Last cicada post (probably, no guarantees). I just love these weird little things. And a pic of the really pretty wooded trail we walked. Thanks to the like 5 of you who are following all this ๐๐
GM girls, gays and theys. Forgot to wash off my makeup/hair last night and woke up lookin like this. Think I might have to do that more often. โค๏ธ๐
@ClaireMax
I actually had an OBGYN tell me Iโd want kids when I could afford a live in nanny that could go on vacation with us. When I asked to have my tubes tied.
I was like, I donโt like expensive accessories. ๐ Iโm 40, never regretted not having kids, never wanted to be. Mom. ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ
Another boy butterfly today!! Big and strong and gorgeous! And we got some good selfies finally ๐ฉท
And also a video of him actually flying away ๐๐ฅฐ๐๐ฅฐ๐
woke up and remembered that even if Iโm starting the muscle mommy journey over again, Iโm still built like this. say hi if you wanna get thrown around. ๐ช๐
When your 18 y/o SA survivor self heals a tiny bit at 40, starting over in building safety in their body by being encouraged to set boundaries and honor their needs with love instead of having them met with violence. ๐๐ญ๐๐๐
Definitely too early for real swarms, but we found a pretty dense little pocket and I got to play and hear them scream and walk in the woods and my brain isnโt totally fixed but it definitely helped ๐
We have a plan and a multi stop route to hit lots of possible bug concentrations! Gonna be hunting til sundown all over Illinois and Iโm lookin cute today with all my cicada wardrobe, so weโre already doing well.๐ค
Please send good buggy vibes for luck!
Will update as we go!
Got my first male monarch today!! You can tell by the thinner lines on the wings and those 2 little hindwing spots! Also just thought it was cool I had all the stages of pupation in one picture with the hanging caterpillar R through chrysalis ready to emerge L. ๐ฅฐ๐ฉท
Someone warn my wife. I just deadlifted 205 lbs for 3. Dancing because I already knew I could. This is the **3rd** set of 3. LETS GO MUSCLESSSSSSSS
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I have no idea what happened but my stupid selfie from last night blew up and itโs weird. I guess welcome to the lots of new people who decided talking to plants is rad and followed me.
I am actually obsessed with these colors and how beautiful she is and how mind bendingly, imperfectly perfect and intricate nature is and how amazing bugs are. ๐๐๐๐
I canโt manage to get a good selfie with my butterflies because I keep somehow crying before they emerge, so I have cryface which is really not awesome for photos. ๐ ๐ญ๐
Welcome to the first of this crop! Better photos of her coming later. ๐ฉท
We had *10* butterflies emerge today. The day my grandfather passed on. Iโd been sending pics and videos of them to him in the hospital for the past few weeks, and they all decided to come help send him off. ๐๐ญ๐
I gave them their mission inside and then we quietly let them go
Feels like if I donโt post a picture of myself Iโm just talking to myself and not getting engagement but if I do Iโm uncomfortable about being perceived and the engagement isnโt meaningful anyway. Thinking I might just quit social media and give up and be lonely.
In bug related news, we had a second crop of monarch babies and I maybe got overexcited and brought a lot in to the luxury condo butterfly factory. Today theyโre all up on the ceiling getting ready to make chrysalises. 3 already done and hanging!! Go worms go!!!
Started raining and got chilly and they went to sleep at the first stop, but we found some from both broods and weโre headed northeast to find the sun and heat for more.
Woke up to 2 more butterflies emerging and it looks like there will be a bunch more today. The big crop is coming out! Sad Iโm working all day and canโt watch them.
Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who reached out the last couple days while I was really really low. It has meant a lot and Iโm finding out I do in fact have people who love me.
Hanging out at the rock climbing gym and falling off the bouldering wall trying to impress my new trans friend who Im convinced must just be Spiderwoman. She is AMAZING at this ๐คฏ๐ค
Came home to find TWO butterflies today ๐๐๐
Will get better photos in a bit when I release them!
Now taking wishes and love messages to give to them when I send them off ๐๐
We back in a โwear oversized clothes and boymode it โcause we hate our meat suit shape, feel gross, and being perceived is a lotโ phase. But also I lost too much weight and all my clothes are oversized now, so I guess it kinda works out.
Gotta get the mojo back.
Went to a beer spa which I didnโt even know existed until a few days ago and it was GREAT. Soaked in beer, drank beer, rolled in a hay bed. My skin is SOFFFTTTTT. ๐๐๐
Thank you to my friend for making me come.
Thank glob I took a later flight home. Girl that made me miss flight out didnโt account for crossing time zones and has no sense of urgency and might miss her flight again. I fucking canโt. Absolutely not. Never again.
My godbrother was at the wake who I love so much and havenโt seen in forever. We sat in the back and infodumped at each other for 2 hours and then he gave me 2 of the biggest, best hugs and I could cry buckets at how normal and loved it made me feel. ๐๐