Almost the full Snow Moon, which means the next episode of my book club - here’s a taster. To celebrate the North-East events coming up, here’s a section set in
#weardale
, as I look across
#durham
to
#newcastle
&
#northumberland
.
Where’s your favourite place to watch the moon?
Starting to remember that this is how you build a book. Stolen hours while children sleep. Notes tapped into a phone outside the supermarket. Barely readable lines scrawled in a book. Grab it before it floats away.
Woke from a bad dream this morning, opened my shutters and remembered why I fell in love with Northumbrian skies. Also it’s reassuring to know that the sea is just beneath that tiny dash of yellow between the houses. Wilderness at my bedroom window
Special kind of subdued quiet outside while I write this morning. Look at that heavy sky. I’m sure I’ll be dragged to the nearest hill later on by excited daughters ❄️
My daughter’s EHCP application was rejected today. She’s been unable to attend school for over a year. Straight on with the appeal-outrageous that she’s been denied funding for an education that meets her needs & supports her mental health. Been here before and it’s unacceptable.
I can’t tell you how hard it is when your child can’t face school. It is upsetting and challenging for the child & the parent, and it’s very hard for single parents to work. Cutting my child benefit would not help
@michaelgove
. Education around reasons for non-attendance might.
Mothering alone, caring for poorly children, claustrophobic and also hidden. I’m thinking today that for all of the words about wilderness, often the unseen living/loving/surviving is more fierce or raw than any windswept beach.
I am researching women walking alone, the impact this can have on creativity and social/safety implications of being a woman out on her own. Found Flaneuse by
@LaurenElkin
and
@kerriandrewsuk
’s book v helpful. Also Solnit. Any other recommendations gratefully received :-)
Listened to this driving home on the school run in advance of a tricky meeting. My daughter isn’t broken, she has been trying to survive in systems that do not understand her needs. She is healing and we are not alone. Thank you
@_MissingTheMark
1 reason my child’s EHCP was refused was due to her voice not being heard. She is often mute. Today, moments before the tribunal deadline, she wrote down her experience. I saw the effort it took on her face, . Even if we lose I feel like we have won. I’m so proud of her ❤️
Today’s 3-hour diagnostic interview was an example in how to listen to parents & validate their experience. I’ve waited years for someone to understand my child & see her as unique not broken. Still a way to go but today felt hopeful. Thanks for the kindness🤍
#SEND
#autism
Tomorrow I have yet another long meeting with specialist neurodevelopmental services, a diagnostic appeal following last week’s
#EHCP
tribunal. Solo
#SEND
parenting requires superhuman strength. Listening to parents in the first place would save so much trouble. Onwards…🤍
I’ve been feeling small all week, shrunken and unsure. Then today someone who had read my book described it as ‘big, bold-hearted writing’, and I remembered that there are times when I burn hard ✨🌙✨
The 9yo is still unable to attend school which is tough. But she is doing some beautiful creative stuff at home. So pleased she can express herself through pictures when her words won’t come 😍
COVER REVEAL! Look at this beauty! Twelve Moons is now available to pre-order from all the usual retailers. If you are looking for a ‘deft, fierce and beautiful’ memoir, this might just be the one for you... 🌑🌒🌓🌔🌕🌖🌗🌘🌑
The day before school starts and the littlest one’s tears have been flowing on and off all holiday. Dreaming of a world where my children are compatible with school, or where alternative options don’t feel so radical
Finished my MA! I’m so grateful to my tutors & colleagues at
@bathspauni
for enriching my life in so many ways. By the end of this month proofs of my book will go out to writers whose words are so beautiful they seem like magic to me. An exhilarating dream coming true. I did it!
Such JOY last night at
@ForumBooks
launching Twelve Moons into the wild ✨🌙✨ And already messages from readers across the world in Tasmania, New Zealand, the US...what a privilege to connect with new people. The magic of words...
Finally got proper photos and it forced me to really look at myself which was uncomfortable. Having worked as an actor I am used to photos but I always took on a persona. I’m more comfortable exposing myself through words. Thanks to Fiona Saxton for this wild Northumbrian shot.
I’ve finally sent off all the paperwork for my child’s SEND tribunal. No legal rep, it’s just me against the local authority. Wish me luck!
#ehcp
#education
#notfineinschool
Swam here today, a pool Earl Grey built for his home-educated children over 200 years ago. I write about it in my book, which will very shortly be making its way out into the world 🤩
Northumberland was shining today. Tried to clear my head but finding the prospect of writing another book in snatched moments a bit daunting at the moment. Looking forward to recording another podcast after tea though 😊
It’s the tribunal hearing today. I feel like this tiny moon hanging onto the edge of all the chaos that’s been hurled at me. Tired of being the collateral damage for the unkindness and incompetence of others. Hoping for some humanity and reason 🙏
#EHCP
#SEND
#education
Can anyone recommend books on the nomadic spirit, that explore whether humans are inherently nomadic? I’m interested in the struggle between the need to call a place home, and the desire to explore. Thank you!
#BookTwitter
Grateful to the amazing teacher who spent 75 minutes at beach school 1:1 with my 9yo. Totally child-centred approach for a little girl who has not been to school since February. I sat nearby so she could see me and when we left she told me she’d like to try again next week 🤍😭
Horrible dreams last night - anxiety about assessments and mediations followed me into bed. Woke to a sky filled with sunlight, headed straight to the beach. So lucky to live near the sea, to quieten the voices telling me no and just feel wild and unstoppable for a while ✨🌙✨
Filed a piece of writing this morning about missing the city then drove to the beach and wondered what I was thinking... sea and snow is such a great combination. ✨🌙✨
Delighted to have a feature on beach schools in
@CountryfileMag
. Not everyone finds the classroom the easiest place to learn and
@EmbletonSchool
work hard to nurture curiosity and wonder outdoors. I hope this article helps build a conversation around alternative learning 🌊
This is thought-provoking. The way we can become diminished. I wonder how many hidden artists have done the domestic work and cared for children so that their partners can shine?
Really excited to say that I am now working with Tim Bates
@PFDAgents
. What a few weeks it has been - my memoir on mothering and moons is starting to take shape...
Moved house. Mammoth effort and I feel thinner from the stress but proud as hell that I managed it. The girls want to say goodbye to our old house today before we hand the keys in 😭. I don’t know how that will feel, and I’m grateful for this Parting Moon watching over us ✨🌙✨
1/ Today I sent off the application to appeal at the tribunal against my LA’s decision not to fund my child’s education. I wrote a statement in her support because the form was hard to navigate and I wasn’t sure I’d advocated clearly enough, but what I really wanted to say was…
I love recording podcasts - ideal book promotion for this single mum of four. No childcare required and the host can edit the kids out if they burst into the room 😆. Great chats with interesting people about memoir and moons ✨🌙✨
I’ve been running a women’s singing group in my living room for a few years. It is one of life’s joys. I keep it small so we can all squeeze in and we sing while my children are in bed. Tonight we were practicing this lullaby by one of our favourite groups,
@LadyMaisery
✨🌙✨
Last year my 14yo was in a wheelchair following a bad bout of covid. She also required urgent psychiatric care & found speaking very difficult. Tonight she is making a speech about her experiences as an autistic girl and this feels like a huge moment
#autism
#IWD
@AutisticGirls_
More books to sign over breakfast, now I’m in London and looking forward to talking to
@RevRichardColes
and
@nikkibedi
about Twelve Moons tomorrow morning on
@BBCRadio4
✨🌙✨
Northumberland is shining today. Sand scattered with redshank prints, air alive with birdsong. Arrived feeling lonely, left feeling a little fuller ✨🌙✨
Here is a little piece of Northumberland for anyone, like me, heading into a week of appointments and battling for support for their children. Keep going, you are not alone and you are seen ✨🌙✨
Children’s birthdays make me nostalgic. This is me nearly 16 years ago, hiding exhaustion with eyeliner. I was lost long before I became a mother - not in any terrible sense, just that it’s taken me time to realise what I am capable of, know that I can be brave when it counts.
Gorgeous to pop in to the Accidental Bookshop and sign some copies of Twelve Moons. It looks beautiful shining on the shelves thank you
@annabookdesign
✨🌙✨
So excited to show you the shiny finished hardback of Twelve Moons! Out 1 month today & available to pre-order from all the usual places. Thanks to everyone involved & all supporters of this book, including
@annabookdesign
for this stunning cover ✨🌙✨
@HarperNorthUK
@PFDAgents
I’ve started a new project with the little two and it involves treading a lot of new and old paths. The flip side of the huge administrative and emotional load attached to having children who struggle in traditional school models is moments like this, that feel like magic ✨
Wrote some words over on Instagram about not going Back To School and why I don’t/can’t share doorstep photos. Seemed to strike a chord. You have to be brave to not fit in day after day, even when you feel scared. Here are my fierce daughters, who all learn in their own way 🤍
It’s my birthday and I keep thinking how much has changed in the last few years. I’m the same woman but different. Different family set-up, different name, different job, different dreams. It’s taken a while to reframe the dreams but I’m getting there ✨🌙✨
2/…my child is so much more than a million forms and appointments. There are dreams hidden amongst her silence. She is everything and she deserves so much better. I suppose I really wanted to say this. ✨
Rock pool swim. Daughter born on the solstice chatters amongst the oystercatchers. Words tumble free and easy from this caul bearer baby who is happiest with her toes in the water. Life makes more sense when she can taste the salt on her tongue. ✨🌙✨
Breakfast swim under a waning moon. My daughter wants to be in the water every day, it’s when she comes alive. Her voice is silent at the moment but inside she is roaring. Last time life got tough the sea saved us, will it work its magic again?
The creaking of a new book coming to life. I started the first draft of Twelve Moons in the third person because I wasn’t sure who I was. It took time to admit that she was me. So interesting, how we tell our stories, how we place ourselves and others onto the page.
The 10yo and 8yo have spent the morning restocking the library they have made in their room. The new theme is nature writing, complete with a cosy reading corner. Greek myths always available 😍📚
We can’t march in London today but we have been doing our own gentle protest against violence, making candle holders so we can light candles when it gets dark. I want my children, especially the one who can’t always talk, to know there are other ways to raise your voice. 🤍🕊️
Today is the deadline for submitting supporting evidence for my daughter’s EHCP tribunal. The process is certainly designed to break - it’s confusing and intimidating. I’m unravelling how this all feels for my next book. So grateful for this hour to get the words down ✨
Promised myself I won’t read reviews but broke my own rule and LOOK. The process of writing Twelve Moons required me to face some very uncomfortable truths, but if by exposing them I can make connections like these, it will have been worth it. Head back in sand now ✨🌙✨
Morning words about lost memories and fens. Made it to Friday, several hard appointments this week and none of the answers I wanted. But trying to remain hopeful, and I’m grateful for an hour to pour thoughts onto the page ✨
Really happy to see Twelve Moons alongside these beautiful books and recommended by the
@DartingtonTrust
shop - ‘practical, personal and poetic writings on nature’ ✨🌙✨
Fiction. New regime. 1000 words before breakfast. Does anyone else find that declaring intention makes it more likely the words will get written? Happy Monday 🖊️
This brave beauty proved to be less of a cure for sleep and more of an alternative to sleep in the middle of the night. As I face my fears in the final edits of my own memoir, I can only hope that
@tanyashadrick
’s courage is infectious. Glorious
There are days when the responsibility of educating my kids in the absence of appropriate support can feel like A LOT. Then a sweet daughter produces work like this and I remember that learning is so hard to measure, there is more than one way to shine ✨
Next month the story I wrote in the dark will see the light. I’ll end this year as I started it, staring hard at the moon and willing it to ground me. Wishing everyone a healthy and peaceful new year✨🌙✨
Woke up early this morning and read 50 more pages of this before the day started properly. It is immense
@sallyhayd
, not sure how to articulate its importance. It’s harrowing and shocking, written with such clarity and bravery.
Took a candle to the beach to celebrate the winter solstice. Watched the light burn. Crouched low to the flame and it flickered under our breath. Then raised our arms to the sky, wind-whipped and wild. Now bring on the night ✨🌙✨
Thank you
@PFDAgents
for the beautiful publication day flowers 😍. Love that I can save the bulbs and wait for them to grow while I’m writing the next book...✨🌙✨
Today I had 30 minutes without any children to look after for the first time in many weeks, maybe months. I ran into the rain and when I turned back the world had turned into a shimmer
#Northumberland
Today is
#InternationalDayofPeoplewithDisability
. On Monday my mermaid daughter will deliver a speech about the challenges faced by neurodivergent women and girls. She will tell a story of witches and fire with a crown upon her head. This is what courage looks like 🔥
I struggle with the concept of resilience. My kids don’t struggle in school because they aren’t resilient, they need a different environment. I see their ‘resilience’ every day when they are forced to navigate a world that doesn’t cater for their needs
Distilling and communicating massive ideas is one of the hardest aspects of writing a book.Explaining succinctly to other people what the inside of your head looks like - not easy 😳
Down to the city to record the audio for Twelve Moons. Doing it over 3 random days to fit in with my precarious childcare situation. So grateful to
@HarperNorthUK
for their thoughtfulness and inclusivity. Loved staring at this gently waning moon while I waited for my train ✨
In cheery news, my publisher just sent me a photo of the hardback of Twelve Moons and it is so beautiful I cried with actual JOY! Only five weeks until publication... ✨🌙✨
Today in my Life Writing class for
@NewWritingNorth
we will be thinking about using the senses to bring our writing to life. I’ve chosen these books to explore but could have selected many more. Which writers would you recommend for engaging, sensory experiences?
#creativewriting
Wrote about the impact of capitalism upon my daughters this morning inspired by
@DrRJChapman
and Barbara Kingsolver. 1000 words for book 2 before breakfast. Also new desk! 😍
Back from a youth hostel by the sea. Skies ripped open, bare feet burning in ice, nights spinning in daughters. Home to an almost-full moon, a life on the edge of something. Found
@kerrinidochartaigh
’s beautiful words to remind me that I did write a story, I did create this book.
Paperback copies of Twelve Moons by Caro Giles have landed in the office and they are BEAUTIFUL! A powerful and redemptive memoir for readers of The Salt Path and The Outrun🌙✨🌊
Publishing 18 Jan 2024, and available to pre-order:
Now into the 5th month of my daughter not speaking. But last week two beautiful things happened: she answered questions about her favourite topic, Greek Myths, and she re-enacted her favourite book, The Hatmakers. Both times she used words. Her brain fascinates me...
Welcomed in the Cold Moon with a sunrise swim at Bamburgh. Ran shrieking into the sea as the sun dripped onto cold sand. Bare arms and legs glowed orange as the day exploded…
Moving house is a huge challenge. This morning I took photos of light landing on our walls. This is the home where I began to realise who I am and what I’m capable of, and that’s what I’m trying to remember as I pack our lives into boxes. But the light. I will miss this light. ✨
It is always difficult to write memoir when your story has been wrapped up in others. Today I walked on the beach with my daughter and thought about how hard it has been to raise my voice. To begin with, this story was about another woman, but all along it was me 🌙✨
Back on it after the tribunal drama. Need to get to 50k words by the end of the month. Sustained by tea, candles and last night’s really excellent session with my writing group 🤍