My M.A. thesis is dedicated to my mom who raised 3 daughters alone with a 40+ hrs/wk job, my late father 🙏🏾, and Black girls in STEM 👩🏾🚀👩🏾💻👩🏾🏫👩🏾🔬👩🏾🔧👩🏾⚕️👩🏾🎓.
@solangeknowles
A Seat at the Table and her song F.U.B.U. inspired me.
#blackandstem
#blackgirlmagic
Late night thoughts/thread: Being in graduate school as a first-gen and from a family who lived under the poverty line is very interesting. As a grad student I make more money than my mom ever did. To my family it seems like I have already “made it”.
Today I accomplished something.....I passed my qualifying exam and am officially a PhD Candidate! 4 years ago, I was told at my previous institution that I couldn't continue on to the doctoral program after my quals there and I had to leave with a Master's. (1/n)
I bought cotton scented air fresheners for the undergrad physics lounge and they were thrown away by my peers, and I was told one said “why do I picture Caprice picking cotton when I smell this air freshener?”
#BlackintheIvory
Long overdue but... my name is Caprice (she/her), I am a current PhD student in Astronomy
@OSUAstro
, I have a M.A. in Astronomy from
@UTAustin
, and a B.S in Physics from
@UALR
where I was a McNair Scholar 👩🏾🏫
@UALRMcNair
Finally got my M.S in Astronomy in the mail today. I’m like high-key emotional about it because of how hard this was for me to get here. But I’m super proud of myself and next stop is Ph.D. in about 3 years time!
#BlackInAstro
Being
#BlackintheIvory
means listening to a professor tell you that '...maybe they didn't know how much you didn't know when they admitted you'---Implying my admittance was a mistake. 😒
I’m at a point in academia where I’m not going to hide or pretend that there isn’t problems in my life that come from me being a BW or from a poor background. These things affect my ‘productivity’ and I’m not gonna pretend it’s not happening because it makes folks uncomfortable.
Set a financial boundary with my older sister today and she blocked me on FB and told me “f*ck you”. 🙃🥲. Ultimately, It’s hard coming from an impoverished background in grad school because your family looks at you and thinks “you’ve made it”.
I guess my point is that it becomes harder to just focus on school while constantly worrying about these things. And the pressure to “make it” to financially help your family is very stressful.
Y’all get ready because this is what the labs and classrooms are gonna look like real soon!! We out here!! 👨🏾💻👩🏾💻🌌🔭🌟☄️
#BlackandSTEM
#blackastronomers
Astronomy departments and all of academia here is what we are NOT gonna do: use the “older white men” as scapegoats for reason these departments are pushing Black students out. The junior white faculty is just as guilty.
I was legitimately the only woman in ALL my physics classes for the 4.5 years I was an undergraduate student. I experienced sexual harassment and racist comments and jokes from my peers.
To the people accusing me of lying in my comments about my
#BlackintheIvory
stories...just because you can't/refuse to grasp or want to believe that people can be like this is not my problem or anyone else's problem who share their stories.
White academics (faculty, postdocs, grad students, undergrads etc), if you have a Black student blocked on Twitter for calling you out about something, maybe it’s time to revisit that and A.) ask yourself why you blocked them B.) apologize and do better.
Being
#BlackintheIvory
means being constantly asked if you want to get your PhD in a PhD PROGRAM (MICROAGGRESSION). Despite getting the same answer everytime. Like TF you think I came here to get, a Golden Ticket to the Willy Wonka factory? 😒
#BlackInAstro
some of my photos of me with telescopes included is a trip to the Green Bank Telescope📡 in WV, a very rough looking me at 2am remote observing at LBT in Arizona🌵, my first observing trip at Keck🌅, and me in downtown Nantucket🔭 doing outreach/posing.
Jumping in for the
#BlackInPhysicsRollCall
for
#BlackInAstro
. My name is Caprice and I'm a 2nd year PhD student at
@OSUAstro
. I am also a LSSTC DSFP Fellow. I am studying whether we can detect certain biosignatures in the atmospheres of super-Earths with
@NASAWebb
. 😃
I'm a finalist for this fellowship I thought I stood no chance at. We still have do interviews and a presentation for final final selection. But I'm still choosing to celebrate this accomplishment, even if I don't win the fellowship.
No f*cking way! I'm so honored to receive this award. I thought it was a snowballs chance I would actually be awarded. The P.E.O. Scholar Award is "intended to recognize and encourage academic excellence and achievement by women in doctoral-level programs"
When I first started grad school, I used to carry around a notebook and write down words I didn’t know. It’s so weird seeing this list and seeing how far I’ve come.
Not getting paid for a month+ when starting grad school is very stressful because I didn’t have a safety net. Whatever money I saved from the Summer was my grocery/bill money. Some of my peers weren’t worried because they have money from their parents set aside.
This is a reminder to myself as well, but as awards are being rolled out PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't let your self-worth and identify as a scientist be tied to these decisions, because it's simply not true. You are going to do amazing things whether or not a fellowship works out.
Astronomers ya'll have spent the last 5, 10, 15, 20+ years studying the universe and ya'll can recall equations on the spot, remember what an article said 20 years ago, stand up and lecture on topics for over an hour etc. It's impressive.
If you don’t come from a poor background, it makes sense that you don’t think about these things. I’ve learned that some of my peers have their parents paying all or a good portion of their rent, they drive their parents cars/ have cars bought for them etc.
The reality of
#BlackinAstro
is that I have never been in a space/job where someone hasn't questioned me. It doesn't have to be loud, it is the micro aggressions or that little voice in my head that says 'that's weird they are telling me this' (Thread) (1/n)
So, I didn't get the Ford Fellowship. This one hurts more and I'm pretty upset because I'm human. But also ya girl is burnt-out from TAing and I can't do it anymore so if anyone knows of any other funding opportunities through NASA or anything else please let me know.
People tend to become really uncomfortable when you talk about these things or even worse they try to level with you which is insulting/infuriating. Getting a loan from your parents is not the same as being actually poor. Having dial-up because you live in the middle of no where
To say I am heartbroken is an understatement. I am empty. How can I accept that my world is gone? She was the first person to see an astronomer in me. She raised me, she shaped me. Her laugher filled the room. Her hugs were everything. This doesn’t feel real. I love you momma.
I used to always wonder how everyone was able to go home for the holidays for lengthy periods and I later learned that their parents pay for them to come home. I was shocked because I had never heard of this.
Last summer while I was working in a remote area in Mineral King I did a lot of astronomy outreach. This is a comet de struggle☄️ I made out of a rock, aluminum foil, and a stick with some paper. Had to get creative. The budget was tight. 😂
#BlackInAstro
Watching academics who have pushed out Black students, failed to mentor them, and failed them countless other ways say 'Black Lives Matter' is surreal.
I'm super heart-broken about not being selected for a fellowship program. I know it's not personal - I just really really wanted the opportunity for so many reasons. I've already cried about it and I know it's part of the process for academia, but I just feel a bit defeated today
Just wanted to pop in to share some happy news that I found out this morning I was selected to receive a AAUW Dissertation Fellowship. Very honored to be awarded. I wore a purple ring for my mom today as it was her favorite color. I hope she is proud of me.
#BlackInAstro
Everytime my mom tells me she had heavy rain my stomach drops because I’m scared the roof will get damaged and i wonder how we will fix it. Same thing when her car is having problems. I just start seeing dollar signs that I don’t have.
As I was working the Summer before grad school to pay for a down payment for a place, my peers had opportunities to vacation before school started. I worked all Summer and still had to request an advance to help me pay for my truck.
My gramps passed last night. He was the coolest grandpa I could have asked for. He always entertained my weirdness and we shared so many laughs together. I miss him so much already. 💔
For me I will have to save up for a year to see my family for maybe a couple of weeks a year. Again to my family I have already made it so they don’t understand why they don’t see me more often.
Not my 3 year old nephew/son seeing my shirt and saying “planets are very cool” 😭. And he asked me “what do clouds do?” Now I wanna get him all the astronomy stuff. 😩😩😩
A friend of mines
@ChenesiaBrown
was the one to let me know most grad students are not broke, because I was constantly surprised by what my peers have/don’t worry about. I still am.
But ya girl did it and I'm a PhD Candidate now. I'm so happy! It truly feels amazing to be surrounded by people that believe in me and want the best for me. (5/n)
Is not the same as not being able to afford internet in your house. It’s hard for people to sit in the fact that those around them have these struggles, so I guess it’s natural to try to relate/ change topics. It’s still annoying AF.
Imagine if ya'll had this same energy for learning about social justice, equitable teaching practices, equity, inclusion and diversity, regularly hiring consultants, reading some books what level of bandwidth you would have to talk about and actively work on these issues
Question for Astronomers/Physicists: Why do ya'll have such a disregard/disrespect for the social sciences? Is it because the social sciences don't allow you to pretend that science exists in a bubble? Is it that social sciences hold you accountable with evidence?
Mood when you get invited/asked to talk about “DEI” instead of your research. So many feelings: irritated, frustrated, disrespected to name a few. I’m so tired.
#BlackInAstro
🥲🫠
These Black science communicators/scientists/awesome people have been making changes in their field for years, the same/if not more than their counterparts, yet they have not received verification marks. It is a matter of principle and recognition on their behalf.
You know, I really feel like the way that graduate admissions are done is such a secret. Like why? Like how are professors chosen to be on an admission committee? Do they have a set rubric for way candidates are evaluated? Do they actually look at entire applications?
When I first started grad school in Austin, I drove back and forth about 7+ hours in my car to get all my things there. I slept on a thin yoga mat I was given and a thick blanket for over a month because I didn’t have any money yet for a bed and I couldn’t afford a UHAUL.
My very first paper is out on arXiv today (thread)!
My work involving characterizing a peculiar companion is OUT:
This is the main story of my project (1/n):
On a positive note today...I’m almost done working on my website. Still gotta finish up some things though. If my fellow
#BlackInAstro
folxs have websites drop em!
While I’m at it today... astronomy departments (academia in general) has it sunk in that y’all can’t even offer your “thoughts and words” to Black faculty because there are none in y’alls department? Why is that? 🤔
The pressure to have 'perfect' grades is very real and so toxic. Last year, I legit was on the verge of having a meltdown over a problem set in my graduate astronomy class. I went to Target and filled my cart full of stuff I didn't need to make myself feel better.
Being
#BlackintheIvory
means being told a reason you can't continue is that 'there isn't enough time for you to learn what you need to know in the 5 year goal of graduation', and having to watch as your former colleagues take 5,6,7 years to graduate (which is totally normal)
Hi everyone, unfortunately we found out our mom didn’t have life insurance and we need to pay out of pocket for the funeral and burial. If anyone would be able to help support us for her expenses we would appreciate it. Please share around. We need a minimum of $4300 in 1wk. 😢
To say I am heartbroken is an understatement. I am empty. How can I accept that my world is gone? She was the first person to see an astronomer in me. She raised me, she shaped me. Her laugher filled the room. Her hugs were everything. This doesn’t feel real. I love you momma.
She paved the way for Black Women in STEM with her wits and self-determination in times where we are told we can’t. She could and she DID. Thank you. Rest easy to this legend. 💔
We're saddened by the passing of celebrated
#HiddenFigures
mathematician Katherine Johnson. Today, we celebrate her 101 years of life and honor her legacy of excellence that broke down racial and social barriers:
A friend of mines told me how another grad student bought a new car and paid in full for it because they live with their parents and dont pay for anything. I’ve seen my peers get brand new cars days after theirs broke down eventually like it was nothing.
However, It is important they receive the same recognition (via Twitter verification) that others receive, not simply for its sake but because of what it represents. I'm DAMN proud of these folxs and will always continue to GAS them TF up!
We celebrated
@maejemison
becoming verified and we celebrate up-and-coming junior scientists making impact as well. These folks have written pieces for major news articles, made the Forbes list, magazine covers, started campaigns, reached large audiences with damn good science
Hi everyone, I'm on the co-organizers of
@BlackInAstro
and we are working on the website and are looking for Black folks in the space related fields for our profiles section on the site.
#BlackInAstro
My mom’s nursing home facility is allowing visitors and this means I will actually get to give my mom a hug and sit with her. It’s been nearly 3 years since I’ve hugged my mom.
Just a reminder that Sociology is a part of STEM. It is a Social SCIENCE. During undergrad I enjoyed taking classes like Social Stratification, Intro to Sociology, Social Problems, and Experiences of Black Americans. I wish I had taken more honestly.
Sorry I don't have else much to say, I just wanted to thank everyone for their kindness and support during this really hard time for me. I miss my mom so much, my heart just feels so heavy. Trying to take it one day at a time.
So update on the fellowship, I didn't get it, but that's okay too. I want to be more open about these types of things, because it's so normal to only post the 'wins' which leads to imposter syndrome and false sense of academia. I'm proud of myself for making it as a finalist!
I'm so happy that I finally have a support system that sees my potential and believes in me and have never told me I was going to fail. It's hard for me to accept that people in belief in me after years of emotional, mental and psychological trauma from UT. (4/n)
For many years I have sat in silent shame about feeling like I failed but IT WAS THEM THAT FAILED ME. I was told before I took my exam (many months before) that I was going to fail and it sent me into a state of depression and anxiety I'm still recovering from today.(2/n)
We got ~34 people on the profile pages, I know more of us are out there so please spread the word and fill out to form to showcase that WE are out here in the space sciences from astronomy-aerospace-space policy. All levels welcome!
#BlackInAstro
I am just learning that my Gramps didn't have a policy and we are in need of help to pay for his services. Funeral home has quoted us ~$3000. If anyone is able to help or just share I would greatly appreciate it. I have Venmo (
@Caprice
-Phillips) & PayPal ()
After learning I was accepted into a PhD program, a faculty member at my undergrad (who taught many of my physics classes) told me if he didn’t remember nothing else about me he would remember I had a penguin walk. I went to the bathroom and cried.
#BlackintheIvory
It was never in my wildest dreams that I thought I would see so many Black Women in Physics and Astro like this. I used to think I was completely alone before I discovered this amazing community. This aint even all of us!
#JUNETEENTH2020
#BlackandSTEM
This
#JUNETEENTH2020
we celebrate
#BLACKandSTEM
. This group of Black women in
#Physics
&
#Astronomy
give me LIFE. They've made me laugh, given me strength, and hold me in community during this painful moment. We celebrate each-other!