*Ongoing Bucket List Tweet*
-Take at least one vacation trip to meet each friend in my circle of closest friends.
-Visit Banff National Park in Alberta.
-Rent an igloo like structure with a see-through roof and see the aurora borealis.
Three years ago today, I came perilously close to falling down the black hole that is suicide...thank goodness for my two closest friends, who gave me an emotional anchor to grab onto. Giving so much thanks for the wonderful life I have now.
💙💙💙
Do any teachers want some Halloween Squishmallows for classroom decorations? This five pack of adorable monsters is on Amazon!! Let me know if you feel like putting them on your list!!
I’m gonna tell my parents about my mental health struggles and my suicide attempts in about an hour; I’m so terrified...please send prayers or positive calming thoughts/vibes ☺️☺️☺️
Another option for teachers: Five Below has released their Halloween Squishmallows!
I’d like to get ten teachers on here four or five of these, which I can send right to their school. I’ll ask again in two weeks.
Finally getting back to my blog; hope you'll take a moment to read it.
*Caution-there may be some trigger warnings in my talking mental health struggles*
After a good full life of 91 years and several bits more, my grandma passed away during the night...It's unbearably sad to no longer have her here, but I'm very happy she's no longer suffering, and is reunited with my grandpa now 💙💙💙💙💙
Tomorrow marks the anniversary of a day I struggle with each time it comes around…if you could send some good vibes or positive thoughts my way during the 4th, I’d appreciate it very much 💙💜💚
To my friends:
I know tomorrow is a busy fun filled day (for the American part of my friends circle at least), but I wonder if you could spare a minute to check on me. I’d greatly appreciate it, as tomorrow is the anniversary of my avoiding the act of suicide.
Thank you 💙💙💙
Hey all my mutuals-
If you could send good thoughts and healing for my sister’s Mother in Law, Renee (to my left), she got in a car accident today that left her car undrivable. Sounds like a hit and run, from what few details I got. She was able to walk out to the sidewalk,
I felt like chiming in for
#WorldMentalHealthDay
. I have struggled/still struggle with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, periodic bouts of suicidal ideation, and more. Life has thrown a lot at me, but I have managed to stay afloat and move forward.
A sleepy level 42 woke up before 5:00, in desperate need of a blood sugar boost, so he’s eating a small meal while watching “Terminator 2”. Happy birthday to me!!
Thank you to everyone who left a message and good vibes for me below!! It went very well, even with me turning into a ball of feels ten seconds in 😭😭😭
Step one of many, I’m gonna begin work with an introvert guidance counselor this Wednesday! I’m very hopeful it will help!!
**warning-trigger words**
Feeling a dark downward spiral hitting me all over, calling for me to play with self harm...I’m resisting, but I’m hurting, I’m lost, I’m just two inches away from giving up, giving in, going away into my shell forever.
Positive vibes please...😔😔😔
I just found out that Squishmallow has an ankylosaurus one on Amazon for a good deal, so I just HAD to get my favorite dinosaur!!! It will be
#100
, unless the Friday arrival comes in early, lol.
@WriterJewell
I’m not an expert, but I’m reminded of Sandra Bullock’s self defense demonstration in “Miss Congeniality”. Go for the solar plexus, instep, nose, or groin.
It was a calm weekend overall, but the big big news finally came for me; I have type two diabetes, and must make some major changes in all areas of life. Hopefully I am up to this challenge, and sticking with it for the long haul...
One last Squishmallow from Black Friday!! Walmart really got me this time, haha.
Also got a mega pack of Christmas cards: time to get those into the post office!!
Happy St Patrick’s Day! I chose to wear my friendship necklaces, which have several green charms attached, including a four leaf clover, because I’m so lucky to have these friends in my life! 🍀💚
In a new effort to push forward in the next eight months and pay back my dental work debts, I posted this at my work PC. Gonna try my best to not get any new Squishmallows, in particular, since I suppose I have enough 😉😂