Weekly reflection: I feel pushed out a lot in large groups. I feel like my worth and friendship is defined on how long a play a game with people or don't play. It's been hard to come to terms with being on the outs because I don't push my social limits.
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this is something I've been struggling a lot with and working on. I feel like I'm a lone in this feeling a bit. I'm not able to be social 24/7, but I still feel behind socially, and that I don't matter because I can't play games 24/7.
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This isn't an at post. This is my being in my own head. These are just things I feel, something I'm working on not feeling <3
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@cherry_shinobi
Me today 🤡 I stay to myself a lot and it's probably not the best plan.
But other days I'm okay with that. I also try to remember that my brain is relating worth to stuff that doesn't actually measure it.
I also have more than 3 friends, this was me joking about ff14 🤠
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@SachaSleeps
awwwwwww *hugs you* I know everyone is different and we all try to be there when we can but I don't believe that pushing your limits is something that should keeps people around. I'm the same way. I'm okay with it some days and others it makes me feel left behind. weeps
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@cherry_shinobi
Na f that, ur such a sweet ass person cherry and deserve to be around people who appreciate u. Bbygirl we can talk about paint and I’ll be good
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@cherry_shinobi
You’re heckin amazing Cherry! Reminders that Xiggy and me will like you no matter what game you play 😤
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@cherry_shinobi
I feel this a lot because of my timezone, I wish I could hang out with everyone but my timezone limits me so much I feel like I can’t make so many friends because of it :(
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@Livviiy
This too!! If anything I leave a lurk when I’m at work, but it’s like I wanna be there weeps.
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It hurts me when I feel insecure in my friendships when I never was before. I hate that overthinking and bad brain that tells me otherwise this time where I’ve had to step back bc of multiple things…it just makes me sad at myself a ton 🥺💕
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To those who commented and reached out: I love you guys. I’m so grateful to be surrounded by you all. I’m sorry most of us have been feeling this way. *hugs* to each of you. 🌸
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@cherry_shinobi
You know you're never on the outs with me. I tried to DM you on discord but I know you're extremely busy I'm also trying my best not to be a pest so that way you have a chance to do what you need to be doing. I've been here the whole time and still cheering for you ❤️
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@JustGetStart217
I appreciate you a ton!!! It’s so hard to communicate so I know it’s mainly on me. We’re all trying our best. Vice versa love 💕
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