I know I’m not the biggest streamer or have the most viewers, but the fact that
@TSM
signed me because they believe in me and see my potential, is something that motivates me everyday.
Me contract with TSM was supposed to end in spring 2023, but I am very excited to announce that it has been extended into 2024! I’m so happy to be apart of this org and everything they do for me.
@TSM
💛
Apex needs to change something soon. Pub stompers aren’t enjoying pubs, and ranked grinders aren’t enjoying ranked. Viewership is down, and I see more apex streamers doing variety everyday.
On Saturday I realized my cat did not seem well. I took him to emergency immediately, and found out he had a very bad case of a fatal disease called FIP, mostly found in cats under 2. I sadly lost him that night.
I’ve decided to quit the competitive apex women’s scene, getting tired of the lack of effort put into tourneys and poor communication by some TO’s. We can’t even fill a lobby. Also, the competitiveness and passion of players is almost non-existent.
Incredibly happy that
@TSM
has decided to sign 3 more apex girls to the org, what a W for Women in gaming.
My role within the org has also transitioned to “Pro”, I will still be focusing on content, but very optimistic for the future :)
thank you guys for one of the best days of my life. Its insane how far we've come, i wouldnt be here without all of you. Also thank you
@TSM
and
@PlayApex
for the 100 gifted subs each. That was crazy.
funny how when I play with pros people point out mistakes I make 100x more than our third who’s a dude. Just wanted to remind you that I’m still better than you’ll ever be :)
I really hope ppl don’t think they’re funny tagging other Asian creators acting like they’re me as a joke in group photos. It’s pathetic af, it blows my mind how normalized Asian racism is.
just because streamers are successful doesn’t mean we don’t struggle with mental health. having followers, an org or high viewership, doesn’t fix the shit inside your head. we’re normal people just like you.
found out one of my viewers passed away. I hope I’m able to bring some light into peoples lives, because losing someone from your community as a streamer has to be one of the worst feelings ever.
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@ClaraATwork
@Knoqd
and I all went from being console nobodies, to all being signed to T1 orgs within the span of a year. We are a perfect example of not to give up on what you want. Anything can happen.
I started following a lot of smaller Apex streamers to host/raid. We all started somewhere. There’s a lot of talent in small creators and they deserve a chance. Seeing their reaction to a raid is always heartwarming as well ^-^
My dad is currently in the hospital, so I will not be flying back home today. I’ll be staying in the US for a few more days, not sure how many. Hope you guys understand.
so much internalized misogyny within the gaming community, and people wonder why i go through much work and effort to make sure the women of the apex community have a safe environment to compete.
the amount of pressure and stress I feel constantly in the women’s scene is exhausting. If I don’t win 24/7 I’m considered bad, if I win, I’m egoistical. Everything I say and do is depicted word for word and is over analyzed x1000.
you could be the most unproblematic and easy going person, and somehow people still find something to hate/not like about you. People are so weird man :/