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like warm butter on the toast of despair

San Francisco, CA

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Joined January 2013

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@mesolude

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2 years

Thinking back when I was so lonely while traveling that I went to a nightclub and made silent eye contact with strangers for 6 hours straight, completely curing my fear of it thereafter

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Related: Eye Gazing I went traveling for a month. Not for fun, exactly. Not for fun at all, actually. My life was in desperate need of some change. Extended solo travel would be a challenge and a c…

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6 months

He keeps cutting out deranged shapes from my brownie

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6 months

Hey wait no

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1 year

there should be a name for the phenomenon where as soon as you double down on a hobby (buy better equipment, get that software, etc) you suddenly lose interest

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6 months

"I like being validated in my derangement"

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2 years

I was luxurypilled when I realized that more expensive things are often (but not always) nicer. They make my experience better in all sorts of ways I didn't realize were even *possible* from just using the non-luxury thing

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2 years

the most dissociated and out of body I've ever been was flying a drone with 1st person VR display. At some point I flew the drone back to the starting point. There was my body, in a chair, just idling there, seemingly unrelated to anything I was doing

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8 months

CO2 in the Lyft I was in. High CO2 makes me feel anxious and like I'm dying. I wonder how much of seasonal affective disorder is explained by ppl keeping their windows shut and staying in when it's cold

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6 months

sometimes when I'm texting a crush I overthink every response and then .. forget to reply? attempting heuristic: just say shit, it's way better than accidental ghosting

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2 years

everyone sure loves to universalize things they anecdotally experience huh?

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2 years

It's moralized as being a trap, that ppl aren't really happier with more money. But those who inflate lifestyles are taking care of their interests—they're buying marginal increases in quality, which gets more expensive over time. It's a real thing that they're getting

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2 years

Just because a relationship ends doesn't mean it's a failure—too many people equate failed relationships with ones that have ended many still-existing relationships *have* failed in that either or both of the people in them are persistently unhappy

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4 years

Don't confuse a lack of power with being kind

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2 months

Patio11 and Matt Levine both write about financial systems with the same delight a wizard in a fantasy setting would write about understanding some new laws of magic What other writers bring this spice into their explorations of mundane reality?

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2 years

@ is the sigil for summoning humans

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2 years

Why does quality of luxury products increase sub-linearly with price? Like a 200k car is not 5x as good as a 40k car, but it is in fact better My guesses:

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2 years

Do you know of any short stories (sci fi or other) at the same caliber as "The Egg" by Andy Weir or "They're Made of Meat" by Terry Bisson?

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2 years

The minor tragedy of not currently living in a group house full of friends

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2 years

It makes me more sympathetic to people who have "lifestyle inflation" after pay raises

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2 years

@etarczynski This reads like one of those ghostwritten VC tweets designed to get engagement

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5 years

In my lifetime in America, I've never experienced a large scale shortage of a necessary good. This is crazy. Current surplus is so high I can barely imagine what actual scarcity would look like.

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2 years

potential meme format

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2 years

I did mdma therapy a few weeks ago and my tweets got better (also now I have positive intrusive thoughts of "it's okay, you're good enough just the way you are" when I start pushing myself too hard) but heyy lookit better tweets 👀👀

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1 year

oh no i just learned that a $140 candle is actually vastly, beautifully better and in a realm of its own compared to a nice $40 candle literally can't hold a candle to it cursed knowledge

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2 years

I was luxurypilled when I realized that more expensive things are often (but not always) nicer. They make my experience better in all sorts of ways I didn't realize were even *possible* from just using the non-luxury thing

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1 year

How to get people to show up to a party 🧵 10 things to pay attention to, roughly in order of impact

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2 years

A question I'm not exactly sure how to ask: What amount of you internally feels like a small child / scared animal? How has that changed over time?

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2 years

Smoking DMT takes 15 minutes. Everyone has time to smoke DMT but that doesn't mean you should! I feel the same about movies. They take just 90 minutes or so, but they can contain some seriously psychoactive payloads. and folks are just doing them left and right, crazy

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2 years

I'm not "spending money on vacation", I'm de-risking my life portfolio by rebalancing into experiences now

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2 years

hello students, please turn to page 5 of the syllabussy,

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2 years

I've started to view typos as a minor victory in the inner war between action and perfectionism

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1 year

gm

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2 years

Uhhh just found out about grey matter reduction from pregnancy I used to have the patience to pour through google scholar. Now I merely look upon abstracts, ye mighty, and despair

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1 year

Ok I call them "sadbois" and I have a lot of compassion for them. But for a healthy group composition you can only support 1 sadboi per 12 people Otherwise the vibe is damp

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2 years

I clicker-trained a dog for 15 min after watching a couple youtube videos about how to do it. It was super effective, plus the dog clearly liked me better after and kept trying to stuff herself into my lap

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2 years

are "hot girl stomach problems" a useful descriptive category? if so what do you think causes them

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2 years

Recently, I was at a retreat with a teacher of Tantra. She was raised from age 9 in an ashram in India. (Very different from neo-tantra, the western sex thing) she gave the most coherent explanation of chakras I've ever heard

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1 year

Men are scary sure but remember predators? Like, saber tooth tigers or wild boars or some shit? Men killed most of them and for that I am thankful

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3 years

Having a disgust response to something is not the same as it being morally wrong

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2 years

Just learned about the Banach-Tarski paradox and I'm mad

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1 year

Express boundaries bitchily, share things clumsily, ask for what you want haltingly and confusingly Holding out for polite and perfect is self-negating

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2 years

@redoatz My guess is that certain point is way higher than most people believe

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6 months

Sighhh

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2 years

Marginal quality improvements get expensive Everyone will implement the cheap, low-hanging fruit that increases quality, but at some point you have to invent new things to improve quality further. This means research teams and inventing new types of materials and factories

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3 years

I turn 25 today! If you're older than 25, I'd love to hear how you felt about yourself or your life's direction at this age

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2 years

realizing I have no idea how the trading bot I wrote actually makes money the math is confusing, it shouldn't be making money? but it is what

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3 years

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1 year

A prompt change helps us go from using a heuristic to tapping into something else

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2 years

The interplay between irl and twitter at vibecamp was interesting, some messy thoughts:

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2 years

What do you think love is? Like, if you couldn't use the word "love" but still wanted to describe what was happening

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5 years

"Sorry!" 🚫 "It's not your fault" 🚫 "Don't be sorry" ✔️ "Your sorrow is welcome here"

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2 years

Dogs just want an extremely clearcut success condition so they could smoothly follow the gradient of pleasing the human and gaining treats no random spray bottles and ill-timed rewards

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2 years

So far my new smalltalk questions of "how do you feel about smalltalk questions" and "what's your favorite smalltalk question" have been going very well thank you

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2 years

didja know you can take melatonin to have more vivid dreams? works for me pretty reliably the UK made melatonin illegal to stifle dreams

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2 years

Update: living in a group house full of friends 🥰

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2 years

The minor tragedy of not currently living in a group house full of friends

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2 years

For a lot of woo stuff I'm starting to assume that a relatively straightforward, simple, mechanical model exists, even if the teacher can't or isn't giving it to me straight

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2 years

Expensive things aren't in as high demand, which leads to less economy of scale, which makes it more expensive Also people buying luxury products are price insensitive, leading to pricing that's less correlated with quality or cost, like veblen goods (price as signalling)

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6 months

@Aella_Girl The first time "Aella is on the FAR RIGHT" has any credibility at all

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4 years

You are in a trap. You eventually notice. With effort you find a way out. More often than not, the new state is not stable, there are still things pulling you back to your natural state of being in the trap

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2 years

just had a poop so blissful it brought tears to my eyes

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2 years

the hallmark of a great community is not needing to be high status to get your needs met this mostly had that. Some people still get left behind, but I think this place was better than most

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10 months

I used to see myself as smart, and this was a big deal I would feel right when I'd reference studies, read books, or other "smart" coded things, and dysphoric when I'd do "dumb" things Now I see myself as 40% smart and 60% dumbass, and I think this helps me see clearly

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3 years

I worry sometimes that I'll forever be a dilettante. That I'll never have world class expertise or really commit to a major project

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5 months

Currently in the painful transition from speaking about someone in present tense to a sudden past tense

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2 years

@deepfates I hear good things about Asheville

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1 year

Two main types of hippies I see: -The purity-and-cleansing, divine, sacred medicine-eating hippies -The dirty, rolling-in-the-mud, profane drug-eating hippies I don't see much overlap. What makes people end up in one group vs the other?

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4 years

Putting self-confidence to the side for a minute, what is something you think you're worse at than 99% of other people?

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4 years

If you've broken up with someone multiple times, you're still in a relationship! Just the part of the relationship labeled as "broken up" Unless something big happens, the pattern of breaking up is simply part of the relationship

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2 years

@coponder Oh man, Lunya loungewear is expensive but so comfortable I wore the same sweater almost every day all winter Teslas make the experience of driving better in almost every way A $10k Pioneer DJ system is intuitive, tactile and satisfying to use

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2 years

the map is in the territory

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1 year

signed, my midjourney account upgrade

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5 months

@yashkaf I disprefer being friends w people who shit test me also there are other alternatives to "say nothing" and "disown" like asking "hey are you shit testing me? what's up bro"

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5 years

Your dream secret society / underground club wants you in. What's their pitch? Mine might be "Come to tear apart and analyze social reality. Build models for how the world works, so the world works. A curated unsafe-space."

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1 year

this is not very Game B of Elon it seems like even with (relatively) small stakes, Elon keeps choosing the negative sum option: defection, punishment, and pettiness damn, I used to want him to get us to Mars but not if this is how he operates

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can't even like Sam Reed's tweet this is very bad

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3 years

I love my partner so much I can't contain it sometimes. He's so good. If he tweeted more I bet he'd get along well with you all too

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3 years

You don't need to have opinions on things if you don't want to

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4 years

When I pass someone on the street wearing a surgical mask I feel a small sense of relaxation: one fewer person that could get me sick. This seems to be the opposite reaction most people in the US have

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1 year

@eshear I think new gear causes expectations to go up in a way that can squish those delicate little creative tendrils

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3 years

I'm astounded that I didn't learn about the Kelly Criterion til this year. Powerful stuff

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2 years

Knowing who ppl were online almost always made my conversations worse. it was the uncanny valley of sort of knowing them or thinking I should know them that got in the way of seeing the person right in front of me

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4 years

Want to make the best use of the next month? Got that book you've been meaning to write? #CoViWriMo March 15-April 15 Let's make this happen

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1 year

A pet peeve of mine is when someone expresses an insecurity and people seem terribly uninterested in finding out if it's true or not

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2 years

@robjpalmer "I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul"

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3 years

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3 years

I was feeling bad and said to myself "negative dopamine!!!" Then realized negative dopamine cannot exist, that all feelings in the brain are positives of something, some flickering of aliveness and activity and so I kept on feeling bad, but with a side of existential confusion

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2 years

"You can meditate with 4, 5, 7, 12 chakras—it doesn't matter! We have a lot of nerve clusters," was another thing she said. It was refreshingly un-dogmatic and functional

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3 years

New gaming dice ✨✨✨(from @everythingdice )

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1 year

1. People want to be where their friends are This matters more than anything else. The first thing they will look at isn't your cool event description, it's if their friends are going or not

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1 year

I'm just gonna repeat that again: PEOPLE WANT TO BE WHERE THEIR FRIENDS ARE

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9 months

"if you don't jump every once in a while, how would you notice if you can't jump anymore?" -- true for most things What activities test a bunch of things quickly?

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9 months

"A pattern language" is absolutely brilliant. I yearn for a pattern language: parties, events, and gatherings. Or on the subtleties of gardening. Or a pattern language: companies and businesses My heart aches for these books that may never exist

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2 years

The answer was that chakras are nerve clusters. you can see those in a dissection. you can feel them, too! next we poked around the crown of our head to find the front fontanelle, that place where our skull fused together as a baby

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2 years

Taking that VR helmet off was a good "GET OUT OF THE CAR" moment

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Universal Love, Said The Cactus Person

“Universal love,” said the cactus person. “Transcendent joy,” said the big green bat. “Right,” I said. “I’m absolutely in favor of both those things.…

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1 year

I meet a lot of people and don't remember them all. They usually remember me bc I look pretty distinct I highly encourage you to style up and become more distinct if you want ppl to remember who you are

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2 years

There's a girl with her head in her hands on the train and I want to offer comfort and company but I'm scared of being told off or the language barrier or of coming off weird and I feel sad that there are so many things in between my heart and action

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1 year

It is frustratingly hard to get people to show up for a party. Maybe that's because I'm in the Bay Area, where even the most disconnected person has 3 different options for fun things to do each weekend night. FOMO rules the land, no one commits, and everyone is a flake

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4 years

I'm using an extension that hides all the metrics: number of followers, following, likes, retweets, and comments. If there are comments it shows a dot so I know to check it out. It's so much harder to judge accounts without those! Goodbye snap judgments, hello manual thought

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2 years

If you wanna be remembered, be memorable Props to everyone who looked obviously distinct, you did us a huge service

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1 year

ok so self-esteem is SELF generated feelings of worth based on hearing praise etc from others is OTHER-esteem

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1 month

I've got that people pleaser socialization, if someone frowns and wants something from me I've historically felt panic in my body and like I need to do what they want BUT I practiced some exercises for ~15 minutes and it's been dramatically better since then

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2 years

when I was younger I worried that as I aged, I'd get more and more divergent in my ideas and worldview until no one could understand me anymore That didn't happen. I diverged *a lot*, but ended up less alone

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4 years

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