My heart hurts, every minute of every day. Missing you will be my lifetime. As a way of honoring you, I will carry on living life and I will get through. Exactly as you would want me to do. Our love is eternal my son. We are One.
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Remembering Joe, May 28th at 7:30 pm (Pacific Time Zone), I am having a “Virtual Candlelight Prayer” across all time zones for our son Joseph Anthony Suarez. Please light a candle in your time zone at 7:30 pm in remembrance of my son Joe. 🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️
May 28th is Joe’s 5-Year
Does anyone still buy their child a Christmas gift? Is it strange that I still buy my son Joe a gift? I just feel like he's still here. Grief is exhausting!
I had a dream about Joe. I love when I dream my son. It’s been a while. In my dream, he came walking into our house to his bedroom. Joe! You’re home! You came home! I kept hugging him, crying, I was so happy. He kept telling me, Mom Im ok. Im okay.
I’m going to sleep in Joe’s room every nite for the next 60 days. It’s the last 60 days I’ll ever have in this room again. The thought of packing all his things and moving has me kinda messed up. This is what grief does, it can change the path of life in a snap! Sixty days he
As Sunday, 5/28, gets closer I find myself showered in this ugly thing called grief. I’m believe in authenticity and being as transparent as possible. I chosen to share my ugly grief to tell you “it’s okay to not always be so strong.” We can cry, it’s ok.
What do you say to those people who tell you,
• I can't even imagine how you do it?
• How are you? You look better.
• Be thankful you had Joe for 27 years.
• He’s in a better place.
• How did he die?
Recently, these seem to be coming up more. I always try to assume
Here we go, 5 years already! I cannot begin to process how fast time has gone by! May 28th will get here and I will face it head on. I will push thru it. I will hold on to every bit of strength I have in me and I will wake up the next day because I am alive. And, with every
I’m hurting today. Deeply. I’m suppose to be on my way to a wedding. Not just any wedding, one of Joe’s closest friends. He’s getting married today and I tried everything to be there. But one by one, roadblocks got in my way. I can’t stop crying.
The light of my life, my center, my heartbeat, my every breath. He is my son, Joseph Anthony Suarez. He unexpectedly left our world on 5/28/2018. Joe existed and his life made a difference. Please light a candle, say his name🕊🕯Joe🕯🕊.
#rememberingjoeslove
Does anyone ever feellike every day is the same as the day before? Or is it just me? I love my family with all my heart, but it feels like I'm going thru the motions of life now on auto-mode.
Dreams, when I dream of Joe it's as if he's standing in front of me but I can't reach him. I close my eyes and can feel his presence. I see him and he's smiling, standing in the middle of a crowd talking so loud I can hear him from a distance, everyone is staring at him with
My Son, I will see you when I get there. Every day I'm one step closer to you. I love and miss you so much.
SAY HIS NAME
🕊️🤍Joseph Anthony Suarez🤍🕊️
8/31/90 - 5/28/18
We are 5 days away from moving to our new place. I’m officially on autopilot now. Today, my brother is coming over to cut out the piece of wall with Joe’s footprint marks. Emotions are everywhere. I’m ready, I’m not ready, I’m excited, I’m crying, strength kicks in and I’m crying
I'm sitting still tonight. It's been a long day. I had a tough moment earlier. I'm sure you've experienced those memories from the life you had "before" it all changed. Earlier today, I passed by the house we lived in 10 years ago. I was in the neighborhood, so I decided to do
Please pray for for my nephew Cameron. He left us way too soon, 20 years old and life just became too hard. We may never know “why” but I ask for prayers for his mother and father and little brother. Lord hear my prayers.🙏🏻
These two beauties are my strength, we keep each other standing by holding on to each other every day. They are my two daughters; Juliana (on my left, she's 25) and Allie (on my right, she's 29). I am thankful to God for these two beautiful daughter.🙏🏻
Time has no relevance in grief. A year goes by, then 2, 3, 4, 5, as the 6th year approaches i still feel the pain as if it were yesterday. I have come a long way in my grief and I’ve learned a lot. God have mercy on those who were there and did nothing.🕊️🤍
Today has come to a close. It's been a day of tears, laughter, memories, and pure love. My gratitude to everyone for taking a minute from your life to send me such beautiful messages! You have all given me a glorious gift, it's called JOY. 🕊️🕯️🤍Thank U!
How have you changed since the loss of your child? I don't sleep. Insomnia has entered my nights. That's just one of a million things but the first that came to my mind.
Blessings are your beautiful 33rd Birthday my son. Today Joe is 33. When Joe was born he had hundreds of people waiting to see him. Family and friends waited patiently at the hospital to see if he was a boy or girl. We waited to find out his gender. He was born and his eyes
Moving day is 4/1/23. Found a new place to move and I think I’ve cried every nite before I go to sleep. I’ll get thru this too, I know I’ll be ok. And, I’ve decided I’m taking a piece of Joe’s bedroom wall with me! Yes! His dirty footprints, he would put his feet on his wall
We finally got our Christmas tree decorated. I’m looking at Joe’s curio next to our beautiful tree and I’m crying. Try again I tell myself and I pray. When my eyes open,I smile. I’ll keep trying to honor Joe’s life by living vs. simply to exist. God help me.
Every day is a new day, we get choices. Choices to live or die. I've come to realize something, at any given time of my life I am always going to be at 50%. Always. That being said, what happens to the other 50% of me? Since 50% of me died when Joe died, I'm going to take the
Thank you ALL so much for your words of wisdom, encouragement, prayers, love, retweets, but mostly thank you for coming by my page and always giving me positive vibes. I am so thankful for meeting each of you, even if we never meet in person (but then again I’m a believer in
My Heart. My First Love. My Son Joe. Life changed when you left us. I'm doing my best to be strong. To Honor your life. To Live. I am pushing myself every day Son. I Love You. -note: I do not own the rights to this music.-
We are stronger together. Life changed on May 29, 2018, we unexpectedly lost our only son, Joseph. He was 27, and the center of our family. Here we go, 2023, pushing thru another yearwithout him. Our hearts r forever broken, but together our LOVE wins! HNY🎇
We had a special candlelight prayer for Joe on Christmas Eve. Each of us spoke one word when we think of Joe; laughter, love, dancing, PS4, music, brother, son, joy, Jee bod, uncle, funny. This made the night feel so good instead of sadness (Video below).
Every day is a new beginning, I remember a quote from years back my mom telling me “Don't worry about tomorrow Mija, it's not here yet.” I miss her wisdom, I'm also very envious Joe is with her and my sister and my dad. I know one day I'll see them all. In the meantime, again,
Hello my Twitter family❤️I forgot how much work it was to move! It has been an emotional and physically exhausting week! So much has happened, but I have to share that last moment I had before leaving. Last Friday night on 3/31/23, mostly everything we had was packed up and
I will love you always. I will say your name always. I will honor your life always. I will see you again my son. Until then, I will keep trying my best to live this life for your sisters and our family.
Thank you to my Twitter family for all the love and beautiful messages sent upward to Joe on Sunday, May 28, 2023. I can't remember the last time I felt so much love from so many people I've never met in person. It's so beautiful to feel so much happiness, it feels good to feel
I woke up this morning feeling joyful. These are far and few. I dreamt of my son yesterday. Again, I watched Dan Fischer
@OneLastWave
ride the waves of the sea, I felt a little bit of peace. When all the little things come together, it can lift the soul.
Joes birthday is August 31st. I can feel it coming, he would be 31. I want the world to know my son, doesn't matter that he's not here anymore. To me, he will always be alive. These are Pics from his Celebration of Life, 6/9/18. He was loved by so many!
May 28th is coming. I can’t avoid it. I’m staying busy but it will be here soon. It brings the number 2,192 days since Joe has been gone. I can get through it. I will get through it. I have to get through it. Every day I say those words.
Our first out of town trip four months after we lost Joe. It was a family wedding and too much for my heart to bare, we left at reception. We stopped at the beach before leaving SB. It was verrry difficult doing this without Joe.
Everyday is difficult, but I'm trying. Every holiday gets harder than the last, but I'm trying. I'll just keep trying until I hold you again my beautiful son.
My Christmas wreath to Joe, made with my love. Another year has gone by, as I wait for the New Year to come my heart feels heavy. I can feel it skip a beat, I can feel the heaviness from the pain inside my soul. Iwill keep trying. Some days it's just too much.
My grief has no closure. Sometimes, I feel like Joe didn't die, he simply just moved away. We never got to say goodbye because the coroner kept his body for 21 days. I could not let that image be my last one of Joe. I often regret that decision.
Nothing is ever going to be the same, life will not be like it was before. I am not the same person.
I hold on to HOPE. 🕊️🤍🕊️🤍🕊️🤍🕊️🤍🕊️🤍🕊️🤍🕊️
WHAT DO YOU HOLD ON TO?
For Joe - August 31, 2022.
Celebrate your birthday in heaven my son. I will do my part down here and sing your song up to the heavens. Your joy is my joy, your love is my love, your heart is my heart. We are a team and you are my forever.🕯️🕊️🤍
It’s Saturday, 5/11/24. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. For those who walk this same journey in grief I say, “I am deeply sorry for your loss and heartache. Please know you are not alone.” We are once again reminded of a beautiful life that existed and now gone.
I remind myself of this, even though it's the hardest thing to do as I try to push forward in life. I got this, I can walk forward, I WILL put one foot in front of the other. How do you go forward?
On days when I'm “being still,” it hits me, you're really not here anymore. You're gone. Forever. Then suddenly, I can't breathe, think, hear, or feel. It's as if I keep dying over and over again! This nightmare won't stop until the day I see you again. 😭
To my “X” family, thank you for yesterdays words of encouragement, love, and incredible support. Today is a new day, the sun has risen and through the raindrops falling from above I am feeling better.
My purpose in life. They teach me strength, courage, joy, love, but most of all they teach me how to survive life after losing their only brother. They are in pain too, and when they’re up for talking about how they feel “I sit still and listen.” I see them both, I hear them
These words hit a home run! I love when I randomly receive messages from people who knew Joe. And, it lifts my heart even higher when someone else says his name. It’s so important for our child/children to be remembered. Say His Name🕯️Joe🕯️
Joe. He loved Nike and Adidas. His MAC 🍎 computer. Music. Dagneys Coffee. Shopping at Thrift stores. Hugging. Laughing OUT LOUD. Talking LOUD. Camping. Making friends. These are just a few.
Tell me your loved ones name. What did he/she like?
I took this pic Sunday evening, it’s so cool! I caught the reflection of the clouds on the water. I don’t use any filters in my pics. It’s so beautiful!
Joe had a “vibe” that brought people from all walks of life together. And he is still doing it! I started this Twitter page to connect with people on a much larger platform. I want the world to know about my son and to help others living in this grief too.
This photo is dated 2013. It's one of my favorites. That's Joe with the shades. He moved out with his buddies. I will say in the 27 years of his life, he lived it to the fullest! But I want him back!
#bereavedmother
#losingjoechangedme
Worldwide Candle Lighting Day-December 11, 2022. Remembering our beautiful son Joe. Your life will never be forgotten. We love you to no end. Joseph Anthony Suarez, our beloved son, brother, grandchild, cousin, godson, & friend.
#WorldwideCandleLightingDay
I embrace the quiet moments, even if the pain is unbearable. I close my eyes, and I can see my son standing right here by my side telling me, “keep going Momma, I got you.”
I'm came across this powerful video. I often rewatch to remind myself the importance of honoring the life of my son. I look up and say out loud, “Joe, I am trying son. I am trying my best.” 🤍🕊️🕯️
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Say Her Name🤍🕯️Megan🕯️🤍your daughter is gorgeous! Too young to leave this world, I am truly so sorry for your loss. Time, it is not our friend. What are some of Megan’s favorite things to do?
@elainemarie58
I am so sorry for your loss and for this road we share. This is my daughter Megan. December 21-1991 - May 3 2010. Loved and missed every day.
I often look up when the sky is clear and the clouds are slowly moving. And I wonder if Joe is looking right back at me! These are moments when I seem to lose my breath. The mere thought of him never coming back shatters me.
#losingjoefindingmywaythrugrief
Theres so much peace and beauty in the clouds. I call them a “vault into heaven.” Often, when I look up and watch the slow movement across the sky, I get an overwhelming sense of joy. I guess you can say I’m a little obsessed.