My father passed away on Tuesday. We thought we had more time. Doctors told us on Monday 2-4 months and the next day he passed. His will to live was strength I’ve never seen before. He never complained.
Only thing holding me together is knowing he’s not in pain anymore. 😇❤️
I had a dream that
@fuslie
and I put $100 each into lottery tickets, won $17 million dollars and then got on Twitch and gave it all away in donations to smaller streamers! So fun LOL 😂
The amount of people commenting that I’m gay for wearing lipstick in the collab video is striking. The amount of people saying it’s “wrong” is the problem. 🙄🙄
Also, I SNAPPED in that lipstick!! 😂 lol
A company emailed me about a paid integration. They offered $25. I responded politely saying that it was well below my normal fee & that I’d have to pass.
Their response:
“You think you’re worth more than that? You’re not.”
. . . . Yes the fuck I am!!
KNOW YOUR WORTH 💪🏾
Someone just commented “Oh dear, I just realized you only have 320,000 subs. You’ll never be Gibi”.
Check this out. That’s 320,000 more than I ever thought I’d have and I’m fucking beyond proud of that number. ONLY?? 2020 we off gauging self value and happiness from numbers. 😊
Compliments to give that don’t involve appearance:
- You inspire me.
- You make me laugh.
- You are intelligent.
- I’m proud of you.
- You’re a great friend.
- You’re a kind person.
- You are brave.
- You are strong.
Too many people to tag but after everyone left (AMAZING turnout by the way 4x the size as last year😬) we got as many ASMRtists together for a picture. It was so nice to meet everyone. I feel an overwhelming joy and gratefulness today. Amazing day! 😱😊💚 COMMUNITY!!
Just got recognized at Target by a 6 year old kid. He started crying & his Mom said that he watches my videos to calm down at night because he’s bullied so much at school . . .
I almost fucking cried with him. 😭
Oh man.
Thank you to
@anthonypadilla
for having me on his new video “I Spent a Day with Famous ASMRtists”. I’m really happy with how it turned out. It’s refreshing for ASMR to be talked about on a large platform with a positive, educational vibe. 👍🏾 much love.
Happy Birthday
@GibiOfficial
Thank you for being such a guiding light to the entire community. You are a STAR! ⭐️ Above all, thank you for being my friend!
Hope you’re having a fantastic day.
Cheers! 💜🎉🎂🥳🎈
10 Signs You’re Doing Well:
- You have a roof over your head.
- You ate today.
- You have a good heart.
- You wish well for others.
- You have clean water.
- Someone cares for you.
- You strive to be better.
- You have clean clothes.
- You have a Dream.
- You’re Breathing.
ASMR is the most misunderstood genre on YouTube, except we don’t have a genre on YouTube.
We know the “algorithm” changes by the second and it has its flaws, yes.
It’s been years.
We make Youtube millions.
We just want support from the platform.
Meet with us.
Let us explain.
Dear Universe:
This has been the hardest year of my life BY FAR. The worst heartbreak, losing my Dad, losing friends.
From someone who is barely hanging on . . . please give me a break.
Please.
The amount of men saying “I’m okay with women making an Only Fans but . . ” in the comments of the last podcast is disappointing.
Check this out . . it’s not your say!!! Women don’t need permission or your approval to do whatever the fuck they want!!
Do better. SMH
I've gotten hundreds of comments and messages today calling me ugly, gay, "not manly" and weird for doing a video where I tell you it's okay to work on yourself, take time to get better and that it's okay to try to feel good for yourself. feelsgoodman.
I’ll be at
@twitchcon
all day today! Going to be walking around and hopefully meeting all of you!!!
Yesterday I met a BIG fan, I can’t exactly remember her name. It was Friv something?? Idk . . . . 😂😂😂😂
So my Dad collected and restored classic cars on his free time for years before he passed. Through the years he had 20-30 classic cars that he built from basically scratch.
Today my Mom gave me his 1971 Mercedes 450SL for Christmas.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
🟢 SO EXCITED TO ANNOUNCE!!!!!
THE MattyTingles CBD Sleep Blend with
@TakeSiesta
!!!
These Lemon-Lime drops are the perfect addition to your nightly sleep routine! 💤
I’m SO proud of this!!!
MY OWN FLAVOR!!!! OMG 🍋🍋
🔥 GET it NOW at
OMGGGG!!!!!!!
The Comcast guy is here and he walked into the stream room to run a new line to it and looked at the wall (photos) and said “WAIT!! Are you the ASMR guy?? You know
@GibiOfficial
right???” LOLOL 😂😂
WE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😱😱😱
300,000 fucking people!!!!!
I have no words besides THANK YOU.
This has been a year of pain and loss but ALSO a year of growth and accomplishments!
From my heart, THANK YOU!!! ❤️❤️
Today is my Dad’s birthday.
We’re on the way to the ceremony to bury his ashes at the Veterans Memorial.
I already know it’s going to be hard but I’m hoping I get some sort of closure or peace? I miss him a lot.
Please send thoughts and energy to me if you can, I need it. ❤️
Pardon me, is it your Burr-thday?!
Happy Birthday
@GibiOfficial
💜 Thank you for being a guiding light for the entire community! You inspire me constantly and I’m beyond happy to be able to call you a friend. I hope you have the best day, you deserve it! So much love to you!!!
Nah fuck you and this tweet. Gibi is amazing is many ways but I will not stand for tearing down other creators to lift one up. Fuck outta here with that weak ass mindset . .
And for the record. I’m getting a lot of DM’s asking . . . I am not gay. I should also remind you that clothing and makeup does not equate to a certain sexuality. 🙄🤷🏾♂️
One of my favorite people on earth!
@FrivviFox
You are a light, a joy, a treasure! I’m at my best when I’m around you! I cherish our friendship more than you know! ☺️💜 So glad we got to hang!!
Today is my Dad’s funeral. I stayed up all night writing a speech that I’ll give. It’s going to be a rough day.
Please please send any positive vibes, thoughts or prayers to my family today. It’s finally hitting me. 😭
I got it, scratched it and I WON $150!!!!!!!!
So I cashed it and gave it to him and he started tearing up and said that this will catch up rent and he will be able to get his girlfriend the earrings he wanted to!!!!!!
AHHHHHH 😭😭😭💜💜💜💜
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
YouTube is a real job.
Just want to say thank you to everyone who reached out the last few days. I lost a very close friend of mine on Saturday & it’s been really hard.
If you’ve ever been in my streams, you know him as BigSmooove
I’m heartbroken by this sudden loss 💔
Thanks everyone.
Episode 10 of the Creator Code Podcast is Available!
This week's guest is
@GibiOfficial
🔥🔥
w/ 3.5M subs & over 1.2B views, Gibi has become a prominent figure not just in ASMR but on YouTube in general.
This was so fun! (LOTS of gems so listen up!)
>
I’ll tell you my secret:
I have an
- editor.
- graphic designer.
- idea team.
- audio engineer.
- prop designer.
- social media manager.
- analytic analyzer.
- videographer.
- photographer.
jk, it’s all me.
We do all of these. Be proud!!
We do so much! I’m proud of you!
We back on our healthy shit starting tomorrow. Meal prepping tonight. The guy on the left was last year. The guy on the right was also last year down 32. Let’s go 💪🏾💪🏾
OMG!!!!
The coolest thing just happened!!
I walked into 7-11. The kid that was working seemed really sad, almost on the verge of tears. I said “I hope you’re okay man” and he told me that he was short on rent and his girlfriends birthday was tomorrow . .
Happy Birthday
@GibiOfficial
😀 Thank you for being a friend, colleague, inspiration and overall good human being. You have opened doors for ALL of us and I’m proud to be able to call you my friend! Hope you have a wonderful Birthday!! 🎉🥳🎈🎁
💕 I was too busy dancing and eating a million desserts to get a lot of pictures on my phone so I promise more to come... grateful for this weekend and for all of you being so cute!
@BenDKnee53
is a brave brave soul 😆🥰
#27
trending for gaming.
I have 3 words in the video.
Since I’ll never be on the trending page myself I’m taking this as an absolute W.
Thanks
@GibiOfficial
😂😂😂
Alright enough is enough.
I want to create/host an ASMR Podcast with a different ASMRtist guest every week, asking the questions everyone wants to know.
Just putting that out into the universe. That’s all.
Today is a very special day in my family.
Today is “Mattman Day” a term coined by my Dad that celebrates the day I was adopted and picked up at the airport!!
I flew from Seoul to Portland! ✈️
These photos are their first moments as parents❤️❤️❤️❤️
Happy Mattman Day Everyone!
Sorry for being a bummer on here lately.
Between my never ending scary health stuff, two close friends dying, holidays with no family and not being able to consistently create . . it’s been a tough time.
I’m trying my best.
Important Doctor appointment today at 3pm. Never been this scared in my life 🥹
Please, please send any well wishes and positive energy my way today. It’s taking everything I am just to go.
I just can’t take anymore bad news 😔
Thanks everyone, love you all.
I miss him a lot and the amount of things to be done now is overwhelming.
Just wanted you all to know what was going on. I’m sorry to everyone who has reached out and I responded. This has been a nightmare.
Love you all. ❤️
Fun Fact: I had Santa’s List from today’s video actually made for real IRL . . 💜
(I couldn’t name every single ASMRtist obviously so regardless if you’re on here or not, much love to you and the community)
Please send positive right now.
Dealing with some potentially scary health issues tonight and may visit the ER if things don’t get better . . . .
Give me strength.
Happy Birthday
@MattyTingles
! ❤️❤️❤️ I’m so happy I got to meet you and we’ve become so close, you’re such a great guy and deserve the best! Have an amazing day today 🎂🎉🎈
Another close friend of mine died yesterday. That’s two of my best friends in two months. That plus the health stuff I have going on right now . . . . idk what I did to deserve this kind of pain.
I don’t understand.
Please PLEASE make it stop.
😭😭
Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today. You matter. You’re important. You’re loved. You’re beautiful and your presence on earth makes a difference whether you see it or not.
I haven’t been okay for months.
I don’t feel like myself.
My friends tell me I’m not myself.
I’m not happy.
I’m not inspired.
I’m not me.
Therapy went well yesterday.
Might go up to twice a week.
I need help and I’m trying my hardest.
Love you guys 💜