NEWS IS OUT! My debut novel, AVA ANNA ADA, will be published by
@WhiteRabbitBks
. ‘Unforgettably original and disturbing’ AVA ANNA ADA lands 18.01.24. It wouldn’t be possible without
@leebrackstone
as co-conspirator, and the support of all at
@orionbooks
.
Here it is, I am beyond thrilled to reveal the cover of THE LAST DAYS: a memoir of faith, desire and freedom. Endless thanks to all involved in the making of this book, look what we’ve done!
Publishing on 14.07.22 from
@EburyPublishing
@PenguinUKBooks
available to preorder now.
‘I knew the summer holidays would end, so I’m not that sad about it. Everything ends. You will end one day.’
My six year old just casually driving home my mortality as she gets dressed for another school year.
I especially like this quote directly from Jehovah’s Witnesses’ website, which categorically states they do not shun, and yet these two side by side make an interesting comparison. Double speak I think it’s called.
Jehovah’s Witnesses repeatedly insist they don’t shun members who leave, while simultaneously subjecting the flock to images like these. This is why I wrote The Last Days, to expose this corrupt and immoral business parading as Christianity.
Globally Jehovah’s Witnesses rely on government sanctioned tax exception and charitable status, protected by their freedom of religion, while infringing on the freedom of members to leave without sanctions, in effect persecuting them. Today, in Norway, it began to change.
Tonight on
@Channel4
Rebekah Vardy talks about her experiences growing up at a Jehovah’s Witness, and to other survivors of the religion, including me. Thank you
@HardcashProd
for taking the story seriously and telling it so well.
#c4vardy
"From the age of 12-years-old I was being abused and instead of being supported, I was blamed."
Rebekah Vardy grew up as a Jehovah's Witness. She shares her experience of how the religious organisation handled her allegations of being sexually abused as a child.
My six year has started writing letters to my 18 year old, away at college in Edinburgh, the closing line of the one I delivered yesterday was:
‘And life has become unbearable’.
This child will destroy us all.
Just submitted what will hopefully be the final draft of my debut novel. What no one tells you is that sending off a book is a sort of grief. I’ve spent four years not so much making these people up but channeling them. Now they are gone, what do I do next?
Excellent post day, not much beats the satisfaction of seeing a penguin on the spine. Paperback version of The Last Days coming very soon, compete with nice things people have said about it.
A year to the day since I was in the
@TimesMagazine
talking publicly for the first time about The Last Days. In the lead up, I was terrified. Speaking out isn’t easy, but over the last year I’ve learnt, it is always worth it.
Another great write up for The Last Days in today’s
@TheTimesBooks
. Not only is it an excellent review, ‘courageous stuff- intense, compelling, raw’, it’s also a succinct summary of both the book and life as a witness. Thank you
@Mel_ReidTimes
for brilliant journalism.
A note on the claim that Rebekah Vardy was never a JW, what they mean is she was never a baptised JW, but children raised as JWs are effectively members, subject to the ‘pastoral’ care of the elders, and the discipline their parents face. This statement is disingenuous at best.
This was supposed to happen in the morning; first extract of The Last Days and an interview in which I talk about growing up inside the Jehovah’s Witnesses, is now online. In print in tomorrow’s Sunday Times magazine.
Traumatised, brainwashed and controlled — that’s how
@ali_l_millar
describes her childhood in the Jehovah’s Witnesses.
She reveals how she escaped and what happened next
I do believe this is how you end a year. Thank you to
@GuardianBooks
for including The Last Days as one of their books of the year on a stunning list of books.
Happy publication day to me and Ava Anna Ada. Here it is in
@Foyles
where it was a bit of a shock to see it hanging out casually with Paul Murray’s The Bee Sting.
Yesterday a reader sent me a picture of The Last Days with a different dust jacket on. For some, reading it incurs a lot of risk, it’s almost a banned book, my rebellious little heart loves this. I also love that people still in the religion are finding ways to read it safely.
Yesterday I submitted final edits of my debut novel. A strange dark little thing that’s more furious and excoriating than I remembered. Today I’m starting to work on an essay about Louise Bourgeois, mothers, umbilical cord, thread. Same themes, different forms.
‘Her book is as much a wail of betrayed yearning for them as an expose of the cult that forbids them from contacting her.’ - exactly how I hoped The Last Days would read.
Thank you
@Helen_R_Brown
for the insightful review in today’s
@Telegraph
And the year ends and hardbacks of Ava Anna Ada have just arrived. It’s quite something to see
@Beathhigh
call it ‘every bit as gripping as it is horrifying’, along with quotes from some of the finest writers working today.
18th January, and we are doing this
@WhiteRabbitBks
.
Very occasionally a book comes along that makes you reconsider your own relationship with truth telling,
@praddenkeefe
Empire of Pain is that book, it’s meticulously researched and terrifying in its implications of how power manipulates. Much recommended.
Firmly back in the world of The Last Days, and once again, stunned by the scale of moral crimes Jehovah’s Witnesses as an organisation get away with. Feeling for the first time, a tiny bit proud to have written about about it. Paperback coming in just under 3 months.
In Jehovah’s Witnesses FAQs (designed for the public) they state they don’t shun, and yet in their Watchtower (designed for the flock) they say shunning is a protected practice. This looks quite devious, obviously, being a woman, I’m probably reading it wrongly…
This is one of my favourite interviews. It’s also the one that’s attracted the most heat, so it’s worth listening to again. And for the avoidance of doubt, it’s all true.
Ali Millar on growing up in the Jehovah's Witnesses - ABC Radio National
I have read brutal books, relentless books, difficult books, but still think Gordon Burn’s Happy Like Murderers is the hardest going if them all - and rightfully so. As
@BenMyers1
says ‘it is a book to be survived’.
Very exciting to see The Last Days hitting tables in Waterstones (if you know, you know why). Although every single last orderly piece of me wants to straighten the pile.
Had an incredible four days of books, ideas, pubs, parties, bonfires and art but maybe the most special part was meeting readers. I’m beginning to realise not only does the book have a life of its own, but its own force. A thing it’s not possible to plan and is a bit confounding
In a meeting at school yesterday the teacher asks my daughter what she’s been reading, ‘well’, she replies, ‘mum’s been going on about Bret Easton Ellis, so I’m thinking I’ll get started on him.’
Teacher turns to me with wide eyes widening, I slide down my chair.
As a spokesperson for Jehovah’s Witnesses twisted the truth in an attempt to evade justice in the Supreme Court yesterday, I remembered this interview, which they requested be taken down due ‘inaccuracies’.
You’re welcome.
On the eve of her sixth birthday as I’m trying to get her to sleep, she says to me, but mummy, there are some people who are dead and do not know it and people who are alive and forget it, so no, I think I will not sleep yet.
My spring equinox baby who knows things.
Growing up as a Jehovah’s Witness was like ‘being trapped in an abusive relationship’
Thank you to
@Telegraph
for such an accurate headline, that’s exactly how it felt. And for the brilliant review of The Last Days too.
"From the age of 12-years-old I was being abused and instead of being supported, I was blamed."
Rebekah Vardy grew up as a Jehovah's Witness. She shares her experience of how the religious organisation handled her allegations of being sexually abused as a child.
In the park with my five year old, she climbs on the big metal horse and shouts at the top of voice, ‘come on Hades, let’s go to hell’, 100 percent my kid.
I’m on
@abcnews
talking about life inside Jehovah’s Witnesses, and the restrictions believers face. There’s an interesting response from their official spokesperson in Australia.
75 years to the day since my grandparents married in St Andrews, where they studied. My grandmother, tall and slightly shy, first met my grandfather by tripping over a top step and falling at his feet. Kismet.
My 5 year old has decided she wants to be an art critic - a welcome departure from murderer - she made me draw the other night, looked and said, ‘you are not seeing the art, you are only drawing the thing’. Thinking of this today as I fail to write the art of the thing.
A year since the cover to The Last Days was revealed. Twelve months later and we’re talking covers for the paperback, and my novel, and I’m sitting in my kitchen writing the prologue to what will hopefully become my second non-fiction. What a year.
‘Considering the harm shunning inflicts on millions, it seems it is time to place organisations imposing and encouraging it under greater official scrutiny.’
I’ve written a piece for the
@theipaper
asking if groups who shun should face penalties.
#exjw
My internet is down so I’ve taught the kids how to play poker and have left them to it with a giant jar of change. More high level end of summer holidays mothering skills from me.
THE DISCOURSE IS LOUD today. Publishing a book can simultaneously be a dream come true and intensely difficult. It’s not that hard to figure out. It’s also not too much to ask that all workers are properly supported when they need it.
Thrilled to have my debut, The Last Days, in
@thebookseller
this morning. I’ve lived, breathed, dreamt this book for nearly 2 years, it’s brilliant to be able to talk about it.
"This is an extraordinary story encompassing so many rich themes: faith, childhood, the mother-daughter relationship and our shifting identities through time",
@EburyPublishing
picks up The Last Days,
@ali_l_millar
's Jehovah's Witnesses memoir:
Thank you to
@EdinBookshop
for a special night celebrating The Last Days. Something really magical in the truest sense to be with an old family friend, and Nic, who taught me to read tarot one snowy night- we were convinced demons would arrive - and showed me how to live in a way
Accidentally captured the chaotic beauty of This is Memorial Device last night at the Wee Red. Brilliant adaptation, all the ways books take on other lives away from their author.
Just discovered people can leave reviews on Audible, this review of The Last Days is quite staggering. Sometimes I forget what I’ve done, it’s good to be reminded. And yes, it did and does feel like getting down to marrow.
The Last Days is out on paperback TODAY from
@PenguinUKBooks
. Which means it’s the same book but lighter, perfect for pockets, travel, and all your summer reading needs. The Times describes it as ‘intense, compelling, raw’.
My daughter’s JW grandmother just sent her a message saying ‘from pandemic to war, it must be the last days.’ This is how deeply distorted JW’s thinking is. They believe the situation in Ukraine is something to rejoice over because their deliverance is near. No compassion.
A blistering review in today’s Observer. It can be a relentless book, life inside the Jehovah’s Witnesses was relentless. It is also ‘not without joy and levity throughout’ as observed by Darran Anderson on
@tweetbytheriver
Spent the last week in bed with a fever, cough, in more pain than I knew pain could be, and today wondering if I should get a real job - there are a lot of doctors in my family - but
@BenMyers1
The Offing kept me company while ill , and sums the need for art up perfectly.
Regardless of what you think of Rebekah Vardy, it’s great to see her speaking publicly about her childhood as a Jehovah’s Witness, and investigating the religion.
Rebekah Vardy reveals trauma of growing up in a Jehovah's Witness cult | Daily Mail Online
Much to recommend at the Yoko Ono exhibition, although my seven year old embraced the concept of the Wishing Tree a little too literally…
‘I wish I would get a sandwich NOW.’
For a long time I struggled to see the value in writing, lulled by the idea it was only a book. For the past month I’ve wakened to messages and comments like the ones below (these are comments, I wouldn’t post a private message). I was a fool, it’s never just a book.
Vaguely heretical that The Last Days is currently outselling the actual Bible on kindle, especially since it’s nearly Easter. If you want to help with my eternal damnation, it’s only 99p. Never has a soul been so cheaply had.
The Last Days is out on paperback tomorrow from
@PenguinUKBooks
. A lot of people have said some overwhelming things about it. ‘A masterpiece’ from
@amy_may
is one of them.
The only way I could make the film below about The Last Days for
@PenguinUKBooks
was to tell myself no one would watch it. That over 16,000 people have in a week breaks my head a bit.
Four years to the day since I crossed the border and moved to England. A couple of weeks later I changed the then baby’s room into a study and began writing what became The Last Days. Which just goes to show a little selfishness goes a long way and Virginia Woolf wasn’t wrong.
Among things I never expected to see is below. Total honour to be one of
@PenguinUKBooks
four best books out this week, alongside
@seanehewitt
’s beautiful memoir too, us
@rcwlitagency
kids.
Ten years ago, on my due date. No one knew then that I’d been a Jehovah’s Witness. I was writing everything I could to avoid saying it, until I didn’t. In a few hours I’ll read from the book I never thought I’d write. Life is a strange thing.
Asked my children what my favourite thing to do is.
‘Sitting on stage in your black clothes looking like a widow’ said my 9 year old son. I’m not sure what he means…
Exciting thing coming soon as a result of this interview and extract from The Last Days in
@thetimes
back in July. Still entertains me that JW leaders try to deny it’s true.
I escaped the Jehovah’s Witnesses. My mother cut me off by email
My 10 year old is suddenly into music. Every evening, he and his dad sit playing records, reading books, chatting, I gatecrash. Last night: Dylan, Sakamoto, Richard Dawson, Cormac McCarthy (me). It’s quickly becoming my favourite way to just exist.
Last night at dinner the kids were talking about what they want to do when they grow up. ‘Well’, says the five year old, ‘I want to be a singer, a vet, and a murderer.’
Then she laughs and stares right at me…
Eleven years ago an hour after he tried to kill me, and I thought he was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen, which, looking at this picture now, shows love is blind.
‘Ali Millar is one of Scotland’s most exciting new voices, and her unsettling debut novel, Ava Anna Ada, looks set to be a literary highlight of 2024.’
You can read an extract from Ava Anna Ada over on
@scottishbooks
.
Keep an eye on the doormat these next few days. We’ve just done a mailing
@sophie_nevrkla
of our most thrilling debut of 2024
@WhiteRabbitBks
… an occult horror classic in the making
@ali_l_millar
On my way to talk to
@HughesPeg
at
@edbookfest
, thinking of this from Salman Rushdie, ‘We can sing the truth and name the liars. We can stand in solidarity with our fellows on the
front lines and magnify their voices by adding our own.’
It’s publication day for The Last Days. Here’s what people are saying about it:
‘A dam burst of a book…marks the arrival of a major writer.’ - Darran Anderson
@tweetbytheriver
‘Pulls you heart first through an extraordinary life. A sublime talent.’
@d_whitehouse
Reading Rachel Cusk is always a fearful experience. More than nearly any other writer she reaches in and pulls parts of myself I’d rather stay hidden out through my nose. This new collaboration between her and her husband, artist Siemon Scamell-Katz, is as terrifying as ever.
Working in a cafe today, and a VERY FAMOUS PERSON is here. The excellent part about this is that they’re wearing a cap, as if a cap is a sure fire way of no one noticing you AT ALL.
There was only one place in London to launch Ava Anna Ada, at
@thesocial
on the 29th January. Can’t wait to share a stage with some of my favourite people.
Announcing our first event of 2024...
29 Jan: it's back to
@thesocial
basement as we celebrate the launch of
@ali_l_millar
's brilliantly dark debut novel AVA ANNA ADA
In conversation with
@berenyi_miki
, plus special guests
@keirangoddard1
+ Lias Saoudi
Cheering my cold infested self up by buying unnecessary dresses. ‘Oh mummy, that one’, says my five year old daughter, ‘I’ll look great in it when you die.’
Then she inspects me with her beady eyes and says, ‘which looks like it might be quite soon.’ 👀☠️
Mothers’ Day is complicated. But here’s how my Grandmother used to transport her children around Colonsay, using a completely safe vehicle from her father’s factory. Legendary woman, I am very lucky to have known her.
There is the story you want to write and there is the story you have to write and those two things are rarely the same. That’s about as much as I know about writing.
Thank you
@edbookfest
for a brilliant few days of ideas, conversations and art, and for today’s event with
@HughesPeg
. (And
@kathrynjoseph_
as an extra special treat.)
The Crown Prosecution’s website’s elements of coercive control are interesting, including:
Isolating a person from friends or family
Monitoring their time
Taking control of aspects of life, including where they can go, who they can see, what they wear
Sound familiar?
#exjw
Advance proof just arrived of a book that will be one of THE books of 2022. The Last Days
@ali_l_millar
’s lyrical coming-of-age memoir of growing up in the Jehovah’s Witnesses brings into sharp focus life inside one of the world’s most secretive religions
Every day since The Last Days was published, but also since the first extract featured in
@thetimes
, I’ve had messages from people who the book’s resonated with. Today someone said ‘you have written my story for me, and their stories for them.’
It’s never just a book.
A big thank you to the brilliant indie booksellers in Edinburgh who met
@ali_l_millar
and chatted about
#AvaAnnaAda
, coming in January next year. We loved chatting to you all, and our only regret about the Edinburgh bookshop scene is that we couldn’t get round to more!
This is awful news. I can imagine firsthand the fear victims would’ve felt. I hope in the coming weeks this isn’t used by the organisation to prove they’re under attack.
Hamburg shooting: attack at Jehovah’s Witness hall leaves seven dead