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bulimic w crippling anxiety┆bmi ⇾ obese // gbmi ⇾ ? ,,𖧷

「 she/her ❀ 17 ▾ 174cm 」
Joined July 2020
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
WHY DO I KEEP SEEING THING ON MY TL SAYING THAT BINGING IS OKAY??!! IT IS NOT!! I HAVE GAINED 8LBS IN 3 DAYS!! IT IS NOT OKAY
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
6 months
yall hate bulimics so much and for absolutely no reason
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
yeah ive binged on like 2-3k cals every single day for the past week but i've also been maintaining 106 so whos really winning
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
you binge on nutella and cookies, i binge on entire baguettes with no toppings…we are not the same
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
7 months
its actually so disheartening to come on here and see ppl shitting on those with bed/bulimia like why do you even feel the need to say something
@stargirlsk1nny
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7 months
i actually don’t understand how someone could poison their body like this
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
7 months
@defnotcybrdivr maybe because you have a life threatening eating disorder?? women go through hormonal changes, hence why they put on some weight. it’s not like they get fat, they just gain so they’re no longer underweight (many 16 year olds are)
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
"if you can pinch it you can lose it" NO! this quote makes me want to pull my hair out because medically?? it is not possible?? it is not realistic?? you will always be able to pinch your skin, even if you're bonespo
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cassie ♡
4 months
@strvngjellyfish idk how to tell you this but that food wasn't going to get eaten. it wasn't going to go to the people that are starving. op could have left it to sit and rot or they could have eaten it and thrown it up 10 minutes later which is no better than just throwing it in the trash
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cassie ♡
5 months
@issabellez its just a mental thing like if you dont count veggie cals you'll eat more veggies, which makes you more full so you eat less calorie dense foods without feeling like youre wasting cals on smth you dont like (veggies)
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
my binges used to be caused by restriction but now i just binge so i can feel something
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7 months
@defnotcybrdivr @allirexia og post is about how women gain weight and don't have the same body as they did at 16. once again, where does it at all say anything about getting fat or obese....reading comprehension is a skill
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2 years
@Ioonarexia THERES A DIFFERENCE???
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@_papayaprincess
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8 months
@MariaOr52992782 ik yall are joking but i genuinely think that have amazing fat distribution for how big they are
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3 months
@blueIories peak bulimia is purging with one hand and scrolling with the other
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6 months
@earthlingrexic ive seen a lot of posts lately talking about hating her even before the mcdonalds thing! also, shes clearly going through a binge episode and i think its sorta fucked up to judge when she clearly cant control what shes eating and doesnt have the self control to stop
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
maybe im going crazy but this mug cake i invented a recipe for lowkey slaps
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2 years
@172cals okay but if i go down to bmi 13 and look bmi 15 then im still gonna look skinny <3
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cassie ♡
2 years
@lamictalspo no because i still have nightmares about that one time i binged at a school club meeting and literally ate 10 giant cookies while everyone watched💀
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cassie ♡
2 years
@hwngcal until someone can explain to me the difference between an ed and a really extreme diet i will deny having an ed, this is lit rally a diet
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8 months
@menhxra no bcs they’d say shit like this but then their ugbmi was like 17 and they would never reach it 💀💀
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2 years
@Honeybeeisrad sitting on the toilet for hours trying to shit is defo the best way to burn cals!!
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cassie ♡
2 years
@juyeonverse2 @notsafe4whales thats just not true...children naturally have a lower bmi? thats why most bmi calculators and weight loss things make calculations off people being 18
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2 years
@starvingsaturn ehh theres a difference between having an eating disorder and disordered eating. what he's doing is definitely disordered eating, but without knowing his mindset and his individual relationship with food there's no way of knowing whether or not he has bulimia
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5 months
@akutameow nah i once binged on some and ate like 10 and was still constipated for two weeks so!!! also its basically just lax with calories like atp just have lax
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@_papayaprincess
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6 months
@imyeojincals idk i think naturally eating around your maintenance and maintaining a bmi of 17/18/19 without needing to think about food is still a type of "naturally skinny" bcs they arent thinking about their weight
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
why is it so hard to not binge :/ everytime i tell myself its going to be different and it never is
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4 months
@bonespobmi it’s sooo hard bcs the first step is stop purging and then stop binging but it’s fucking impossible to stop purging 😭😭
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cassie ♡
2 years
YEAH IM FAT BUT ITS BETTER THAN IF I WAS JUST CONSTANTLY GAINING😭
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
everyone always says to identify your binge triggers but i dont fucking know?? the whole time im binging i know what im doing is wrong, i know its going to make my stomach hurt, i know its destroying all my progress, i just cant bring myself to care. idk why i binge i just do
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cassie ♡
2 years
@yoorexic its like they dont realize that an ed is based off prolonged behavior 😭 you could binge for a week straight and still have anorexia
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1 year
@dahyuncalss mine is 1200 rn because i want to stop b/p 😭
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cassie ♡
5 months
@renskcal pls don’t delete it just bcs you’re getting hate!! i think it’s sooo important to highlight the struggles of having an ed to dissuade other ppl from making themselves worse
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cassie ♡
2 years
guess who binged again laugh out loud
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2 years
@kindofmentall dont do it thats how i got myself into a binge cycle 😭😭
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@_papayaprincess
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5 months
did yk when i first joined edtwt i was confused how people were on here so long without ever reaching their ugw bcs if you lose weight consistently it should only ever take a year at most
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
6 months
@matcharexia mentally it’s way easier to run outside and doesn’t feel as long bcs it’s a lot more stimulating and fun! i live in a super hilly area tho so i defo feel less exhausted and sore after running on a treadmill + im able to run at a faster pace on the treadmill
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11 months
@rexiebby maybe 18?? idk though she’s so young her weight distribution is that of a kid not an adult 😭😭
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cassie ♡
2 years
@st4rvingcore WHERE ARE YALL FINDING THIS 😭😭😭
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@_papayaprincess
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8 months
@lotusrootheart this is horrible news now i wont be able to live without eating it
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cassie ♡
2 years
@losertothestars yes!! i end up counting it as binging but in reality im not really binging, i have control but i dont see the point in restricting and would rather eat something that'll make me happy
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
9 months
idk if i’ve ever seen the diff btwn bmi 18 and bmi 15 so clearly before
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2 years
@starvingtee my highest bmi was 18...if i didnt develop an ed i could have been so much happier and still pretty skinny😭😭
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2 years
@StrandedSilver the way this is literally what my diet has been the past week because i can’t stop binging 💀💀
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2 years
@818cals i’m at bmi 15 and can tell you that it’s defo possible to be skinnyfat 😭😭 maybe at 13 is when it goes away?
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
6 months
@mayuragf bmi 12.7 is a "death weight" with lots of complications :( pls stay safe ml
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2 years
@cnnamons the fit is amazing but you look like a nine year old in the second picture 😭
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6 months
cal estimate pls? it’s a chocolate almond croissant, you can see the two chunks of choco and there was lots of almond filling (idk the name lol). i was thinking maybe 700??
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cassie ♡
2 years
1.2k cals!
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cassie ♡
2 years
@FORKlMJ1SOO i never workout and am super skinnyfat so it only started getting rlly flat at bmi 15💀
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
8 months
@lotusrootheart okay i need to know is it crispy or is it like gooey and raw
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
@myedspo before i got my ed i used to question how anyone could even have one 💀💀 i genuinely thought it was a made up thing because why would anyone be that obsessed with their weight
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cassie ♡
7 months
@felinecals no way youre mad someone on edtwt doesnt like their body
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cassie ♡
2 years
@reddeaddinner lbs lmao i used to be 96 so i hate that i gained so much
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2 years
@futilecals when i accidentally clicked on an edtwt space because i didnt realize it was related to edtwt just to see someone the same height as me and 20lbs lighter lmao
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@_papayaprincess
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8 months
@skinnyprinsess no bcs i would murder to be tiny and petite and small
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cassie ♡
2 years
@bellerexic idk if the pictures are good explanation but i want my rib cage to be visible when i’m just standing normally 😭😭 i’m 173 cm
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@_papayaprincess
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4 months
@Lees1diary depends on which ones you get!! my mom has one and literally hit bone on her finger so😭
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
@nymphvomit when i told my sister about my ed and she responded with "why dont you just work out instead of making yourself vomit?"...i know its not super triggering but it makes me feel so fucking invalid
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
ive gained 10lbs so hopefully its time for the restricting part of this binge-restrict cycle
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
5 months
@OfficalSnacker ngl i have no idea what youre talking abt 😭😭 pls explain whats triggering for us lowly knitters who dont understand
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
6 months
imo the difference is that mia is when you binge bcs you purge while ana-bp is when you purge bcs you binge ?? idk if that makes sense but like if you go into a binge knowing you purge vs binging without expecting to purge
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
honestly i don’t rlly care about the lbs but going from bmi 14.5 to bmi 16 is a whole different kind of pain
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
things for me to do instead of binging: - walk 5k steps - go through photos - make new homescreen - make a driving playlist - learn a kpop dance - go through ao3 bookmarks - organize closet - do 30 minutes of pilates - read a book on my tbr - take apush notes - study for the sat
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
@vicbrtz im in a rlly bad binge cycle so 3 hamburger buns with honey, a massive portion of yogurt with granola, like 10 kit kats, a protein bar, and 2 breakfast sausages wrapped with pancakes (idc about the cals these are my comfort food)
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cassie ♡
2 years
idc that ive been looking forward plans for a week, if im not under 100lbs when i weigh on monday im fucking canceling
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
7 months
controversial take but i dont think she did anything wrong? from what i remember she tagged it properly and it wasnt unnecessarily graphic...let my girl live please !!
@alfusia777
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edtwt went crazy because of this girl who posted herself purging
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2 years
@lalisunnies i make my own cal trackers and am 90% sure this is how everyone else perceives me lmao
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
6 months
me in the 45 minutes btwn placing my doordash order and it arriving
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
@4n4luv september is so not my month 💀 ive been losing and gaining the same 3 lbs for the past 2 weeks
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cassie ♡
5 months
bped yesterday, bped today, will probably bp tomorrow
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8 months
@linoscals it’s bcs ppl have forgotten what they stand for. low res = low calorie restriction eg you restrict your calories to a low amount. high rest = high calorie restriction or restricting while eating high calorie. no point trying to change it after decades imo
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@_papayaprincess
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6 months
it’s so small but finally my thigh gap has retuned 💕💕🙏🙏
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cassie ♡
2 years
@lesbiandiet nah fr mine stems directly from my autism, it had nothing to do with me thinking im fat
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@_papayaprincess
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5 months
@jiarexic @2anhaaa2 idk how to tell you this but recovery isnt easy for bulimics!! she said that shes been trying to recover but obviously struggles with binging and keeps relapsing!
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
just watched this skinny 17 year old boy eat 8 donuts in front of me why do men have such good metabolism what the fuck
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@_papayaprincess
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8 months
@lmbs42 hating on women isn’t a good look on you babe!!
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
@goIdwngz its actually easier if you dont have an ed! i used to forget to eat all the time because i would get distracted and my body wouldn't tell me i was hungry. when you have an ed youre more focused on everything you eat so in turn it makes you feel hungrier
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
@herbruisedribs lw was 96 literally last thursday and cw is 110 because i fucking hate myself
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cassie ♡
2 years
@mptybananamilk tbh ive never seen the issue with diettwt or wannarexics...if theyre starving themselves for a "diet" then theyre still severely mentally ill??
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
@Pushpln @notsafe4whales except it does, children can have a lower bmi and still be classified as healthy. i dont think the original person is in the right for shaming children, but medically younger kids are healthy at a bmi of 16
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
@starclest i feel super invalid because i constantly binge and overeat :( i don’t like starving/restricting but everyone else seems to enjoy it
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2 years
@karinarexic convinced you don’t understand intuitive eating because the whole point is that you DONT eat everything. you have a good relationship with food so you aren’t constantly craving junk
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
whenever i overeat i get THE WORST binge urges please god i cant keep doing this if i binge again tonight i will be so mad
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
if you have to go to the hospital for an ecg please wear a shirt/bra, i had to lay there topless the whole time because i showed up in a sweatshirt 🫡
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@_papayaprincess
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8 months
@sickankles105 i would hand over my whole inheritance if it meant someone would lock me up and feed me once a week idc
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
@antiquecorpse no because sometimes i genuinely question if i have an ed or if its just my special interest rn 😭😭
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cassie ♡
2 years
I REACHED MY UGW?? OMG??
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1 year
@luhvjy okay but when i gained weight my tits and ass came back larger than before despite me weighing less than my sw sooooo
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cassie ♡
5 months
@bladeeespo no way youre calling bmi 19 fatspo thats fucking insane
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
broke my fast bcs my friend made this adorable tiny cake for me
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
well! i finally restored my weight to what it was before my ed !! none of it went to my boobs or ass which is where it was before so now i just look fat asf🐷
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
2 years
@bubblybmi you're never too fat to think about recovery! you deserve to recover at any weight <3 speaking from experience, you never feel thin enough to recover, your gw just keeps getting lower and lower
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
thank god i’m going on vacation tomorrow, it’ll make fasting easy af
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
5 months
@bladeeespo criticizing someone for posting fatspo by calling them fatspo and shaming them for their weight is probably the most hypocritical thing i’ve ever seen
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@anagirly4ever personally i wouldn't consider the majority of mukbangs to be BED? yeah theyre eating a lot, but it's quite clearly not a binge and most mukbangers don't have that binge mindset, they're in control
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@_papayaprincess
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2 years
@issabat44 @tarotcals no, she's saying that if she had smaller boobs less people would sexualize her. thats the sad reality of society, breasts are heavily sexualized and the larger boobs you have the more sexualized you are by others
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i hate fatspo as much as anyone else but every month or so yall find a random video in a fatspo thread, qrt it a million times, and complain about people being fatphobic. just leave people that post fatspo alone it’s not that deep💀💀
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
9 months
my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not a bin my body is not
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
8 months
@thegulagdiet why are you so obsessed lmao we live in your mind rent free
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@_papayaprincess
cassie ♡
5 months
@EpelGal am i crazy?? is this not just a sandwich?? you’ve never had a sandwich with mayo before??
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