weeks. I’m going to Oslo in 6 weeks and so it’s the perfect time to make a plan of my time and commit to making significant changes. I want to lose at lease 15lbs before then 🙏🏻 (took this from Pinterest because I’m lazy) x
Just incline walking and taking it easy (if I just lay in bed I will feel too guilty) I think I can do this tomorrow but then my sister is coming and I know she’ll just tell me to rest :(
I’m having such a hard time with the fact I basically haven’t lost any weight for two weeks. Like surely it’s thermodynamically impossible if I’m eating less than maintenance and also exercising a lot? The universe must hate me xx
Also I made these brownies!! Added some extra protein powder and instead of butter used low fat Greek yog 🫶🏻 around 110cals per brownie :) they taste really good!
I don’t really have a life at the moment and it’s so depressing I have no space of my own, I’m not pretty or skinny and I feel like I have nothing to look forward to :/
Doing some reading about leadership for my masters … “when people are upbeat, their ‘glow’ is cast upon others - they are popular and for good reason”…. How I’m trying to be 😭
I say this because I’m an absolute failure and have maintained for basically a month :/ it’s a month till I go on holiday and I want to be 15lbs lighter ahahah kill me